woke up at abt 0630 today.. sians.. couldn't get to sleep.. mayb cause grandma sleep bottom den i need sleep at the top.. so abit nt used to it larhs.. den pei-ed ahma eat breakfast.. hahas.. last night pei her till about 1245.. hehehes.. den she went to see doctor with my parents.. news, nt very good.. so dn wan to elaborate.. =// hais.. sians.. den after tt sleep for awhile.. den online, but afk.. until gary message me ask me wake lerhs mahs.. cause he last nite say today wan go schl, i gif booklist he gif consent form.. if nt i tink go alone very sian.. hahas.. den prepared and went to school lorhs.. he make me wait for him outside the school for about 10mins larhs.. grr.. but nvm larhs.. sometimes wait a while, wont die derhs. hehehes.. den ate maggie.. cause felt hungry mahs.. den went home lorhs.. after came home, i fast fast changed lerhs.. cause about 12 already, and i planned to go find ms pang derhs.. but she nt around.. den went to bus-stop, to sit awhile.. den went to bedokgreenpri derhs gate1 dere, the playground sit.. about 12.30 sit until 1.15.. i saw alot of juniors.. glad tt they still recognised me.. hehes.. alot saw me wear frisbee t-shirt, asked me if i go bac.. hahas.. den still got a few asked me if i dyed my hair.. hehes.. dn feel obvious larhs.. but, i tink they saw lorhs.. =))) den about 1.15 went to have lunch.. eat and eat.. hahs.. den slowly walked bac primary.. took out my frisbee t-shirt.. inside was primary pe mahs.. hehes.. still can fit.. =)) but den very small.. den i rushed in.. so that they will not stop me mahs.. =)) den went to toilet... on the way, saw alot of teachers.. spoke to some of them.. =)) juniors also all got come and say hi to me.. hehes.. after changin, went out lorhs.. waited for mr tan.. awhile ltr ailing came.. as usual, only both of us.. den had match.. mr tan say no training, only go there play.. its ok larhs.. cause to me, i juz want to run abit lorhs.. hehes.. the juniors all very tall sia.. and fast.. felt bad and then i tink guailan abit larhs.. cause keep on lose to the juniors as mr tan was helpin.. den when mr tan was having his break, he came and tell me some "tricks".. hahas.. he keep on say p4 very good, and want me to see them play.. the match before, he also got tell regina some "tricks" to guard me.. hahas.. she is fast lorhs.. i run fast fast, she also can catch up.. den had another game with the p5.. mayb cause mr tan play, den we won bahs.. nt sure.. 3-0 nehs.. hehes.. after training had a short talk with mr tan.. with ailing.. den called home.. asked one question which i shouldn't ask.. cause i guess it slightly brought me to a low mode bahs.. felt sad larhs.. nt a good news anyways.. =((
hais.. everyday see her "gek xim".. i also feel sad.. nw such things happen to her.. mayb i will tell her will recover derhs.. but such things happen to anyone, everyone will feel sad derhs.. its a normal feeling.. hais.. feeling bad now..
nothing is ever important .
3:40 PM
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
was forced by my mum, to sleep last night at about 11.30.. grr.. want to stay up late late derhs.. but she screamed at me.. so, no choice need to sleep.. den morning early early woke up lerhs.. cause need go school for music.. den after music, wanted to go bookshop to hand-up the booklist.. den, i waited about 30mins.. den i found out tt bookshop today nv open.. grr !! den come back lorhs.. no choice.. tmr den go and give.. den, rested a while and my family set our way to go grandma house.. malaysia !! hahas.. she sick.. need bring her here to see doctor.. when reached there, saw my uncle.. he fragile alot.. become weaker lerhs.. hais.. he also sick lerhs.. =((
den saw my grandfather.. see him, like last time.. mayb skinnier abit bahs.. worries.. den saw ahma.. she was on the floor.. her legs are very weak.. cant walk lerhs.. tts why need to come see doctor.. the only way for her to move from place to place, is to pull herself on the floor.. hais.. see lerhs.. dropped tears.. but, nv let ppl see.. ltr they worried for me.. hais.. today dropped 3times tears, all because i saw my grandma.. its like very hard for her to move around lorhs.. =(( hope that she will recover soon.. but nw, lucky got wheelchair.. mum borrowed it from my paternal grandma dere.. =)) see her nw got wheel chair, easier to move around.. feel happier.. but, today dnno why.. feeling abit stressed.. mayb cause saw grandma like tt.. uncle also like tt.. grandpa is feeling better larhs.. but, his ears cant hear much.. so talk to him, must near near and abit louder.. hahas.. today sighed alot.. feel tt like got something damn heavy at my heart dere.. i really hope that everyone is fine.. xDDD
3:40 PM
was forced by my mum, to sleep last night at about 11.30.. grr.. want to stay up late late derhs.. but she screamed at me.. so, no choice need to sleep.. den morning early early woke up lerhs.. cause need go school for music.. den after music, wanted to go bookshop to hand-up the booklist.. den, i waited about 30mins.. den i found out tt bookshop today nv open.. grr !! den come back lorhs.. no choice.. tmr den go and give.. den, rested a while and my family set our way to go grandma house.. malaysia !! hahas.. she sick.. need bring her here to see doctor.. when reached there, saw my uncle.. he fragile alot.. become weaker lerhs.. hais.. he also sick lerhs.. =((
den saw my grandfather.. see him, like last time.. mayb skinnier abit bahs.. worries.. den saw ahma.. she was on the floor.. her legs are very weak.. cant walk lerhs.. tts why need to come see doctor.. the only way for her to move from place to place, is to pull herself on the floor.. hais.. see lerhs.. dropped tears.. but, nv let ppl see.. ltr they worried for me.. hais.. today dropped 3times tears, all because i saw my grandma.. its like very hard for her to move around lorhs.. =(( hope that she will recover soon.. but nw, lucky got wheelchair.. mum borrowed it from my paternal grandma dere.. =)) see her nw got wheel chair, easier to move around.. feel happier.. but, today dnno why.. feeling abit stressed.. mayb cause saw grandma like tt.. uncle also like tt.. grandpa is feeling better larhs.. but, his ears cant hear much.. so talk to him, must near near and abit louder.. hahas.. today sighed alot.. feel tt like got something damn heavy at my heart dere.. i really hope that everyone is fine.. xDDD
nothing is ever important .
7:00 PM
Monday, October 29, 2007
gahhs.. nw feeling abit tired.. but den abit energetic too !! hehehes.. last night if i am nt wrong, i slept at 0430.. den woke up about 0548.. mum about to wake up lerhs.. den i go sleep.. until 0830.. about dere larhs.. the time.. about 0345, dad woke up to go toilet.. gahs !! he saw me, nv sleep.. den morning i think he told mum.. hehehes.. but den nvm.. they nv scold nehs.. so shiok.. fun~~ !! anyways, last night i nv sleep so early, cause got ppl pei me chat on msn mahs.. she got others pei her larhs.. but den i also got tok to her.. den when i think she go sleep lerhs, i go lie down, also sleep.. hahas.. found tt she and i quite tan de lai.. regretted the bad things i have done to her lorhs.. sososo many.. hahass.. den she and i, i think got a bit of common bahs.. maybe cause same primary school.. although different batch.. hahahs.. although in primary, nv see her b4.. she also like nv see me b4.. but, she told me when i first went NP, she see me like potential.. nonsence larhs.. attitude so bad, like to guailan ppl, potential?? lols !! during NP camp, i also guailan her, cause i naughty last time mahs.. like to play.. =PPP but lucky, her friend, on the first NP training.. so super daring.. come and ask me i like her nt.. hahas.. juz bcoz i saide i dn like her during NP camp, her fren come ask me.. hahhs.. good friendship ehs ? lols.. but all she say is its okay.. she say she forgot lerhs..hahas!! for the past 10mths.. i tink i disappointed alot of ppl bahs.. nt too sure.. juz feel this way lorhs.. aiya.. think so much, no use derhs.. hahas.. but, i knw how to say ppl, dnno hw to say myself... =// but, i will try to get her, her birthday present... i think she giving me mine too.. hehehs.. so like to see ppl happy.. nt sad derhs.. not nice.. nowadays ppl all sad sad derhs.. haahahsh !!
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dad sort of jio-ed me out today.. hahas.. he suddenly asked me want go watch 881 with him not.. lols !! even though 881 is on the screen for about 2mths or more lerhs.. i still haven watch... and i am afraid tt next time no chance to go out with him lerhs.. so, i agreed.. =)) it was nice.. but, abit sad.. when listening to the songs.. felt sad-dd.. hahahas.. the songs are damn nice.. to me larhs.. i tink i am weird lorhs.. like to listen to hokkien songs.. hehehes.. den we took bus back.. first time take bus with dad.. hahas.. after he stroke, he always take bus to go find his friends lerhs.. a big change mans.. even though he got drive sometimes.. but, at least he got take bus nowadays.. last time, never lorhhs.. and i think tomorrow i going my grandma house.. hais.. heard tt her legs are weak.. cant walk tt much lerhs.. sads... dnno why, i so easy affected derhs.. hahahs !! cant sigh.. so i laugh.. =))) if i tmr go my grandma house, mayb wednesday den come bac.. den, i hope tt i will b on time, on wednesday, to go back primary school.. they having frisbee training.. although i am scared tt i will shout at dem.. but, i really want to go lorhs.. hope tt i can go.. =)) miss frisbee alot alot mans..
7:00 PM
gahhs.. nw feeling abit tired.. but den abit energetic too !! hehehes.. last night if i am nt wrong, i slept at 0430.. den woke up about 0548.. mum about to wake up lerhs.. den i go sleep.. until 0830.. about dere larhs.. the time.. about 0345, dad woke up to go toilet.. gahs !! he saw me, nv sleep.. den morning i think he told mum.. hehehes.. but den nvm.. they nv scold nehs.. so shiok.. fun~~ !! anyways, last night i nv sleep so early, cause got ppl pei me chat on msn mahs.. she got others pei her larhs.. but den i also got tok to her.. den when i think she go sleep lerhs, i go lie down, also sleep.. hahas.. found tt she and i quite tan de lai.. regretted the bad things i have done to her lorhs.. sososo many.. hahass.. den she and i, i think got a bit of common bahs.. maybe cause same primary school.. although different batch.. hahahs.. although in primary, nv see her b4.. she also like nv see me b4.. but, she told me when i first went NP, she see me like potential.. nonsence larhs.. attitude so bad, like to guailan ppl, potential?? lols !! during NP camp, i also guailan her, cause i naughty last time mahs.. like to play.. =PPP but lucky, her friend, on the first NP training.. so super daring.. come and ask me i like her nt.. hahas.. juz bcoz i saide i dn like her during NP camp, her fren come ask me.. hahhs.. good friendship ehs ? lols.. but all she say is its okay.. she say she forgot lerhs..hahas!! for the past 10mths.. i tink i disappointed alot of ppl bahs.. nt too sure.. juz feel this way lorhs.. aiya.. think so much, no use derhs.. hahas.. but, i knw how to say ppl, dnno hw to say myself... =// but, i will try to get her, her birthday present... i think she giving me mine too.. hehehs.. so like to see ppl happy.. nt sad derhs.. not nice.. nowadays ppl all sad sad derhs.. haahahsh !!
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dad sort of jio-ed me out today.. hahas.. he suddenly asked me want go watch 881 with him not.. lols !! even though 881 is on the screen for about 2mths or more lerhs.. i still haven watch... and i am afraid tt next time no chance to go out with him lerhs.. so, i agreed.. =)) it was nice.. but, abit sad.. when listening to the songs.. felt sad-dd.. hahahas.. the songs are damn nice.. to me larhs.. i tink i am weird lorhs.. like to listen to hokkien songs.. hehehes.. den we took bus back.. first time take bus with dad.. hahas.. after he stroke, he always take bus to go find his friends lerhs.. a big change mans.. even though he got drive sometimes.. but, at least he got take bus nowadays.. last time, never lorhhs.. and i think tomorrow i going my grandma house.. hais.. heard tt her legs are weak.. cant walk tt much lerhs.. sads... dnno why, i so easy affected derhs.. hahahs !! cant sigh.. so i laugh.. =))) if i tmr go my grandma house, mayb wednesday den come bac.. den, i hope tt i will b on time, on wednesday, to go back primary school.. they having frisbee training.. although i am scared tt i will shout at dem.. but, i really want to go lorhs.. hope tt i can go.. =)) miss frisbee alot alot mans..
nothing is ever important .
8:59 AM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
hopeless.. i am like so useless.. whatever i do, its all wrong derhs.. wad to do lehs ? feel so bad now.. like my heart is so heavy like tt.. somethings on my mind, dnno thinking about wad.. keep on think about nonsensical things, that will lead me to a sad mood.. hais.. i wan to smile smile, think +ve and dn sigh.. but, i cant.. perhaps just not in the mood bahs.. i have 2weeks more, to go, to try to attain this stuffs.. maybe just wait for my mood to come, and then i will attain all the 3things.. =///
8:59 AM
hopeless.. i am like so useless.. whatever i do, its all wrong derhs.. wad to do lehs ? feel so bad now.. like my heart is so heavy like tt.. somethings on my mind, dnno thinking about wad.. keep on think about nonsensical things, that will lead me to a sad mood.. hais.. i wan to smile smile, think +ve and dn sigh.. but, i cant.. perhaps just not in the mood bahs.. i have 2weeks more, to go, to try to attain this stuffs.. maybe just wait for my mood to come, and then i will attain all the 3things.. =///
nothing is ever important .
10:29 AM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
blahs.. very tired... xDD why i so tired lehs ? cause i today early morning 0230 den sleep.. den 0830 wake up lerhs.. cause grandma called and no one at home.. only me and my cousin (ahgirl) den i had to take the fone call.. which make me cant get to sleep lorhs.. grr.. soon, ahgirl wake up lerhs.. had breakfast which consists of biscuit and a drink.. had to make myself, cause dad and mum early morning went out lerhs.. dad got doctor appointment mahs.. hais.. den watched a while TV.. actually is planned to go blk 50+ dere buy lunch for ahgirl and me one.. but, mum called and said tt they have finished their appointment.. and we were to go geylang there, for lunch.. nice idea.. =// den went lorhs.. after lunch come bac, was very very tired.. so, went to sleep for a while.. i think i slept for an hour or so bahs.. about there.. den woke up.. as ahgirl was using my comp, dnno do wad, i cant possibly b asking her to let me use rite ? so i let her use.. i sat at my cousin (weesiong, he went bac sabah tis week so i am using his room.. =PP) bed, which is temporary my bed.. when he come bac, den i go bac to sleep with my parents.. then i listened to my new MP4 lorhs.. dnno why, no mood larhs.. den ahgirl finished using, i used lorhs.. posted a post at multiply, and cross post here.. =PP tts why i like multiply.. can post at both places, at one time.. =)) cam-whored a while, and den went to watched tv.. den, ahgirl went out.. she got dinner to attend mahs.. shortly after tt, parents also went out.. they also have dinner.. somemore ltr they still meeting their friends.. so, i will b home, alone.. ltr have to go and have dinner alone.. sians.. parents like nt fang xin to let me stay alone at home.. hahas.. not the first time anyways.. the last time was on tuesday.. but weeping was here.. he was sleep.. so half considered bahs.. the previous one was on monday.. parents had appointment with the doctor mahs.. had to go dental appointment alone lorhs... hahahs.. dnno when will b the next one.. mayb going for dinner soon .. 6.30 bahs.. having the room, all to myself.. mayb tonight sleep early.. ( about the same as last night .. =//) its considered early lorhs.. early in the morning mahs.. hahahs !!
10:29 AM
blahs.. very tired... xDD why i so tired lehs ? cause i today early morning 0230 den sleep.. den 0830 wake up lerhs.. cause grandma called and no one at home.. only me and my cousin (ahgirl) den i had to take the fone call.. which make me cant get to sleep lorhs.. grr.. soon, ahgirl wake up lerhs.. had breakfast which consists of biscuit and a drink.. had to make myself, cause dad and mum early morning went out lerhs.. dad got doctor appointment mahs.. hais.. den watched a while TV.. actually is planned to go blk 50+ dere buy lunch for ahgirl and me one.. but, mum called and said tt they have finished their appointment.. and we were to go geylang there, for lunch.. nice idea.. =// den went lorhs.. after lunch come bac, was very very tired.. so, went to sleep for a while.. i think i slept for an hour or so bahs.. about there.. den woke up.. as ahgirl was using my comp, dnno do wad, i cant possibly b asking her to let me use rite ? so i let her use.. i sat at my cousin (weesiong, he went bac sabah tis week so i am using his room.. =PP) bed, which is temporary my bed.. when he come bac, den i go bac to sleep with my parents.. then i listened to my new MP4 lorhs.. dnno why, no mood larhs.. den ahgirl finished using, i used lorhs.. posted a post at multiply, and cross post here.. =PP tts why i like multiply.. can post at both places, at one time.. =)) cam-whored a while, and den went to watched tv.. den, ahgirl went out.. she got dinner to attend mahs.. shortly after tt, parents also went out.. they also have dinner.. somemore ltr they still meeting their friends.. so, i will b home, alone.. ltr have to go and have dinner alone.. sians.. parents like nt fang xin to let me stay alone at home.. hahas.. not the first time anyways.. the last time was on tuesday.. but weeping was here.. he was sleep.. so half considered bahs.. the previous one was on monday.. parents had appointment with the doctor mahs.. had to go dental appointment alone lorhs... hahahs.. dnno when will b the next one.. mayb going for dinner soon .. 6.30 bahs.. having the room, all to myself.. mayb tonight sleep early.. ( about the same as last night .. =//) its considered early lorhs.. early in the morning mahs.. hahahs !!
nothing is ever important .
5:49 PM
5:49 PM
in my sec1 life, i have changed.. alot alot.. =// i can still remember earlier this year, when i made my seniors angry, i felt good.. abit happy too.. but nw, if i make any of my seniors angry, after a while, i will feel guilty.. now, i think i have grown abit more matured.. not laughing and smiling as much.. maybe more serious towards life.. my teochiew speaking skill also have improved.. hahahs.. in short, i am a different person.. my vulgarities are worse than before.. i have alot alot more earholes.. to my dad now, i am an ahlian.. to my mum now, i am a person whom speaks alot of vulgarities.. all these bad impression.. towards tt 6yr old guy whom i "bullied", his mother will think that i am bad.. cause, i am turning 13.. and i am bullying a 6yr old guy.. hais.. i think that i am more caring than before ? nt too sure.. i still think tt i am rotten.. cause, i am not understanding.. also nt considered very caring.. i also have a super bad attitude.. wad to do ? its me.. juliana is juliana.. its a fact, and never can it be changed.. so, mayb i guess i would like to try to change my attitude a bit.. cause, next year i am sec2 already... i will b a senior, of the sec1s next year.. hahahs!!
nothing is ever important .
8:33 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
grr ! i wasted my mum's money !! i dye my hair, like nv dye like tt.. =//
after i dye
like no diff lorhs...
8:33 AM
grr ! i wasted my mum's money !! i dye my hair, like nv dye like tt.. =//
before i dye
after i dye
like no diff lorhs...
nothing is ever important .
5:04 PM
sigh.. i have regretted alot alot, for not respecting my parents and treating them well.. i even keep on talk back to them, and was very rude to them.. although my dad keep on scold me, and even made me cry just because i have got a C5 for my english.. but, i know that he dotes on me alot.. whatever thing i want, he will try to buy for me derhs.. for example, nw 2mths holidays.. i want to dye my hair.. actually he is say dn allow me to dye derhs.. but in the end, he still said yes.. =)) (i buy the thing lerhs,only haven dye) although yesterday he still keep on like say dn want to allow me to dye my hair, today he came and asked me if i want to dye my hair nt.. hahs.. he is weird larhs.. a funny man indeed.. =XX and my old MP4 spoilt... i wanted to buy a new one.. without a second word, they bought for me lerhs.. although not ipod larhs.. its like a lousy china brand.. but, its better than nothing mahs.. hais.. i have really regretted lerhs.. and my father friends all hear my result last night (we went out larhs), they all said wahs.. its a very good result.. =))) after hearing, my dad was pleased with me.. but he still say i must improve on my english.. =PP from today onwards, i will try my best, to respect and treat my parents well.. =))
5:04 PM
sigh.. i have regretted alot alot, for not respecting my parents and treating them well.. i even keep on talk back to them, and was very rude to them.. although my dad keep on scold me, and even made me cry just because i have got a C5 for my english.. but, i know that he dotes on me alot.. whatever thing i want, he will try to buy for me derhs.. for example, nw 2mths holidays.. i want to dye my hair.. actually he is say dn allow me to dye derhs.. but in the end, he still said yes.. =)) (i buy the thing lerhs,only haven dye) although yesterday he still keep on like say dn want to allow me to dye my hair, today he came and asked me if i want to dye my hair nt.. hahs.. he is weird larhs.. a funny man indeed.. =XX and my old MP4 spoilt... i wanted to buy a new one.. without a second word, they bought for me lerhs.. although not ipod larhs.. its like a lousy china brand.. but, its better than nothing mahs.. hais.. i have really regretted lerhs.. and my father friends all hear my result last night (we went out larhs), they all said wahs.. its a very good result.. =))) after hearing, my dad was pleased with me.. but he still say i must improve on my english.. =PP from today onwards, i will try my best, to respect and treat my parents well.. =))
nothing is ever important .
2:31 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
2:31 PM
i guess.. i still have a few more regrets, for the past 10mths.. i forgot to add one, and i have made new ones.. =PP
-i remember during one Home Econs lesson, i shouted "kaopei kaopei", loud loud at my teacher.. she was damn damn angry.. =PP sorry teacher...
-then my EOY, my english i scored C5.. dad was not happy.. i came back and quarreled with him.. he shouted loud loud at me, and i shouted loud loud at him back.. i cried.. cause i know that i have disappointed him..hais..
-today morning, i went to school, and shouted at yizhen.. i dint know why i shout at her larhs.. but den i shouldn't have shouted lorhs.. sorry yizhen..
-later that day, i went to disturb yizhen again.. grr !! can see that she very pekcek lerhs.. den i still go and add oil, make her more pekcek.. hais... really sorry, yizhen
-earlier, i think was before recess.. ms krishnan caught me for my attire.. my attire was atrocious.. i not only was smiling and laughing at her, i still talked back at her.. sorry..
-after recess, yingsiew was giving the consent form for holiday training.. i was very pekcek, as everyone was asking me questions.. den i went to collect one more extra form from her.. cause i dint have one.. (i gave mine to dnno who) the way i talked to her was very very rude.. apologised.. and once again, she said : its okay.. hais.
-after school.. was taking bus.. dnno why, mood was very bad.. yingsiew coincidentally was on that bus.. i dint smile, cause my mood very bad mahs.. den i asked her want to listen me speak vulgarities not.. cause i remembered she want to hear.. den she was shocked.. =PP den she asked me i am ok nt.. i wasn't but i told her i was.. but, i knw that she knw tt i was not ok larhs.. hahahs.. heard she say, when i dn laugh, very scary. =PP
anyways, i am ok nw.. =)))
nothing is ever important .
5:42 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
i have scored one A1, six A2, one B4, one C5 and one C6.. my class position is 20, and level position is 45.. it is alot alot better than what i scored during my mid year exams.. and now, you come and tell me you not happy with my results.. walao ! i also nv call you now change phone for me right? i only say wait until next year, when my contract needs to be renewed, den change a new phone right ? you say must i get "A" for english, den change.. wad nonsense are you talking ? its impossible to get a "A" for english larhs.. unless i am a genius.. but, i am not ! i am your daughter.. i am not genius !! now, you come and make me cry.. make me feel sad.. why must it be that whenever i take my results, i must cry and be sad because of you ?? i have tried very hard already.. i have made alot of improvements for my results.. my EOY, other than english,chinese and homecons, the papers, all i scored 70 marks and above.. wad do you still want ? you want me to fail, come back den you happy is it ?? why ?? i get bad, you want me get good.. nw i improved, you want me get better.. i might as well not improve and fail all my subjects right??? i really dnno wad to do lerhs.. i want to respect you, talk nice nice to you.. but you were the one, whom came and shouted in my ears.. i am your daughter.. i inherit my bad temper from you !! you shout at me, of course i shout back right? den we fight, we quarrel.. den you not happy.. you my father, of course you older, you win larhs !! wadever you say, you do.. its correct.. wad i say, wad i do.. all wrong !! i really cant take it anymore lerhs.. because of you, i am crying.. i am sad.. happy ?? grr !!!! i really cant take it anymore !!
5:42 PM
i have scored one A1, six A2, one B4, one C5 and one C6.. my class position is 20, and level position is 45.. it is alot alot better than what i scored during my mid year exams.. and now, you come and tell me you not happy with my results.. walao ! i also nv call you now change phone for me right? i only say wait until next year, when my contract needs to be renewed, den change a new phone right ? you say must i get "A" for english, den change.. wad nonsense are you talking ? its impossible to get a "A" for english larhs.. unless i am a genius.. but, i am not ! i am your daughter.. i am not genius !! now, you come and make me cry.. make me feel sad.. why must it be that whenever i take my results, i must cry and be sad because of you ?? i have tried very hard already.. i have made alot of improvements for my results.. my EOY, other than english,chinese and homecons, the papers, all i scored 70 marks and above.. wad do you still want ? you want me to fail, come back den you happy is it ?? why ?? i get bad, you want me get good.. nw i improved, you want me get better.. i might as well not improve and fail all my subjects right??? i really dnno wad to do lerhs.. i want to respect you, talk nice nice to you.. but you were the one, whom came and shouted in my ears.. i am your daughter.. i inherit my bad temper from you !! you shout at me, of course i shout back right? den we fight, we quarrel.. den you not happy.. you my father, of course you older, you win larhs !! wadever you say, you do.. its correct.. wad i say, wad i do.. all wrong !! i really cant take it anymore lerhs.. because of you, i am crying.. i am sad.. happy ?? grr !!!! i really cant take it anymore !!
nothing is ever important .
7:32 PM
hais.. today is damn sian.. =PP woke up later abit, cause is wednesday.. den sleep until shuang~~! actually thought tt i will b late derhs.. but den lucky.. the bus tt came, was 28/67 (forgot which one larhs) which is only 2 stops from school.. if the bus that came was 222, den i tink will b late.. cause 222 is 5stops from school.. hahas.. den got back report book today.. quite ok with my results larhs.. i improved.. =))) sians.. slept during science lesson again.. whole day do nothing in school lorhs.. might as well nt go.. hais.. too bad, must go.. cause last 2days lerhs.. =))
7:32 PM
hais.. today is damn sian.. =PP woke up later abit, cause is wednesday.. den sleep until shuang~~! actually thought tt i will b late derhs.. but den lucky.. the bus tt came, was 28/67 (forgot which one larhs) which is only 2 stops from school.. if the bus that came was 222, den i tink will b late.. cause 222 is 5stops from school.. hahas.. den got back report book today.. quite ok with my results larhs.. i improved.. =))) sians.. slept during science lesson again.. whole day do nothing in school lorhs.. might as well nt go.. hais.. too bad, must go.. cause last 2days lerhs.. =))
nothing is ever important .
3:21 PM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
pain !! grr.. the teeth is so pain.. hais.. ytd the person do until too tight lerhs.. nw darn pain lorhs !! hais. today overall in school, is damn sian larhs.. whole day i sit dere, so nothing, sleep only.. music, the teacher talk, i sit there do nth... maths go comp lab, do nth... recess, EAT !! hahahs.. science, sleep.. mother tongue, sleep... literature, sleep.. alot of the lessons also sleep.. if nt, i do nothing.. hahas.. sians.. nw teeth damn pain.. bb !
3:21 PM
pain !! grr.. the teeth is so pain.. hais.. ytd the person do until too tight lerhs.. nw darn pain lorhs !! hais. today overall in school, is damn sian larhs.. whole day i sit dere, so nothing, sleep only.. music, the teacher talk, i sit there do nth... maths go comp lab, do nth... recess, EAT !! hahahs.. science, sleep.. mother tongue, sleep... literature, sleep.. alot of the lessons also sleep.. if nt, i do nothing.. hahas.. sians.. nw teeth damn pain.. bb !
nothing is ever important .
3:39 PM
Monday, October 22, 2007
woke up, and had slight headache.. dint bothered to bother, so went to schl.. =))) mum sent me to the bus-stop, cause raining.. shoes was wet.. grr !! dint had assembly, cause raining, so went straight up to class.. welcomed by alot ppl.. nyeheheh !! i 1whole week never go mahs.. of course ppl will tend to miss me.. =PP then had history.. felt very faint.. doing some corrections and veryvery giddy.. then had one dnno wad course.. very lame larhs.. sit there do nth.. den the tcher say i show her attitude, when i dint !! i only went to ask her question, she say i show her attitude.. humans are weird lehs.. i say i show attitude, you say dn have.. i say i nv show attitude, you say i show attitude.. grrrr !! then recess.. bcoz came out late, so chiong-edd my noodles.. if nt 101% cant finish derhs.. hahahas !! then had home econs.. was practically sleeping.. ppl say i emo.. dnno lehs.. english, also sian sian like tt.. almost slept.. again ppl say i emo ! WAHHAAHA !! i am not emo larhs ! today headache, den abit giddy.. of course sian larhs.. grrr !! dn say i emo liaos horhs ! den came home, nv eat go sleep lerhs.. cause damn giddy.. hais.. then about 2.45, parents woke me up larhs.. grr.. say they go see doctor liaos.. (dad came back yesterday) and mum left $200 at the table.. nice right ? the $200 also nt for me one.. is for my appointment at the dentists, later in the afternoon larhs.. bcoz mum nt able to bring me go, i have to go myself larhs. hahahs !! then about 4, the person called.. say want me to go earlier, my appointment was 5.45.. but since can go earlier, i go lorhs.. reached there around 4.20.. den awhile nia i go sit inside lerhs.. dnno why, today abit nervous.. b4 tt mum called.. she seems to b worried for her money, nt me lehs.. hahahs !! den the person do the tightening.. bcoz make until damn tight, i asked for painkillers.. den come home, nw i blog lorhs.. sians..
3:39 PM
woke up, and had slight headache.. dint bothered to bother, so went to schl.. =))) mum sent me to the bus-stop, cause raining.. shoes was wet.. grr !! dint had assembly, cause raining, so went straight up to class.. welcomed by alot ppl.. nyeheheh !! i 1whole week never go mahs.. of course ppl will tend to miss me.. =PP then had history.. felt very faint.. doing some corrections and veryvery giddy.. then had one dnno wad course.. very lame larhs.. sit there do nth.. den the tcher say i show her attitude, when i dint !! i only went to ask her question, she say i show her attitude.. humans are weird lehs.. i say i show attitude, you say dn have.. i say i nv show attitude, you say i show attitude.. grrrr !! then recess.. bcoz came out late, so chiong-edd my noodles.. if nt 101% cant finish derhs.. hahahas !! then had home econs.. was practically sleeping.. ppl say i emo.. dnno lehs.. english, also sian sian like tt.. almost slept.. again ppl say i emo ! WAHHAAHA !! i am not emo larhs ! today headache, den abit giddy.. of course sian larhs.. grrr !! dn say i emo liaos horhs ! den came home, nv eat go sleep lerhs.. cause damn giddy.. hais.. then about 2.45, parents woke me up larhs.. grr.. say they go see doctor liaos.. (dad came back yesterday) and mum left $200 at the table.. nice right ? the $200 also nt for me one.. is for my appointment at the dentists, later in the afternoon larhs.. bcoz mum nt able to bring me go, i have to go myself larhs. hahahs !! then about 4, the person called.. say want me to go earlier, my appointment was 5.45.. but since can go earlier, i go lorhs.. reached there around 4.20.. den awhile nia i go sit inside lerhs.. dnno why, today abit nervous.. b4 tt mum called.. she seems to b worried for her money, nt me lehs.. hahahs !! den the person do the tightening.. bcoz make until damn tight, i asked for painkillers.. den come home, nw i blog lorhs.. sians..
nothing is ever important .
5:17 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
wahahah !! still throat abit pain.. hope tmr i can go schl.. tonite i sleep alot alot.. den tmr can have alot alot of energy!! i am SOSOSO going to go to school tomorrow.. =))))) unless tmr morning i sick bahs.. =PPP wont derhs.. cause i knw tt ppl miss me, and i miss them !! =)))
why like that ? why ppl are so hurt, and they do not know that the one which hurt him is more hurt then him ? and the one whom hurt ppl, keeps on blaming and blaming herself.. why ?? why cant both of you, just sit down and talk, and settle things, to stop all this hurt ??? hais.. really really dn like to see my friends hurt and sad... den keep on think about negative things.. although i sad, also will think about negative things and mayb worse.. but, i really dn like see ppl think about badbad de things.. hais..
5:17 PM
wahahah !! still throat abit pain.. hope tmr i can go schl.. tonite i sleep alot alot.. den tmr can have alot alot of energy!! i am SOSOSO going to go to school tomorrow.. =))))) unless tmr morning i sick bahs.. =PPP wont derhs.. cause i knw tt ppl miss me, and i miss them !! =)))
why like that ? why ppl are so hurt, and they do not know that the one which hurt him is more hurt then him ? and the one whom hurt ppl, keeps on blaming and blaming herself.. why ?? why cant both of you, just sit down and talk, and settle things, to stop all this hurt ??? hais.. really really dn like to see my friends hurt and sad... den keep on think about negative things.. although i sad, also will think about negative things and mayb worse.. but, i really dn like see ppl think about badbad de things.. hais..
nothing is ever important .
10:49 AM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
grr !! still sick !!! having tight chest pains at times.. hais.. cough and cough.. but i got at least get abit well bahs.. =)))) hope can go back on monday lerhs.. if nt stay at home darn sian.. and somemore i really miss my friends.. all those that jokes around and have fun with me... i also dn wish to miss out the last week of the term.. i will cherish dem derhs.. cause i am afraid next yr, mayb we nt same class lerhs.. or mayb change sitting plan.. so must treasure them whilst i can.. =PP dn let history repeat mahs.. and, dad's coming home tomorrow !! SOSOSO long nv see him lerhs.. almost 2wks bahs... really miss him loads mans.. hw i wish he is home right now.. even though he everytime guailan me, and i can still remember when i was young, he hit me using cane, whenever i naughty.. and when go out, dnno why i cry, he immediately will go and find a cane, and "piak" me.. =PP but nw, i grow older lerhs.. he no longer does so.. and he very good to me... =))))))
10:49 AM
grr !! still sick !!! having tight chest pains at times.. hais.. cough and cough.. but i got at least get abit well bahs.. =)))) hope can go back on monday lerhs.. if nt stay at home darn sian.. and somemore i really miss my friends.. all those that jokes around and have fun with me... i also dn wish to miss out the last week of the term.. i will cherish dem derhs.. cause i am afraid next yr, mayb we nt same class lerhs.. or mayb change sitting plan.. so must treasure them whilst i can.. =PP dn let history repeat mahs.. and, dad's coming home tomorrow !! SOSOSO long nv see him lerhs.. almost 2wks bahs... really miss him loads mans.. hw i wish he is home right now.. even though he everytime guailan me, and i can still remember when i was young, he hit me using cane, whenever i naughty.. and when go out, dnno why i cry, he immediately will go and find a cane, and "piak" me.. =PP but nw, i grow older lerhs.. he no longer does so.. and he very good to me... =))))))
nothing is ever important .
7:32 PM
Friday, October 19, 2007
7:32 PM
its fast.. a blink of an eye, my sec1 journey is ending, embarking on a new sec2 journey.. remincing of the past, where i was still holding on, tight to notorious6/1.. its not that i have forgotten all the other 39 notorians, with me for 2yrs.. some even more.. some still with me.. =) but, i have learnt to let go.. let go of the past... remembering when i first stepped into secondary school life.. i cant manage, and seem to b in a primary school mood.. hahas.. making seniors mad at me, was like something fun to me then.. and i definitely wont apologise when i make them angry.. but, now.. i guess not only will i apologise.. i will also have a small sence of guilty in me... now, unlike the pass, i am a better joker.. and mayb, ppl regard me as a clown ? i dn mind actually, as if i can see a sad person, because of my joke, my foolishness or even my small encouragements, become happy, i will b happy.. mayb i have also become a more devoted buddhist ? in the past, i nv prayed to the altar of the various god at home.. i nv offer any joss stick, unless particular reasons.. but now, i tink i do such stuffs almost everyday.. =)) although i think i have grown matured, but i tink i have become rotten too.. my temper was so so so much better last time.. but now, its like so damn bad.. and my vulgarities.. getting from bad, to worse.. i think my mum got shocked, when she heard me saying vulgarities last week.. but, eventually she broke into a small laugh.. hahs... i guess i take after my dad.. my dad is like a bad bad bad tempered person.. whoever makes him unhappy or makes him mad, he will make tt person mad.. and he always stands up for the truth.. which is like me.. hahahas !! often, i also want to find fault with people.. hahahs.. and alot of time, yizhen keep on call me cool down mans.. but in the end, i still push away her hand, and did foolish stuffs.. hais..
frm wad i heard from a friend, when she just knew me, she thought tt i am a cool cool person, that does not know how to care for people.. =PP but, after knowing me, she told me i am friendly.. hehehes.. actually, i am not a cold cold person.. i am warmth !! warmth blooded !! =) i also very friendly.. but, dnno why, got ppl scared of me lehs.. hahas.. mayb when i damn bad mood.. cause when i damn bad mood, everything also bad one.. =))))
nothing is ever important .
4:36 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
already mc for 3days lerhs.. hais... nw no more fever.. only cough. hais.. sians... cough until lung wan to come out lerhs... hahahs... i knw alot ppl miss me rite ?? hahahs ! jkjk.. i miss school.. stay at home, sibeh de sian... i actually already prepared my full-u and stuffs, to go for NP today lerhs.. but den... hais.. morning cough too much, mum dn allow me to go school.. hais.. hw i wish i can ltr just like tt go NP, since i already recovered liaos.. hahhas.. really miss NP mans.. so long also nv have NP liaos... nw have NP, i cannt go... hais.. sians... if can go jiu hao lerhs... wont b at home, rotting... den ltr soon, i decompose... hahahs... although NP got alot alot alot of not happy de memories, but den NP let me learnt alot alot also... mayb also because of NP, i found out tt i am rotten bahs ?? always guailan senior, for no reason.. though nt really guailan until skip training, or in the middle of training, run away go hide larhs... although i tink tt they thought i did so larhs.. but, anyways its over lerhs..next time b a better cadet, better junior jiu hao lerhs mahs.. hahahs... but i knw it will b very hard larhs.. cause its like damn hard to change my attitude one... almost impossible mans... =)) cause, i got try alot alot of times lerhs.. and i practically fail everytime lorhs.. hahahs !! =)) k.. i go rest lerhs... =)))
4:36 PM
already mc for 3days lerhs.. hais... nw no more fever.. only cough. hais.. sians... cough until lung wan to come out lerhs... hahahs... i knw alot ppl miss me rite ?? hahahs ! jkjk.. i miss school.. stay at home, sibeh de sian... i actually already prepared my full-u and stuffs, to go for NP today lerhs.. but den... hais.. morning cough too much, mum dn allow me to go school.. hais.. hw i wish i can ltr just like tt go NP, since i already recovered liaos.. hahhas.. really miss NP mans.. so long also nv have NP liaos... nw have NP, i cannt go... hais.. sians... if can go jiu hao lerhs... wont b at home, rotting... den ltr soon, i decompose... hahahs... although NP got alot alot alot of not happy de memories, but den NP let me learnt alot alot also... mayb also because of NP, i found out tt i am rotten bahs ?? always guailan senior, for no reason.. though nt really guailan until skip training, or in the middle of training, run away go hide larhs... although i tink tt they thought i did so larhs.. but, anyways its over lerhs..next time b a better cadet, better junior jiu hao lerhs mahs.. hahahs... but i knw it will b very hard larhs.. cause its like damn hard to change my attitude one... almost impossible mans... =)) cause, i got try alot alot of times lerhs.. and i practically fail everytime lorhs.. hahahs !! =)) k.. i go rest lerhs... =)))
hw i wish i can go..
nothing is ever important .
12:10 PM
Monday, October 15, 2007
dint blog yesterday, cause i was veryvery sick.. =((( had to go and drink coffee with the doctor agn.. =PP this doctor is better than the one i went on saturday.. =))) today morning woke up, damn xin ku.. like wan to vomit like tt, but den nv vomit.. den took medicine, and went to sleep again.. mum went out to buy stuffs, and then come bac, my cuz (2 younger der, 4th aunt de child) , my uncle and auntie all wake up lerhs.. den mum walk in, see me wake up lerhs.. she fake fake, ask me i ok nt.. den somemore say dn wan disturb me already, when i already kana woke up by her liaos... hahs.. den woke up.. rest rest.. =)))) felt alot alot better, den used comp lerhs !! hahahs.. den lunch, had porridge, and then took medicine.. eyer !! see the medicine, although all also tablet one, i wan to vomit lerhs.. =((( then rested.. my cuz (ping, siong bro), come.. hahhs... den i sleep.. tired lehs.. ppl bing ren today.. =)) den used comp.. until nw lorhs.. =))) tonite hse going to b very packed mans.. there are a total of 10 ppl, in a 3 room flat.. the 10 ppl consist of my aunt family (4 ppl), ah girl( cuz) , weesiong, weeping, me and mum.. hahhas.. so many.. =PP my hse like hostel like tt lerhs.. xi guan jiu hao bahs.. guess tts wad i like.. alot ppl, living in a small hse.. =))))))
12:10 PM
dint blog yesterday, cause i was veryvery sick.. =((( had to go and drink coffee with the doctor agn.. =PP this doctor is better than the one i went on saturday.. =))) today morning woke up, damn xin ku.. like wan to vomit like tt, but den nv vomit.. den took medicine, and went to sleep again.. mum went out to buy stuffs, and then come bac, my cuz (2 younger der, 4th aunt de child) , my uncle and auntie all wake up lerhs.. den mum walk in, see me wake up lerhs.. she fake fake, ask me i ok nt.. den somemore say dn wan disturb me already, when i already kana woke up by her liaos... hahs.. den woke up.. rest rest.. =)))) felt alot alot better, den used comp lerhs !! hahahs.. den lunch, had porridge, and then took medicine.. eyer !! see the medicine, although all also tablet one, i wan to vomit lerhs.. =((( then rested.. my cuz (ping, siong bro), come.. hahhs... den i sleep.. tired lehs.. ppl bing ren today.. =)) den used comp.. until nw lorhs.. =))) tonite hse going to b very packed mans.. there are a total of 10 ppl, in a 3 room flat.. the 10 ppl consist of my aunt family (4 ppl), ah girl( cuz) , weesiong, weeping, me and mum.. hahhas.. so many.. =PP my hse like hostel like tt lerhs.. xi guan jiu hao bahs.. guess tts wad i like.. alot ppl, living in a small hse.. =))))))
nothing is ever important .
6:42 PM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
woke up, and found myself hot hot.. sick.. hais.. den mum went down to check if the clinic downstairs got open nt.. sians.. nv open.. i was damn weak then.. then mum say bring me go to the clinic at the market one.. since, i was like very sick, better go mahs.. if nt, wait until tmr will get worse derhs.. so went there.. walked damn slowly, cause i was very weak, and like no more energy like tt.. den see the doctor.. nth much larhs.. just tt i fever,flu and cough.. hais.. den i came home first, whilst mum went to the market and buy things.. took the medicine and found out tt i need to take 7pills.. argh !! all the medicine also take 2 caps/3times a day.. hais.. but mum say if tmr i ok lerhs.. only need to take those i nt ok de part.. yay !! =)))) den slept.. eat the medicine become very drowsy.. den woke up to eat lunch, eat medicine again, den nw come to blog lorhs.. very sian.. whole day sleep only.. hais.. i hate to b sick !!!
i am really disappointed with myself.. i want to change my attitude, and become a better juliana.. a juliana which everyone will like.. a juliana, with a better attitude.. but, i just dnno why.. i just keep on want to show attitude, want to guailan ppl.. i know tt she cares for me.. and she likes her daughter.. but, i just cant control myself.. i really cant.. i feel like giving up.. but i know i cant.. i cant let more ppl be disappointed in me.. i cant let those that cared, helped and taught me alot of things, be disappointed in me.. i really want to be a good person... but, can i ?? people that does very small things to me, i want to show them attitude/guailan them already... how can i be good ??? i have made alot alot of mistakes for the past 10months.. i want to change.. i will try to change one.. =))
6:42 PM
woke up, and found myself hot hot.. sick.. hais.. den mum went down to check if the clinic downstairs got open nt.. sians.. nv open.. i was damn weak then.. then mum say bring me go to the clinic at the market one.. since, i was like very sick, better go mahs.. if nt, wait until tmr will get worse derhs.. so went there.. walked damn slowly, cause i was very weak, and like no more energy like tt.. den see the doctor.. nth much larhs.. just tt i fever,flu and cough.. hais.. den i came home first, whilst mum went to the market and buy things.. took the medicine and found out tt i need to take 7pills.. argh !! all the medicine also take 2 caps/3times a day.. hais.. but mum say if tmr i ok lerhs.. only need to take those i nt ok de part.. yay !! =)))) den slept.. eat the medicine become very drowsy.. den woke up to eat lunch, eat medicine again, den nw come to blog lorhs.. very sian.. whole day sleep only.. hais.. i hate to b sick !!!
i am really disappointed with myself.. i want to change my attitude, and become a better juliana.. a juliana which everyone will like.. a juliana, with a better attitude.. but, i just dnno why.. i just keep on want to show attitude, want to guailan ppl.. i know tt she cares for me.. and she likes her daughter.. but, i just cant control myself.. i really cant.. i feel like giving up.. but i know i cant.. i cant let more ppl be disappointed in me.. i cant let those that cared, helped and taught me alot of things, be disappointed in me.. i really want to be a good person... but, can i ?? people that does very small things to me, i want to show them attitude/guailan them already... how can i be good ??? i have made alot alot of mistakes for the past 10months.. i want to change.. i will try to change one.. =))
nothing is ever important .
9:27 AM
Friday, October 12, 2007
reflecting.. for the past 10 months, i have thoroughly changed...
last time, i did not fold skirt (tough now fold abit nia larhs), last time, i seldom show any attitude to my teachers, and i wasnt that bad tempered too.. my vulgarities wont that bad also, although last time i everytime scold, nw i nv scold everytime.. but den my vulgarities worse lerhs.. hais. last time my attire also very good one (only ankle socks) now, my attire like shit.. hais.. lets reflect on those bad stuffs i have done.. mayb some forgotten larhs.. but den, still can reflect.. bad stuffs that had happened also can larhs.. =((
-i started with annoying some teachers.. i am really sorry...
-then, during NP camp, i guai lan my senior.. sorry also...
-then, i posted alot alot of things bad on my blog... sorry..
-then when shermaine, made lizhong's things spoil, i was damn angry and i went to push her.. got an offence slip for that...
-april, my mood started to turn bad bad...
-june, during frisbee training, one junior rude to me, i scolded her damn badly.. though she is wrong, but i have no rights to scold her..
-when my uniform came, i started off with buttoning all my buttons.. but now, none..
-then, one NP training, i accidentally pushed jeanette, and caused her to sprain her leg... although she keep on say not my fault, but i feel that it is mine.. sorry...
-august, my dad was hospitalised, cause of stroke.. my mood turned damn down, and then i keep on guai lan people...
-xavier was very guai lan.. he made jeanette, and then i went to take his things and threw down the building.. got scolded for that.. hais..
-i started throwing things out of the window.. teacher found out and scolded me... i was lucky, that my teacher did not call my parents.. neither did she give me an offence slip..
-september, frisbee zonals, i scolded a guy until very badly, cause he misbehaved.. i know i have a very bad temper.. but i cant control. =((
-then i started not to wear school shoelaces.. bad bad..
-one NP training, i made a senior damn angry.. i ran 1 round around the school, despite she telling me to wait for her.. although i did heard it, i told her i dint.. =(( sorry for lying.. then i guai lan her... she nv scold me, but i know she is very angry.. hais...
-then school started.. went to tuition centre, that day i dint knw wad happened to me.. then, i went into a K2 class, a small guy was like damn rude to me, and i shouted at him, until he almost cried... when his mum came to fetch him, and he told his mum, his mum come and talk to my ex-tuition teacher.. although i keep on say it not my fault, but den that guy is still so young, i shouldn't have done that...
-one day, i went to McD to study... supposed to go library, but then it was full.. then, i went McD, then i sat at a plae which was damn noisy.. so, i changed to another place.. den when i was walkin to that place, a small girl, i dnno wad age, stared at me.. den, i stared bac at her.. when i sat down, her whole family was like starin at me.. her father even shouted at me, saying : stare wad stare ? (deng shen me deng, chinese)
-one science lesson, i attituded my science teacher.. she called me not to go and throw things, i dint listen and went to throw it..
-on that same day, lizhong was fooling around, calling me names.. i was damn angry, i stood up and pushed him.. i almost pushed him down his chair.. i am really sorry lizhong.. =(((
-then recently, i keep on guai lan my family members also.. hais..
9:27 AM
reflecting.. for the past 10 months, i have thoroughly changed...
last time, i did not fold skirt (tough now fold abit nia larhs), last time, i seldom show any attitude to my teachers, and i wasnt that bad tempered too.. my vulgarities wont that bad also, although last time i everytime scold, nw i nv scold everytime.. but den my vulgarities worse lerhs.. hais. last time my attire also very good one (only ankle socks) now, my attire like shit.. hais.. lets reflect on those bad stuffs i have done.. mayb some forgotten larhs.. but den, still can reflect.. bad stuffs that had happened also can larhs.. =((
-i started with annoying some teachers.. i am really sorry...
-then, during NP camp, i guai lan my senior.. sorry also...
-then, i posted alot alot of things bad on my blog... sorry..
-then when shermaine, made lizhong's things spoil, i was damn angry and i went to push her.. got an offence slip for that...
-april, my mood started to turn bad bad...
-june, during frisbee training, one junior rude to me, i scolded her damn badly.. though she is wrong, but i have no rights to scold her..
-when my uniform came, i started off with buttoning all my buttons.. but now, none..
-then, one NP training, i accidentally pushed jeanette, and caused her to sprain her leg... although she keep on say not my fault, but i feel that it is mine.. sorry...
-august, my dad was hospitalised, cause of stroke.. my mood turned damn down, and then i keep on guai lan people...
-xavier was very guai lan.. he made jeanette, and then i went to take his things and threw down the building.. got scolded for that.. hais..
-i started throwing things out of the window.. teacher found out and scolded me... i was lucky, that my teacher did not call my parents.. neither did she give me an offence slip..
-september, frisbee zonals, i scolded a guy until very badly, cause he misbehaved.. i know i have a very bad temper.. but i cant control. =((
-then i started not to wear school shoelaces.. bad bad..
-one NP training, i made a senior damn angry.. i ran 1 round around the school, despite she telling me to wait for her.. although i did heard it, i told her i dint.. =(( sorry for lying.. then i guai lan her... she nv scold me, but i know she is very angry.. hais...
-then school started.. went to tuition centre, that day i dint knw wad happened to me.. then, i went into a K2 class, a small guy was like damn rude to me, and i shouted at him, until he almost cried... when his mum came to fetch him, and he told his mum, his mum come and talk to my ex-tuition teacher.. although i keep on say it not my fault, but den that guy is still so young, i shouldn't have done that...
-one day, i went to McD to study... supposed to go library, but then it was full.. then, i went McD, then i sat at a plae which was damn noisy.. so, i changed to another place.. den when i was walkin to that place, a small girl, i dnno wad age, stared at me.. den, i stared bac at her.. when i sat down, her whole family was like starin at me.. her father even shouted at me, saying : stare wad stare ? (deng shen me deng, chinese)
-one science lesson, i attituded my science teacher.. she called me not to go and throw things, i dint listen and went to throw it..
-on that same day, lizhong was fooling around, calling me names.. i was damn angry, i stood up and pushed him.. i almost pushed him down his chair.. i am really sorry lizhong.. =(((
-then recently, i keep on guai lan my family members also.. hais..
i am rotten...
nothing is ever important .
9:00 AM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
my right ear
9:00 AM
pierced..
i have pierced another hole, at the 3rd part.. lucky the part which i wanted to pierce, the aunty nv pierce.. hahs.. the 3rd part, is pain enough for me already.. hais.. is pierce the bone part, and its like alot alot more pain than the 2nd part.. hais.. now i touch the bone nia, its like very pain already... hais.. although one side 2, one side 3, it looks nice.. but den, its damn pain sia.. i dn wan to pierce anymore already.. =((( [maybe i happy, i will go pierce again.. hahas.. not so sure]
i have pierced another hole, at the 3rd part.. lucky the part which i wanted to pierce, the aunty nv pierce.. hahs.. the 3rd part, is pain enough for me already.. hais.. is pierce the bone part, and its like alot alot more pain than the 2nd part.. hais.. now i touch the bone nia, its like very pain already... hais.. although one side 2, one side 3, it looks nice.. but den, its damn pain sia.. i dn wan to pierce anymore already.. =((( [maybe i happy, i will go pierce again.. hahas.. not so sure]
my right ear
nothing is ever important .
3:32 PM
today english oral is ok lorhs.. think fail liaos.. cause the question is about siblings one.. and i dn have any.. =(( den when she ask if i have any, i said i dn have.. she immediately silenced sia.. then she change to other questions, like imaginary one.. i tink i fail liaos lorhs.. hahas.. then went inter mac with yizhen, afifah and jeanette.. had loads of fun mans !! =PP joking.. and they keep on say i horny.. but i am not !! grr !! hahas. den accompany them wait for bus.. actually wan to go and pierce earhole one.. but den i take two coins out, and throw, the result was both the same side.. which means cant pierce lorhs.. hais. den when part with them, walking home, i saw KIMBERLEY KUAN !! so long nv see her liaos !! we all hugged mans. =PP we are not les !! den i walk walk walk, walk to the pierce ear de shop.. nv open !! grr.. den walk home, told mum about it.. she say: pierce pierce lorhs.. i wont scold.. but then right if u do wrong de things, i will scold.. but hor, u dn ltr grow up say i nv call u dn pierce horhs !! lols !! den i asked friends, some say pierce lorhs... some say very cool.. some i tink they think i crazy.. hahas... mayb soon i will pierce bahs.. =PP
3:32 PM
today english oral is ok lorhs.. think fail liaos.. cause the question is about siblings one.. and i dn have any.. =(( den when she ask if i have any, i said i dn have.. she immediately silenced sia.. then she change to other questions, like imaginary one.. i tink i fail liaos lorhs.. hahas.. then went inter mac with yizhen, afifah and jeanette.. had loads of fun mans !! =PP joking.. and they keep on say i horny.. but i am not !! grr !! hahas. den accompany them wait for bus.. actually wan to go and pierce earhole one.. but den i take two coins out, and throw, the result was both the same side.. which means cant pierce lorhs.. hais. den when part with them, walking home, i saw KIMBERLEY KUAN !! so long nv see her liaos !! we all hugged mans. =PP we are not les !! den i walk walk walk, walk to the pierce ear de shop.. nv open !! grr.. den walk home, told mum about it.. she say: pierce pierce lorhs.. i wont scold.. but then right if u do wrong de things, i will scold.. but hor, u dn ltr grow up say i nv call u dn pierce horhs !! lols !! den i asked friends, some say pierce lorhs... some say very cool.. some i tink they think i crazy.. hahas... mayb soon i will pierce bahs.. =PP
nothing is ever important .
10:56 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
yay !! finally, my geog paper is done.. and, here i am, chiong-ing comp !! =)) its been long, since i felt the free-ness !! tomorrow, have oral, and i am done !! =)) i am so going to use comp, until dnno wad time.. of course going to sleep, at about 9 plus , cause tmr have oral, need wake up early mahs.. =)) so happy sia now.. just now after the release, i fast fast chiong out liaos.. k.. short post for today.. going to play until siao lerhs !! byebye !!
10:56 AM
yay !! finally, my geog paper is done.. and, here i am, chiong-ing comp !! =)) its been long, since i felt the free-ness !! tomorrow, have oral, and i am done !! =)) i am so going to use comp, until dnno wad time.. of course going to sleep, at about 9 plus , cause tmr have oral, need wake up early mahs.. =)) so happy sia now.. just now after the release, i fast fast chiong out liaos.. k.. short post for today.. going to play until siao lerhs !! byebye !!
nothing is ever important .
7:01 AM
Monday, October 08, 2007
today morning woke up, darn tired.. cause last night late late den sleep.. =PP got scolded of course.. but, nvm.. used to it lerhs.. den morning mum cant wake me up, dad woke up also lerhs.. she say loud loud to dad : "toin larh.. lerh seng kong pai gai" (teochiew) see larh.. u dote too much one (english) .. den i go bath, come out, dad was like.. see larh.. make me kana scold.. lols !!! den i prepare everything finish liaos, dad was like : today maths, got confidence not ?? i laughed, and replied : have.. can pass one.. =)) den went schl.. today nt that early.. but den is normal for me liaos.. nv go school early early nowadays.. for wad sia.. go school so early, do nothing.. in the past i would go school early early, copy homework larhs.. but now, dn have lerhs.. i do myself.. better lorhs.. then, as usual, i went to the cafeteria, to sit sit, den see a few of the maths qn , to prepare .. =)) just as i was about, to sleep liaos (tired mahhs.. see the solution, dn understand, want to sleep lorhs) then sheril came from behind, and shouted loud loud.. i thought was jeanette sia.. hahahs.. but it was ok larhs.. i woke me up.. =)) then we talk abit, and then she asked me a qn on speed.. den see see, explain a while, den go parade square assemble lerhs.. was the last to reach, and stood at the back lorhs..then had paper 1.. just managed to finish, but den alot also dnno hw to do.. hahas.. then recess, sit down and talk talk.. shirly asked me one maths qn.. den tried to teach her.. dnno if got use or not.. hahas.. paper 2 was ok.. nth much.. finished quick mans.. alot alot better than paper 1.. =)) den went 50++ buy lunch, come back.. the minute i reached home, i sit down, talk to my mum.. our conversation was funny.. i went like this:
me: mum, u nv ask me today paper easy or not..
mum: just now u call, i want ask one.. but den, think wait until u come bac den ask mahs..
me: ooh.. den why nw haven ask..
mum: haha !! see u now ask me, confirm is can one larh..
me: =)) ask me lehs..
mum: ok..
me: ask la ! ASK LA !!
mum: hahas !! okok.. U TODAY PAPER EASY NOT ? (she shout, and she laughed..)
me: both got finish.. paper 1 ok.. paper 2 also can.. can pass one..
hahas!! i tink i turnin mad soon liaos.. =)) send me to wood brigde arhs.. the number is "707" (shirly say one) =)) den now i use comp.. later going to ms pang there, study a while.. hehehehs..
3 things to take note:
one : juliana is NOT horny !
two : juliana is NOT bian tai !!
three : juliana is NOT emo !!!
7:01 AM
today morning woke up, darn tired.. cause last night late late den sleep.. =PP got scolded of course.. but, nvm.. used to it lerhs.. den morning mum cant wake me up, dad woke up also lerhs.. she say loud loud to dad : "toin larh.. lerh seng kong pai gai" (teochiew) see larh.. u dote too much one (english) .. den i go bath, come out, dad was like.. see larh.. make me kana scold.. lols !!! den i prepare everything finish liaos, dad was like : today maths, got confidence not ?? i laughed, and replied : have.. can pass one.. =)) den went schl.. today nt that early.. but den is normal for me liaos.. nv go school early early nowadays.. for wad sia.. go school so early, do nothing.. in the past i would go school early early, copy homework larhs.. but now, dn have lerhs.. i do myself.. better lorhs.. then, as usual, i went to the cafeteria, to sit sit, den see a few of the maths qn , to prepare .. =)) just as i was about, to sleep liaos (tired mahhs.. see the solution, dn understand, want to sleep lorhs) then sheril came from behind, and shouted loud loud.. i thought was jeanette sia.. hahahs.. but it was ok larhs.. i woke me up.. =)) then we talk abit, and then she asked me a qn on speed.. den see see, explain a while, den go parade square assemble lerhs.. was the last to reach, and stood at the back lorhs..then had paper 1.. just managed to finish, but den alot also dnno hw to do.. hahas.. then recess, sit down and talk talk.. shirly asked me one maths qn.. den tried to teach her.. dnno if got use or not.. hahas.. paper 2 was ok.. nth much.. finished quick mans.. alot alot better than paper 1.. =)) den went 50++ buy lunch, come back.. the minute i reached home, i sit down, talk to my mum.. our conversation was funny.. i went like this:
me: mum, u nv ask me today paper easy or not..
mum: just now u call, i want ask one.. but den, think wait until u come bac den ask mahs..
me: ooh.. den why nw haven ask..
mum: haha !! see u now ask me, confirm is can one larh..
me: =)) ask me lehs..
mum: ok..
me: ask la ! ASK LA !!
mum: hahas !! okok.. U TODAY PAPER EASY NOT ? (she shout, and she laughed..)
me: both got finish.. paper 1 ok.. paper 2 also can.. can pass one..
hahas!! i tink i turnin mad soon liaos.. =)) send me to wood brigde arhs.. the number is "707" (shirly say one) =)) den now i use comp.. later going to ms pang there, study a while.. hehehehs..
3 things to take note:
one : juliana is NOT horny !
two : juliana is NOT bian tai !!
three : juliana is NOT emo !!!
nothing is ever important .
1:26 PM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
i hate it !! i seriously do.. i dn like to see them suffer.. i dn like to see my dad, headache de face.. neither do i like to see my mum backache de face... i dn like !! i dn like to see them suffer.. but, do i have a choice ?? i dont !! i cant choose.. mayb its fate bahhs... they are both old lerhs.. one sick haven recover, the other sick also.. hais... i really dn wish anything to happen to either one of them... it hurts. =(( do i have a choice ?? i dn !! i dn have a choice to anything.. wad can i do ?? i will try not to show it out.. neither will i wellow in self pity.. i will try, try my best to pick myself up from where i have fallen down... i will derhs.. juliana can do it de.. maybe it just takes time for her, cause she is slow-witted.. =((
1:26 PM
i hate it !! i seriously do.. i dn like to see them suffer.. i dn like to see my dad, headache de face.. neither do i like to see my mum backache de face... i dn like !! i dn like to see them suffer.. but, do i have a choice ?? i dont !! i cant choose.. mayb its fate bahhs... they are both old lerhs.. one sick haven recover, the other sick also.. hais... i really dn wish anything to happen to either one of them... it hurts. =(( do i have a choice ?? i dn !! i dn have a choice to anything.. wad can i do ?? i will try not to show it out.. neither will i wellow in self pity.. i will try, try my best to pick myself up from where i have fallen down... i will derhs.. juliana can do it de.. maybe it just takes time for her, cause she is slow-witted.. =((
nothing is ever important .
5:20 PM
grrs.. so sians today.. early mornin need to wake up, just to go for breakfast.. whole family.. =)) so long dn haf like tt lerhs.. hahahs.. as usual, its at the alexandra village the fish porridge.. last time was 2 wks go once.. nw i tink is like dnno hw long den go once.. but den we got go other place.. it was last week ar.. i tink we went to kallang there, to eat noodles.. hahas.. ok.. back to topic.. den we went to SGH, to buy medicine for dad.. his ran out.. hahas.. waited damn long lorhs.. hahas.. den sent my cuz (ah girl, her pet name.. =PP), go to take bus home, to my grandma there.. den went lavender, to buy bus ticket, for dad.. he is going melaka on tues.. and YAYS !! me and mum dn need to go !! even thou i kno tt dad want me to go, since he keep on ask me want or not.. even b4 he go buy, he asked.. but, i rather spend my time at home, with my baobei laogong, computer.. =)) then came home, rest and watched tv.. den about 12, went to chic'r'us to buy some earing.. =)) so cute larhs.. is like capsule de.. =)) then went to mac, haf lunch and studied... hehehes.. finished my geog notes, and came bac.. was browsin thru the newspaper.. when i saw a fone, i want.. den i went on to the net, and found another one... althou tt fone rite, nellie and sheril (i tink) haf lerhs.. but, i still want larhs.. den i told mum, tt if i could score at least a B4 for every subject (in the report book derhs), she buy for me.. but i tink the fone is $0 derhs.. nt sure bahhs.. will go and check it out at the nearby starhub shop soon.. =)) hope can get lurhs.. cause i really tired with my this fone liaos.. and it is like keep on show me signs that it is going to spoil.. hahhs.. will try to get it mans.. even thou alot ppl haf it, i dn care.. i still wan.. hahahs.. =))
5:20 PM
grrs.. so sians today.. early mornin need to wake up, just to go for breakfast.. whole family.. =)) so long dn haf like tt lerhs.. hahahs.. as usual, its at the alexandra village the fish porridge.. last time was 2 wks go once.. nw i tink is like dnno hw long den go once.. but den we got go other place.. it was last week ar.. i tink we went to kallang there, to eat noodles.. hahas.. ok.. back to topic.. den we went to SGH, to buy medicine for dad.. his ran out.. hahas.. waited damn long lorhs.. hahas.. den sent my cuz (ah girl, her pet name.. =PP), go to take bus home, to my grandma there.. den went lavender, to buy bus ticket, for dad.. he is going melaka on tues.. and YAYS !! me and mum dn need to go !! even thou i kno tt dad want me to go, since he keep on ask me want or not.. even b4 he go buy, he asked.. but, i rather spend my time at home, with my baobei laogong, computer.. =)) then came home, rest and watched tv.. den about 12, went to chic'r'us to buy some earing.. =)) so cute larhs.. is like capsule de.. =)) then went to mac, haf lunch and studied... hehehes.. finished my geog notes, and came bac.. was browsin thru the newspaper.. when i saw a fone, i want.. den i went on to the net, and found another one... althou tt fone rite, nellie and sheril (i tink) haf lerhs.. but, i still want larhs.. den i told mum, tt if i could score at least a B4 for every subject (in the report book derhs), she buy for me.. but i tink the fone is $0 derhs.. nt sure bahhs.. will go and check it out at the nearby starhub shop soon.. =)) hope can get lurhs.. cause i really tired with my this fone liaos.. and it is like keep on show me signs that it is going to spoil.. hahhs.. will try to get it mans.. even thou alot ppl haf it, i dn care.. i still wan.. hahahs.. =))
i am hokkien, not teochiew
i speak teochiew, not hokkien
nothing is ever important .
4:52 PM
Friday, October 05, 2007
grr.. when was it, since i last post ? hahahs.. xiao mei mei need to study hard hard, den future will bright bright mahs.. so nv post lorhs.. hahahs !! i already nt bad ok.. every morning go school early early, just to study.. hehehes.. not like only i study larhs.. but den, last time de juliana, nv read book, nv study derhs.. even mid year exam, i also nv like study until, at night, watch tv and study.. hahas.. juliana change lerhs !! but still want to change more.. so that i can be good.. the next thing i want to change, is to have anger management... cause, i really sucks larhs.. ppl do abit nia, i buey song liaos.. so for that, i will work hard hard derhs.. to let u guys, see a totally different de juliana.. =)) and yea.. i also want to stop showin attitude, to teachers and stop being guai lan.. cause, i dn wan to see people angry angry derhs.. i dn like.. =)) and yeahs !! i also dn like to see ppl keep on for no reason, say sorry to me.. =)) say is can larhs.. but den, dn need to keep on repeat larhs.. very er.. dnno hw to explain.. i dn like jiu dui lerhs.. =))
oks.. er.. back to serious problem.. =)) i am declaring here, that i am left with 2 more subjects.. =)) maths;monday and geography;wednesday.. though i have english oral, on thursday, i can start to play on wednesday lurhs.. cause, hw to study oral ?? hahahs.. and, MAYBE i am going malaysia, after the oral.. but i dn wan to go lehhs.. go liaos, need to monday like tt den got come back.. dn wan.. will try to "debate" , to dn go.. hahahas.. =))) oks.. juliana want to go and study lurhs.. =))
4:52 PM
grr.. when was it, since i last post ? hahahs.. xiao mei mei need to study hard hard, den future will bright bright mahs.. so nv post lorhs.. hahahs !! i already nt bad ok.. every morning go school early early, just to study.. hehehes.. not like only i study larhs.. but den, last time de juliana, nv read book, nv study derhs.. even mid year exam, i also nv like study until, at night, watch tv and study.. hahas.. juliana change lerhs !! but still want to change more.. so that i can be good.. the next thing i want to change, is to have anger management... cause, i really sucks larhs.. ppl do abit nia, i buey song liaos.. so for that, i will work hard hard derhs.. to let u guys, see a totally different de juliana.. =)) and yea.. i also want to stop showin attitude, to teachers and stop being guai lan.. cause, i dn wan to see people angry angry derhs.. i dn like.. =)) and yeahs !! i also dn like to see ppl keep on for no reason, say sorry to me.. =)) say is can larhs.. but den, dn need to keep on repeat larhs.. very er.. dnno hw to explain.. i dn like jiu dui lerhs.. =))
oks.. er.. back to serious problem.. =)) i am declaring here, that i am left with 2 more subjects.. =)) maths;monday and geography;wednesday.. though i have english oral, on thursday, i can start to play on wednesday lurhs.. cause, hw to study oral ?? hahahs.. and, MAYBE i am going malaysia, after the oral.. but i dn wan to go lehhs.. go liaos, need to monday like tt den got come back.. dn wan.. will try to "debate" , to dn go.. hahahas.. =))) oks.. juliana want to go and study lurhs.. =))
nothing is ever important .
2:43 PM
2:43 PM