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Todays filled with alot of emotions.

If I said I wasn't touched , I would be lieing . The smile on her face , felt so sweet , so happy. It was the first time which I saw that . Its also the first time which I felt that by just wishing someone with a smile, from the bottom of the heart, there would be so much thoughts . At that point , I felt really happy . I could see the happiness in her eyes, totally . Though I don't know her for very long , but I know that shes kind, she cares. Eventhough a drop of tear trickled down my eyes, I felt happy . Contented .

If I said I wasn't sad , I would be lieing too. 5years since the first time I got to know about this sport. 5years since I known you. 3years after I left , but we still kept in contact. Its the sport which keeps the communication between us , and the whole gang . You said you are leaving too. How can I not feel anything ? 5years. If not for you , I would never know this sport , and never learn so much . Not to mention , without it , I would have never met so much fun and nice people. Its because of you , that I have known this sport . ((: Nevertheless , I will never forget these memories we share , and more memories to come even after you have left . Cause I know , we will form a team outside next time , and we will still continue to play . I will still continue to play eventhough those tuesdays afternoon will not be spent at the paradesquare , cause thats me. You saide "Wow! You are really doing it." Ok , let me tell you this , yes , I am really doing it. Without this sport , there wouldn't be me , eventhough I don't play well . ((: All the best , thankyou.

Now , I am going to say that I am happy . For , today I have met so many people which I have not met for a long time. Some have changed , some have not. I am not sure how long this friendship will last us till. I am not sure if we are still able to remember each other afew years down the road. But I can assure , those memories and friendship forged , will be etched in my heart . ((:

Lastly , a year have passed . A year ago , on this fateful date , 28Aug, I had hurt someone with my words . I told that special person my true colours. Since then , I have never been able to face that person. A year. I have never went to find you. I did once , but its with the accompany of another friend. Truthfully, I don't think I can ever face you. Eventhough I have changed, but once its hurt , it cannot be mended . Its the truth , that cannot change . All I can say is , I am sorry, eventhough I know that you will not be reading this. ((:

nothing is ever important .
9:02 PM

Its been sometime since there is a real post isnt it ?
Alright , so lets have a post today then .
Lets pen down all that I have for now . ((:

Recently , alot have been happening . Inside the house , and outside the house . Everything seems to change , unlike the past . I, too, have changed , I guess . I need time to adapt to these changes too. Am I given time ? I ain't so sure about it yea . All in all, I feel so weird nowadays , where everything feels so different . How I wish time could turn back to 2 years ago , where everything seemed so nice , and the road seemed so straight . And when I seem to be so young. ((:

In the past , I guess I was too young , everything seem so simple . Something small to me now , seems so big to me then . Is this a form of growing ? I ain't sure too. Its only after a short 24months , and everything seems so different . I can no longer find myself . I don't see myself just like what I was in the past . There are too many things for me to figure out , and think about . But , theres too little time , too little energy . How I wish I have an unlimited amount of energy , and I am able to do everything .

The road ahead seems so hard to walk through . Everything seems to be upside down . To a certain extent , I have grown . I have changed . But , I have not yet truly matured . I am greedy . I want everything to be right . When I am struggling , I think about god . I pray to him , and wish for everything to be the best . When everything is alright , I forget about him . I forget about the promises I had made when I need him . Nonetheless , it feels so hard to keep to it . I ain't a saint, I do the wrong things too . But , I don't feel that I am putting in enough effort . I am just trying to seek attention over here .

I am lost . Theres so much for me to say , but I don't know how to pen it down . I guess , its just all about it for now . ((:

Till then .

nothing is ever important .
1:41 PM

I feel my mind deteorating .
I forget alot of things , but I just can't forget the pain in my heart.

nothing is ever important .
8:04 PM

I don't want them to do it to me.
But why am I doing it to others ?
Why?

nothing is ever important .
8:09 PM

I am getting tired , really .
End this , ok ?

nothing is ever important .
8:04 PM

Sometimes , I really don't understand .

nothing is ever important .
8:03 PM

She said those words , as though she could read my mind.
Thanks . ((:
Eventhough I don't think you know it.

nothing is ever important .
8:47 PM

I guess I have changed ...
Grown ?

nothing is ever important .
8:47 PM

When everything isn't right , and everyone turns their backs on you.
How great?

nothing is ever important .
8:46 PM

Sometimes , its really too hard .
its just feels too hard to keep the smiles going .

nothing is ever important .
4:53 PM

Emptiness overwhelms me .

nothing is ever important .
4:54 PM

Tired .
Say hello , to no life . ((:

nothing is ever important .
4:52 PM

You have changed , really .

nothing is ever important .
4:50 PM

I need to get down to studying , very soon . ):

nothing is ever important .
5:29 PM

Sometimes , the frowns are just more than the ups .

nothing is ever important .
5:29 PM

If it was me , I wouldn't listen too .

nothing is ever important .
10:02 PM

If they can't , it doesn't means that I can't too . ((:

nothing is ever important .
10:01 PM

"Hmm.. it looks better now . ((: "

My heart melted abit when I heard this . ((:

nothing is ever important .
10:00 PM

Sometimes I don't know how to motivate .
I have tried , but it doesn't seem to work .

nothing is ever important .
9:59 PM

If you both are still hanging on ,
Why cant you both just stay peacefully ?
It breaks my heart , do you know ?

nothing is ever important .
9:14 PM

If love fades overtime ..
Why are you both still hanging on after so many years ?

nothing is ever important .
9:13 PM

Can't there be more peace ?
All I want is no quarrels and everyone will be happy .
I guess its really that hard , though .

nothing is ever important .
9:13 PM

All i want is a happy family .
Is it really that difficult ?
Can't there just be more tolerance ?

nothing is ever important .
9:11 PM

As the day passes , my energy level lowers .

nothing is ever important .
9:12 PM

A haircut always makes my day . ((:

nothing is ever important .
9:10 PM

There is always something , that will spoil everything .
Shagged .

nothing is ever important .
9:10 PM

I have just realised .
I don't even have the energy to do something that I enjoy .

nothing is ever important .
9:43 PM

Everyones buzy and tired .
They have no time to even talk to me .
I feel so lonely .

nothing is ever important .
9:42 PM

Its still so empty .
When will it be filled ?

nothing is ever important .
6:49 PM

Its getting heavier and heavier everyday .

nothing is ever important .
6:47 PM

How long more do I have to wait ?
Like seriously .

nothing is ever important .
6:46 PM