It hurts

It hurts so bad, getting from bad to worse. Really. I am out of breathe. I am. I want to be a kid once more. I want to turn back time to 2years back. I don’t want all these. Cause it suck.

I am worried, like almost everyday. I get more and more sensitive. I hate it. All I want is a home. A HOME ! A home where I will feel save in it. A home with warmth. They don’t have to be rich. But I want happiness from it. I want a home. But, it seemed as though I have lost it. I miss it now.

Everyday and night, even if I am out. I think about them. I am afraid that they may quarrel. I want to let go. I don’t want to care. But I can’t. I really can’t.

God. Can you please save me? Can you please grant me this wish? I want a home, badly. I am trying hard to be good. I have changed a big lot, but still am not perfect. Will you please, grant me this wish? Please .