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这一切，都变了。。

大家都在成长中。。
踏入了成熟的阶段。。
都与以前不一样了。。

回想起从前，
大家都好开心。。
大家的脸上都会有笑容。。
可是现在，这一切都不见了。。

这是我一个人的想法吗？
还是大家都一样？

我好乱。。
我开始找不到自己。。
找不到大家了。。

以前所认识的。。
一个个都变坏了。。
一个个都伤心了。。
一个个都有烦恼了。。

可是，我却帮不上什么。。
一天到晚只会玩。。

我告诉自己要改。。
要成熟。。
可是，我办不到。。

我好讨厌。。
好讨厌看到大家难过。。
我还能在那旁笑。。

我好希望。。
大家能开心。。
能像以前一样。。

就算我不能开心，
我愿意用我的欢乐，
来换取大家的悲伤。。

可以吗？

偲铭

sounds stupid,but its from the bottom of my heart

nothing is ever important .
6:11 PM

ahh !! soo jidan !!
my comp come bac, tink sot ler. grr..
nw use cousin de comp firs.. haiss..

now blog fas fas, jiu dunwan use comp ler..
so siann.. howhow ?
my stupid comp canot !! grr !!
siannss...

today almos late... lucky no late larr !
if nt horr.. i sure die de.. mdm hazwah sure scold.. lolss..
hmm.. today nt bad lorr..
only nw come home like that nia.

shall end here lerr bahh..
ps for e short post.. LOLS !

__edit__

YAY !! my comp supersuper cute !
i on put there, go slp..
den wake up.. dnno why, can lerr..

wee ~~ XD
soo happy ! hahas!

nothing is ever important .
3:11 PM

awww.. backk . XD
hmm.. dint blog ytd, cus was too tired.. hahas !

POP was alrightalright.. cus no one cried ! XD
when came bac, was like damn tired luhhs..
slackslack, almost around wan 8 ler den reach home..

today, "guyi" late for school..
jieyi saww ~~ hahas !
first time late sia.. no feeling .. LOLS !

and, i SAW KIMBERLEY KUAN !!
OMOM ! soo miss her larrr ! XDD
soo happy lorr.. damndamn long no see dao .. hehee..

den reach class, mdm hazwah was like asking wad time i wake..
den i was like.. i overslept..
den i tink afew times, den i rpl her..
den anyhw gif excuse.. lols..

common test was.. nt nice ~
alot all dnno.. jitao sian bodoh..
den had all e lessons lorr.. v boring der ~~

after school, go mac wif shirly and kim..
go dere study abit bahh.. at least gt study dao.. hahas..
den i tink after awhile, fengmao came..
den they go watch movie..
b4 they watch, lindsay and jieyi came oso..

den after they go watch,
left me , lindsay and jieyi..
study for awhile more, 5+ jiu come home bahh..
damn tired nw.. haahs !

takecares to all !! XDD
craving for it

nothing is ever important .
5:33 PM

aww ! finally, i am back ! ^^

friday
all was alrite.. had training ~~
they did PT, and i nv .. casualty.. tis time is REAL de okk !!
den had POP de rehearsal.. tis yr and las yr de diff norhh.. lols !
after training, jiu chiong go porch there find HIM and HER lerr..
they waited for me ..
den, we went bac malaysia lorr.. siann
go bac so shuang.. first ting i go in, jiu ask HIM can drink mahh..
and he said can !! XDD soo happy lorr..
hmm.. den i tink cus too long nv drink..
or eat heaty + nt heaty de food.. den my stomach canot take it..
den go "lausai" .. tt night, i tink until 12+ den slp bahh

saturday
3.30 nid wake up lerr..
cus "ahkiat korkor" marry .. den nid helphelp..
hmm.. den do all lerr..
around 7+ jiu settle liaos, jiu go bac hse lorr..
hmm..den e whole day jiu slackslack..
nite, go out eat.. and HE allowed me to drink again..
heheheehe...
den after tt jiu go back lerr..
nite, around 12 jiu slp ler bahh..
v short de day.. hahsa !

sunday
hmm.. around 8 like tt wake up, jiu go out eat norhh
after that whole day at home..
den around 6+ go e place for wedding dinner lerr..
slackslack and walked around..
SHE saw alotalot of her friends..
and , i drank too.. quite abit more than normal..
gt ppl say face abit red , bt nvm.. ahahs !
tink nv "seh"
hmm.. after dinner, around 10+ jiu come bac bahh..
12+ reach home.. unpack abit, den jiu go slp lerr...
damn tired.. lols..
this 3 days quite fun bah.. have been drinking lorr..
come bac, dunwan drink soo much liaos.. lols.. ^^v

today
early early wake up lerr.. canot wake up ..
soo tired lorr.. go school, den whole day majiam sleeping
i tink only recess fun nia.. cus can eat.. HAHAS !
after school, go inter de mac.. eat wif LIMPEH..
after tt, she go back to school, cus she go basketball..
hmm, den i went blk50+ dere buy things..
den come bac, nw damn tired.. after finish blog..
tink wan go slp ler bahh.. lols..

tmr pop lerr.. no feeling nehh.. good sia ! think wan cry, quite hard bahh.. if i rly cry, means i dumb lorr.. mus be happy for them mahh.. no nid come for training.. delima nw.. dunwan and wan tmr to come at e same time.. crazy lerr.. hahas!

nothing is ever important .
3:59 PM

hmm.. morning go school quite late..
and i ate APPLE on the way to school !! XD
an apple a day, keeps the doctor away .. (i rmb) . XP

go school, tied hair horr..
havn finish tie, e marching music wan end lerrr...
soo.. i anyhw tie tie here tie tie dere..
den run go assemble.. LOLS !

den after assembly, go back class lorr..
untie hair, and had science.. test ..

hmm.. maths was like sleeping all e way bahh.. XPP
vv tired mahh.. dnno why..
PE nv go agn.. going soon lerr.. ^^

hmm.. recess ate !! waiting like dnno hw long to jus eat larr...
soo hungry b4 tt.. (apple dun make ppl full)
after that jiu had english.. okok bahh..
chinese still ok oso . xD

after school went to hand in HE things..
and den wait for shazli they all..
had discussions ..
and took '222' home..

nw, blogging.. hahas ! XD
aww.. POP is coming.. tink wun cry bahh.. .

nothing is ever important .
4:21 PM

aww..today arr..
soo early wake up le lorr ! stupidstupid ! waste time niaa.. ==

test was like..
i study no come out, i no study den come out.. lols..
den whole day jiu abit siansian lorr..
cus damn tired.. (tink next wk wors)

hmm.. after school checked e NP board..
no trg today, so came home bahh..
hmm.. ate ler jiu go nap awhile lorr..

wake up jiu study abit of home econs..
ltr complete home econs, den go study science bahh..

pictures are like rotting in my comp alr ?
lols !

i SWAM in e bedok inter !! cool ~

the table covered most of my face ! last art lessonn..

mummy and me , at MRT after SANA course .

mummy , me and jie ! extensions ~

3 of us againn ~

yawnyawn

one night , in batam .. XP

she really carried me !! ^^v

drinking my favourite H2O !! XD

my back view..

emo ? lols ..

limpeh and me make de.. XDD

ziliannn .. ^^

little emo red checked vest riding hood ?

ziliann againn...

smilesmilealways !

do remember , to press the bell .

last time . (2007)

now . (2008) grown ok !

nothing is ever important .
4:54 PM

hmm.. change in plan !
use comp, but not soo much..
afternoon to study or do some stuffs , and night for awhile of comp..
awhile of comp aday, good for health lehh !
ltr deprived of it, sure die.. lols..

hmm..
today nt tt bad, jus tt vv tired..
lesson ended at err.. (thinking)
ohya ! e test ended at 3.40 ..
so came home, and reached at 4plus bahh

den hmm.. do thing and study awhile nia..
jiu slackslack all e way till nw lerr..
lols.. tmr wednesday lerr...
history common test ! hope that can do well.. XD

are we jus good friends

or is it something more ?

i am puzzled..

i am confused..

can someone tell me what to do ?

nothing is ever important .
7:52 PM

aww.. still used my compp ...
bt jus wan c gt ppl on9 , and say some words nia mahhh.. lols..
hmm.. today nt bad arr..

afternoon come home, den go libery borrow book ..
then after that , go back school study study
hehee...

hmm..
shal start to use mayb abitabit of comp a day jiu hao.. hhahas..

this few days will b quite buzy..
tmr , gt NSW ..
wedn , got NDP (school) parade rehearsal .
thurs , nth .
friday , NPCC

den friday nite jiu bye-bye, go m'sia lerr
saturday morning cousin "tengtengtengteng"
den soo sunday nite like tt den will come bac bahh..

kays.. cya !
i hate today !

nothing is ever important .
6:07 PM

dear juliana ,

now its already july ! and soon, EOY is coming !! this year , is rather important for you , you know ? cause its streaming.. i am sure you want to end up in double science, if not better triple science class right ? soo.. you have to start to study real hard real hard .. cause, if you do not get the subj combination that you want, you will surely regret about it ! so, its time .. to stop sleeping in class, and wake up ! study ! put everything aside, and do your best !

from anailuj

yea.. its july already .. in no time, exams are coming .. so, i shall try my best .. my very best for this exam.. though its not national exam, but this sounds rather important to me.. i dont wish to let them down .. they have highigh expectations on me .. i shall jiayous ! comp will be used, but lesser than now .. byes .

nothing is ever important .
7:33 PM

hmm.. jus came bac frm tuition ...
ltr going out study lerr.. at LJS .. XD

hmm.. nth much to post .. jus come in kill time..
LOLS !

ohya !
mr.fadhil on MC again.. and today gt relief cherr..
nt bad sia.. kip on disturb herr. XD
hehehe

end here lerr.. cus dun wish to blog..

when can all these nonsense stop,

and everything go back to normal ?

nothing is ever important .
12:31 PM

hmm.. one week no blog alr ? LOLS !
but i stil think that its not time yet to blog yea..
but anyways, jus blog .. XD

hmm.. this week has been rather okk..
things come and go , come and go.. rather numb i guess..
lessons have been dry .. siansian ~

yesterday was service day .. OM ! soo tired larr !
and i still can rmb, one particular hse we went.. its like so == lorr..
tell e auntie wad, she oso dun understand de...

tell her say we from 育青中学 (bedokgreensec)
den she ask we from china（中国）ar..
den we call her mus lock door properly..
she ask us if we wan her open door gif us go in nt ..
den horr.. las one lerr..
we tok to her in chinese, she tok to us in cantonese..
we tok to her in cantonese , she tok to us in chinese..

so, we gave up and said byebye and went another hse lorr..
overall, nt bad bahh.. quite slac...
go bac school, had master parade.. legg super ache lorr.. (lucky nothing happen)
hmm .. then after that stay bac awhile.. 6.30 come home lorr..

papa mama say v early sehh.. cus, i tink prev weeks v late.. XPP
hmm.. den read book last nite bahh..
around want to 1 ler den slp.. today 7.15 like that wake up..
do some hmwk bahh..

nw wan 3 lerr..
shall post finish, and mayb go study.. (its better late than never)
tada ! nt too long a post ! XD

nothing is ever important .
2:51 PM

to GUNIANG !
heyhey ! its not that you have lost trust in god . i guess its jus so , as you are recently too tired , to be able to feel him . dont feel this way yea ? there are always frens like me , for you to talk to.. if not, find your laopo oso can arx . never feel e negative way yea ? everything can be solved, jus like how i solved mine kays ? anything jus give me a call and i will be there, to entertain you rite ? XD SMILESMILEALWAYS !

to ZHABOR ..
i know, this few days, you havent been in a great mood yea ? infact, i guess i have already told you loads.. sometimes, people do get hurt and choose the wrong path.. but, we are still young . fourteen . there is still a chance to rewrite it . yes . sometimes, life may seems dark and gloomier .. but, dun forget.. there is still a tomorrow . xD trust me ok , there are bound to be unhappy stuffs, in the life of ours.. there are manymany obstacles in our life .. its just the beginning, not the end.. jiayous okay ! no one is perfect, and not everyone can look into the perspective of another person . hope what i say, do help you . XD dun hide your feelings kays? its not point . SMILESMILEALWAYS ! XD

to HER ..
hmm.. you are not e worst being . cus, no one can ever control a life . everyones life isnt good in anyways . if you are a robber, wad am i ? i have hurt "someone" soso many times, and forced "someone" to do the things, which "someone" does not want to do . but, now we are alright and even better frens.. i am sure you can do so too ! BUT ! wads more important now, is that i want you to know that you have your frens .. mayb all these happens cause you are too stress with your work ? cheers rite ? XD smilesmile always ! anything jus give me a call, and i will appear infront of you.. gif u hug , gif u kiss all oso can . at least there is some laughter . xD

nothing is ever important .
7:50 PM

lousy days this few days. X(
everything isnt going right ..

on hiatus , for blog .

nothing is ever important .
2:19 PM

posting ~~ XD
morning, HE soo early jiu go out le lorr..
even b4 i wake up.. i "hanbinhanbin" (mi mi hu hu) say bye to HIM..
LOLS !

den wake up lerr.. wahhs.. rain soso heavy..
HE called bac and ask me wan HIM to fetch me mahh..
of cus , i said no . XD
i nt used to ppl fetching me larr ! lols .

den went school lorr..
rain soo heavy..
ohya ! when wan go dwn bus tt time..
gt one stupid auntie block my way..
den i was e last one to go dwn e bus..
and you knw wad ?
i ALMOST tio "piak" by e door .. x(
lucky dunhaf lorrr !! haf de hua jiu damn embarassing .. lols !

den first period was CT .. nt bad larr.. bt den slept lorr..
LIMPEH woke me up..
she saw somethingg.. x(( our secret arr !!
den first period was maths.. okok lorr..
den had lit.. as usual, slackedd !!
MT was okok lorr.. did corrections and blablabla..

then, had RECESS !!
as usual, LIMPEH and me, chiong dwn buy things eat.. LOLS !
we canot dun eat de mahh.. rite ? xPP

after recess, was EL..
abit mad bahh ? dnno ~ lols !
draw on table.. hahas !!
science, today nv sleep dao ok !
*ntbadntbad*

den hmm.. came home and had lunch..
tink ltr going inter buy school shoes bahh.. dnno nehh..
my school shoes are in pathetic state !

*tis friday dry shoot.. hope nth happenn.. plsplspls..*

nothing is ever important .
2:14 PM

hmm.. today rather alright bahh..
jus that got scolded when wake up, cus canot wake up.. *bleahh*

den go school lorr..
when i stepped in class, e marching music start. XDD
hmm.. first period was maths..
learnt stuffs ? so siann.. c all e numbers..

after that was geog..
did some sort of group work ? and nth much lorr..
hmm.. den had CL..
nv bring dictionary, had to stand..
and something bad happened againn.. X(
only i knew .. ^^

hmm.. recess, ate lorr.. nth much ..
den was history lecture .. HAHAS !
nv listen to anything .. great ?
science quiz, alot also anyhw anyhw de.. ^^

conversational mother tongue..
can i canot pronounce "cantik" larr !!
tts why i say "katik" ..
den e cher kip laugh and laugh...
den i also laugh and laugh. xP

den when going down, forgot that want go toilet..
walk until second floor liaos..
so go second floor de lorr..
den saw jiahui(NP) and her friend..
i ask her gt miss me nt nia..
den they kip laugh.. den i laughed too !! hahas..

hmm.. then came home lorr..
nw blogging.. shall do hmwk soon .. XD

我因该怎么做？

nothing is ever important .
2:13 PM

HAPPY YOUTH DAY ! ^^

morning tink 8+ wake up liao..
den do abit of study ..
den 9+ go slp agn.. until 11 ? LOLS !
tired mahhh.. so shiok to slp.. slp until my hair all stand up. XP

den study awhile agn..
den jiu come use comp le bahh..

ltr den go study.. hehee..
rather boring larr today .. nv do much..

anyw, all e best to canoeing girls !
JIAYOUS !!

nothing is ever important .
11:42 AM

hmm..
last nite 1 den slp.. tio scolding..
morning canot wake up.. tio scolding.. x(

went tuition..
at my hse dere de bus-stop, saw jieyi . XD
tio chua lorr ! cus nv c her there on sunday b4 mahh..
den her bus come lerr..
i waited for mine.. so damn sian..
cus v late den reach e bus-stop.. so missed one bus lerr..

in e end, i was late by awhile bahh..
did e usual work.. and almost slept..
cus vv tired ..

after class, went to eat first.
and went parkway..
arcade awhile *waste money* .
and went down to 77th street to buy one earhole extension de...
ex larr.. bt nt i pay.. i use HER money . nv tell her though ..

hmm.. then came bac..
used comp awhile.. 1.30 go slp..
until nw den wake up.. shall go and study lerr..

byes ~
i could sit there , and stare .
and stare .

nothing is ever important .
3:20 PM

hmm.. i have decided to go for e open house..
but i shall post a rather short one now bahh.. xD

tmr gt tuition lerr.. sianns..
means tonite canot too late den slp.. T.T

den ltr after going open house , tink going cut my hair bahh..
go make thinner.. v thick sia..
go try e new de salon oso. XDD

sians.. mus study this week lerr...
cus apparently, alot of lessons i have been sleeping..
hais.. shall jiayous !

jiayous to those out there mugging for 'o' too !
and those whom are starting to study ? dnno larr !!
jus wanna say ..
good luck in everything you all do .. ^^

this game , will never be over .

nothing is ever important .
10:28 AM

hmm.. today be yourself day..
wore "orange" .. XPP

den had concert ..
and then music, then chinese..
today very slack larr !! XDD

den had recess, and after that was class period..
think gt discuss things.. forget lerr..
hmm.. after school came home..

slackslack awhile.. play psp..
den around 2.15 like that go school lorr..
go buy fries eat first, cus wan try e new stall..
den go school..

reach that time, hmm..
i tink 2.45 bahh ? lucky nt too early..
if nt v.bored derr..
den e usuals sat at e canteen dere jokejoke..
and i was e only sec2 at e canteen joking wif sec3s.. x(
jean and val ps ! jkjk..

den went to change to full-u..
i change all finish alr hor.. i found out that..
i NEVER bring BERET !! so clever of me !! X(
lucky jamie'jie lent me hers.. den she nv wear full-u..
tink she happy ? ^^v

den training started..
recapped on drills bahhs...
den after that had campcraft.. something bad happened to me..
"only i know.."
den after that was debrief..
den bersurai, and came bac..

had dinner and bathed..
after that play psp until nw bahh ?
nw post finish lerr. wan go read book liaos. xD

tmr is BGPS openhouse..
nt going..
e reason is simple.. cus i dun feel like..

nothing is ever important .
10:03 PM

jus a short post, to wish my laobu ..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

nothing is ever important .
6:36 PM

oops..
i tink i forgot that yesterday was jamie jie de b'day.. sorrysorry !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY jamie jie !! XDD
^^v

hmm..
today reached school.. and i WENT up to e class and put bag.. XD
its like.. soo rare . ^^v

first period was common test.. english..
dnno hw wan describe..
den had all e subjects.. i guess i slept through most of them.. hais..

recess !! finally~~
soo.. of cus, i ate !! XDD

den had english and science..
all nt quite fun..
cus vvv sian.. x(( nvm..

after school, went inter with :
jean,linhui,shirly,jiahui&zhen

hmm.. top-up card and had lunch..
den came bac lorr..

and tt guy came bac liaos..
lucky nt as wors than his tt si ren da ge .. xDD

go do hmwk lerr.. XD

heyhey ! nt wantin to say u emo.. bt.. dun ever ever think that your life is in a big mess kays ? cus.. somewhere on earth, there will surely be someone in a worse situation than u.. xD if you not happy, try and find a way to e happiness.. dun kip tink sad sad de things.. ***cus. will have wrinkles ! got wrinkles jiu nt handsome liaos kays ? hope that you will be happy, and you are not a burden to ur friends.. anything, can come find me yea ? if you trust me, can share with me ur secrets too ! hope you will be happy. SMILES !

i guess i have found the reason why...

nothing is ever important .
3:20 PM

hmm.. can be bac to posting alr yea ? XD
reached school jus in time, and saw jeannette'mummy..
chiong-ed to bookshop..
she bought her chinese textbook ? and i bought my clips..

when want to go parade square, then we found out that assembly today at class..
so nvm.. walk walk bac to class...
reach class already, so shuang !
they say go parade square.. wow . XD

hmm.. den first period was maths..
and shirly'limpeh and i "betted" yea..
if i can survive one day w/o talking ,
excluding buying things, answering teachers, CCA, home and when needed,
she will give me one h2o..
but, if i speak a word, i will have to give her 2dollars..

hmm.. yea.. so had this deal lorr..
den CL.. said a word !!
and .. hais.. give her money lorrr..
nvm ! tmr i shall win back !! XD

den had lessons and lessons..
quite boring bahhs..
but conversational malay was fun fun !!
laugh and laugh . and by then, i gave up..
nvm.. tmr try again ! XDD

hmm.. after school..
laopeh and laobu come fetch me..
had our lunched..

and then went to do some stuffs..
after that.. came home, and used comp..
jus finished dinner, and now blogging. XDD

btw..

i have decided to not call jean and linhui laobu lerr..

nt v nice .XD

soo.. changechange ! call they mummy.. XD

after all these while,

i have decided that its better,

to be silent..

nothing is ever important .
6:05 PM