i am nt feelingless.. cause i am already 13.. no longer like last time, whom i dn give it a damn to hw ppl feel.. its great, to grow up.. cause i knw hw to think for others and myself already.. but, somehow always think too much.. hahas !! and, i am never like before, the cheerup me.. the one whom always smiles.. x))) growing up, isnt as good, as what i thought.. cause, i have got alot alot lesser smiles, lesser laughters than last time..
and, growing up.. means more rebellious.. dyed my hair, 5 earholes and things like that.. though my hair colour nt tt obvious, but.. i have dyed it.. the me, last time was so good, that i would not have done so.. and nw adays.. mayb cause too bored.. i could even sacrifice my time.. to jus go see my frend, and "pei" her a while.. and go home.. jus a short de meet-up, i am also contented.. i could even walk about 5 mins, just to buy lollipop.. hhasa !! mayb just abit lame, or bored.. doing nothing practically recently..
stopped my blog at blogger.. hahas ! doing silly things recently.. mayb just to go somewhere and apologise to ppl.. go somewhere, just to buy something useless.. or go somewhere, to see my frend and pei her a while.. thats all.. hahas !!
nothing is ever important .
9:49 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
9:49 AM
today started out well.. only abit like nv smile.. den during master parade, saw some funny actions and laughed like hell.. despite knowing that there is a chance that will get scolded larhs.. cause cant fidgit mahs.. lols ! but after that, when have training.. jiu nt happy lerhs.. partly cause tired larhs.. another part, i dnno.. hahas !! seriously dnno why lorhs.. i nv think about it lerhs.. still like that.. but at least i did smile today.. x)) alot of fake smiles i know.. but, i got try.. hehe.. den towards the end of training, i was a casualty.. cant take it lerhs.. tootoo tired.. den i sat there, see them train lorhs.. even though my squad very funny, when doing the marchin, but its like i nv laugh lorhs.. dnno why.. =// den had "bersurai", followed by debrief.. darn tired.. =(( den rested at the cafeteria a while, and den came home.. even though cousin help me changed my comp ram to a faster one, but like still not happy.. dnno why.. mayb tmr is 14th lerhs ?
she nv kaopei me today..
nothing is ever important .
1:06 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007
she is back.. finally.. but, i dn feel a thing at all.. in fact, its nt tt she come back i am happy.. its that sad.. cause, her face is full of worries and sorrows.. wad can i do nehs ? i can only sit dere, and watch.. feel damn sad when see her like that.. time really flies.. tomorrow is 13th already.. another NP training.. i will try to control my attitude.. even if she kaopei me, i also just quiet quiet bahs.. den soon, 14th liaos.. his report will be out.. hope everything turns out fine.. he just now told me that he going operation soon.. actually i already noe lerhs.. but, dnno why he suddenly say that.. i can see that he is just waitin for that day only..
i am really lost.. dnno wad to do.. want to do this, cannot.. want to do that, also cannot.. my promise, also i dn think can ever get it done lerhs... really really alot of things which no one wants it to happen, is happening.. all at a go.. too fast already.. i dnno hw to react..
1:06 PM
she is back.. finally.. but, i dn feel a thing at all.. in fact, its nt tt she come back i am happy.. its that sad.. cause, her face is full of worries and sorrows.. wad can i do nehs ? i can only sit dere, and watch.. feel damn sad when see her like that.. time really flies.. tomorrow is 13th already.. another NP training.. i will try to control my attitude.. even if she kaopei me, i also just quiet quiet bahs.. den soon, 14th liaos.. his report will be out.. hope everything turns out fine.. he just now told me that he going operation soon.. actually i already noe lerhs.. but, dnno why he suddenly say that.. i can see that he is just waitin for that day only..
i am really lost.. dnno wad to do.. want to do this, cannot.. want to do that, also cannot.. my promise, also i dn think can ever get it done lerhs... really really alot of things which no one wants it to happen, is happening.. all at a go.. too fast already.. i dnno hw to react..
sorry
nothing is ever important .
1:58 PM
Sunday, November 11, 2007
speechless.. i have no more comments towards myself.. think that i am just far too useless.. i have always been calling people to cheerup, and smile always, and call them to promise me to b happy.. but, i myself.. i have broken alot of promises to people already.. i think i have no rights to call them to cheerup and smile always.. cause, i cant even do it myself.. hais.. my "mission", which is due on tuesday.. i think i confirm fail already.. i have been constantly trying, for the pass 2weeks.. but... i have nt improved.. i guess i have only deproved.. i am too tired..
i am sorry..
1:58 PM
speechless.. i have no more comments towards myself.. think that i am just far too useless.. i have always been calling people to cheerup, and smile always, and call them to promise me to b happy.. but, i myself.. i have broken alot of promises to people already.. i think i have no rights to call them to cheerup and smile always.. cause, i cant even do it myself.. hais.. my "mission", which is due on tuesday.. i think i confirm fail already.. i have been constantly trying, for the pass 2weeks.. but... i have nt improved.. i guess i have only deproved.. i am too tired..
i am sorry..
nothing is ever important .
10:08 PM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
last night sleep at 0130 and today woke up at 0730.. sians.. den about 10++ , me and my cousins went to visit grandma.. she is not out yet.. mayb tmr.. mayb nt.. dnno.. keep on like postpone the discharg-ing date.. she still cant walk much.. can see that she is afraid.. i see her like that, wad can i do ? all i can do is like just stand there and watch her bahs.. den went for lunch at mac with cousins.. den went bac lorhs.. den after 3rd aunt come liaos, den we leave.. very tired mahs.. deb reach home, jiu use comp.. den ate my dinner.. was hungry, but somehow felt lousy, and dint eat much.. nw, come to blog lorhs.. nth much today larhs.. mayb tonite cousins wan go there stayover.. nt too sure larhs.. they want to go, den mayb i will go bahs.. dnno..
10:08 PM
last night sleep at 0130 and today woke up at 0730.. sians.. den about 10++ , me and my cousins went to visit grandma.. she is not out yet.. mayb tmr.. mayb nt.. dnno.. keep on like postpone the discharg-ing date.. she still cant walk much.. can see that she is afraid.. i see her like that, wad can i do ? all i can do is like just stand there and watch her bahs.. den went for lunch at mac with cousins.. den went bac lorhs.. den after 3rd aunt come liaos, den we leave.. very tired mahs.. deb reach home, jiu use comp.. den ate my dinner.. was hungry, but somehow felt lousy, and dint eat much.. nw, come to blog lorhs.. nth much today larhs.. mayb tonite cousins wan go there stayover.. nt too sure larhs.. they want to go, den mayb i will go bahs.. dnno..
why must things happen this way ?
i am sick and tired of it already ..
nothing is ever important .
6:42 PM
Friday, November 09, 2007
okays.. i am petty larhs.. still buey song her.. hahas.. but, i promise that if she dn kaopei me , i wont guailan her.. if she kaopei, i will.. i scold vulgarities and guailan people, never care date, time, venue and person one.. i think i am going on tuesday lorhs.. if not stay at home.. see tio nt nice derhs things, make me feel nt happy also.. so the best way is to go out of my house.. hahas..
when can you learn how to takecare of yourself ? money so important ar? if you nt feeling well, den dun go and find your friends mahs.. so wad if can earn money ? later if anything happen to you lehs ? got money den also no use lerhs.. cause you will b gone.. i mayb only your daughter.. still 12, going to 13 soon.. but, i know whats right and wrong.. i know that you know too.. but, you just want to earn money mahs.. i dint mean it to shout at you so harshly larhs.. but den.. its like so damn mad larhs.. you so tired lerhs, still want to go and work.. hard nehs.. everyday see you at home only, also so tired lerhs.. if go out nehs ? hais...
6:42 PM
okays.. i am petty larhs.. still buey song her.. hahas.. but, i promise that if she dn kaopei me , i wont guailan her.. if she kaopei, i will.. i scold vulgarities and guailan people, never care date, time, venue and person one.. i think i am going on tuesday lorhs.. if not stay at home.. see tio nt nice derhs things, make me feel nt happy also.. so the best way is to go out of my house.. hahas..
when can you learn how to takecare of yourself ? money so important ar? if you nt feeling well, den dun go and find your friends mahs.. so wad if can earn money ? later if anything happen to you lehs ? got money den also no use lerhs.. cause you will b gone.. i mayb only your daughter.. still 12, going to 13 soon.. but, i know whats right and wrong.. i know that you know too.. but, you just want to earn money mahs.. i dint mean it to shout at you so harshly larhs.. but den.. its like so damn mad larhs.. you so tired lerhs, still want to go and work.. hard nehs.. everyday see you at home only, also so tired lerhs.. if go out nehs ? hais...
nothing is ever important .
8:26 AM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
last nite slept at 11.. so happy mans.. can sleep at 11.. normally 11 is wont sleep derhs.. woke up at 0630.. cause need to go to visit ahma and go breakfast.. after tt den also need to send 4th aunt to take bus home.. hahas.. den need go early mahs.. =// den after everything jiu come home lerhs.. think grandma today will try to walk bahs.. and once she can walk lerhs, she can come back.. =))) hope she can walk again.. cause heard that alot ppl operate lerhs, still cant walk.. think is can bahs.. =PP come bac, rest awhile den use comp.. den nw come blog.. abit sian nehs.. nth to blog about.. =(( anyways, i think that weesiong tomorrowo coming back lerhs.. which means that, no more late sleeping for me.. hahas.. =// mum must b very happy lorhs.. she love to see me sleep early..
i dun feel like going for training this tuesday again.. i dun like people to kaopei me larhs.. really.. other people dye hair, they never scold.. i dye, they scold lerhs.. its like so damn unfair larhs.. like buey song me like tt.. buey song me, just tell me larhs.. need scold meh ? better becareful larhs you.. if u kaopei me again, i will make sure i guailan you back.. i that day never guailan u, cause i dint want to make another mistake.. u call me put up my fringe, tuck in my shirt and walk faster, i got do lehs.. in the end wad i get bac ? ur kaopei.. walan.. i born, nt for u to kaopei derh lehs.. wan me to dye black bac again ? make others do so first larhs.. their dye more obvious than me lehs.. u see me sec1 nia.. and i sure wont dare guailan u derhs.. so u kaopei me mahs.. u see gary sec2, taller and bigger size den u.. and sure will kan u when u kaopei one.. so never kaopei him mahs.. fuck larhs.. if got ppl tuesday dn wan go, i also dn wan go lerhs lorhs.. go dere also keep on let u kaopei.. keep on let you scold.. though u nv take my squad.. but if both squads combine, i am very sure that u will one.. 200 %.. i dn care anymore lerhs.. even if i dn go on tuesday, and fail my l/c test.. i dn mind.. cause, i dn like people kaopei me !!!
8:26 AM
last nite slept at 11.. so happy mans.. can sleep at 11.. normally 11 is wont sleep derhs.. woke up at 0630.. cause need to go to visit ahma and go breakfast.. after tt den also need to send 4th aunt to take bus home.. hahas.. den need go early mahs.. =// den after everything jiu come home lerhs.. think grandma today will try to walk bahs.. and once she can walk lerhs, she can come back.. =))) hope she can walk again.. cause heard that alot ppl operate lerhs, still cant walk.. think is can bahs.. =PP come bac, rest awhile den use comp.. den nw come blog.. abit sian nehs.. nth to blog about.. =(( anyways, i think that weesiong tomorrowo coming back lerhs.. which means that, no more late sleeping for me.. hahas.. =// mum must b very happy lorhs.. she love to see me sleep early..
i dun feel like going for training this tuesday again.. i dun like people to kaopei me larhs.. really.. other people dye hair, they never scold.. i dye, they scold lerhs.. its like so damn unfair larhs.. like buey song me like tt.. buey song me, just tell me larhs.. need scold meh ? better becareful larhs you.. if u kaopei me again, i will make sure i guailan you back.. i that day never guailan u, cause i dint want to make another mistake.. u call me put up my fringe, tuck in my shirt and walk faster, i got do lehs.. in the end wad i get bac ? ur kaopei.. walan.. i born, nt for u to kaopei derh lehs.. wan me to dye black bac again ? make others do so first larhs.. their dye more obvious than me lehs.. u see me sec1 nia.. and i sure wont dare guailan u derhs.. so u kaopei me mahs.. u see gary sec2, taller and bigger size den u.. and sure will kan u when u kaopei one.. so never kaopei him mahs.. fuck larhs.. if got ppl tuesday dn wan go, i also dn wan go lerhs lorhs.. go dere also keep on let u kaopei.. keep on let you scold.. though u nv take my squad.. but if both squads combine, i am very sure that u will one.. 200 %.. i dn care anymore lerhs.. even if i dn go on tuesday, and fail my l/c test.. i dn mind.. cause, i dn like people kaopei me !!!
nothing is ever important .
12:49 PM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
last nite, slept at 9 and woke up at 0930.. den actually wanted to sleep at 1030.. but in the end, lie on the bed until 12 den sleep.. den 0730 woke up lerhs.. 8hrs of sleep.. den morning tell mum.. she was like say tt i die lerhs.. cant sleep early, can only sleep late.. lols !! den 8 like tt walk to bus stop, to go school.. today got NP.. when reach, tok tok a while, den fall-in lorhs.. gary ngam ngam ho stand beside me.. den he pinch me.. hahs.. now got 3 blueblacks at my hand dere.. lols !! den 20 ppl.. sec1,sec2 and sec3.. went to PHC.. i am included.. i think those not included, cause the form they hand up late lorhs.. dint really had fun dere.. in fact, when i was dere, dint really laugh or smile.. and was quite quiet... dnno why.. den went bac.. finally.. i smiled and joked abit more lerhs.. mayb cause got ppl make me laugh bahs.. so many more ppl in school mahs.. then had lunch, and changed to PT.. den had games lorhs.. dint really play.. starting was like nv talk, see them play.. but, after tt like got more ppl nv play, den talked more lorhs.. anyways, javier and jocelyn saw my dyed hair.. they call me to dye bac black by next training.. dn think will dye bac.. dn care dem lorhs.. they scold, just let them scold.. the most punish me nia mahs.. lols !! den came back.. rested awhile, changed.. den went to play basketball.. normal anyhow shoot to let me sweat nia larhs.. i sibeh noob one.. =// den saw ailing.. she also join me play lorhs.. den play until very tired, went to cheers, to buy maggi eat.. hahas.. den went playground eat, and talked... den come home.. den talked with friends awhile, and had dinner.. cause lazy, nw den blog.. hahas..
everyone is weird today
12:49 PM
last nite, slept at 9 and woke up at 0930.. den actually wanted to sleep at 1030.. but in the end, lie on the bed until 12 den sleep.. den 0730 woke up lerhs.. 8hrs of sleep.. den morning tell mum.. she was like say tt i die lerhs.. cant sleep early, can only sleep late.. lols !! den 8 like tt walk to bus stop, to go school.. today got NP.. when reach, tok tok a while, den fall-in lorhs.. gary ngam ngam ho stand beside me.. den he pinch me.. hahs.. now got 3 blueblacks at my hand dere.. lols !! den 20 ppl.. sec1,sec2 and sec3.. went to PHC.. i am included.. i think those not included, cause the form they hand up late lorhs.. dint really had fun dere.. in fact, when i was dere, dint really laugh or smile.. and was quite quiet... dnno why.. den went bac.. finally.. i smiled and joked abit more lerhs.. mayb cause got ppl make me laugh bahs.. so many more ppl in school mahs.. then had lunch, and changed to PT.. den had games lorhs.. dint really play.. starting was like nv talk, see them play.. but, after tt like got more ppl nv play, den talked more lorhs.. anyways, javier and jocelyn saw my dyed hair.. they call me to dye bac black by next training.. dn think will dye bac.. dn care dem lorhs.. they scold, just let them scold.. the most punish me nia mahs.. lols !! den came back.. rested awhile, changed.. den went to play basketball.. normal anyhow shoot to let me sweat nia larhs.. i sibeh noob one.. =// den saw ailing.. she also join me play lorhs.. den play until very tired, went to cheers, to buy maggi eat.. hahas.. den went playground eat, and talked... den come home.. den talked with friends awhile, and had dinner.. cause lazy, nw den blog.. hahas..
everyone is weird today
nothing is ever important .
6:28 PM
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
afraid.. i really am... i dn want to lose u.. neither do i wan to see u sick.. i dn need u to recover fully.. but, i just want you to be healthy.. i am sorry, for being so nt understanding and guai lan last time.. but this few days, see u like so sick.. and walk like keep on want to fall down.. my heart hurts really.. i dn wan to see you being admitted into the hospital again... i want you to be like before.. but, i know that the clock can never turn anti-clockwise, and all those illness are in you.. they can never ever be removed from you.. i know that you have finally learnt, and want to take care of urself.. but, you are still sick.. i have tried my very best, to respect you and to treat you better.. but, its too late.. all too late.. i know that you are suffering inside.. but, you are just waiting for the 14th.. waiting for the report to b out.. and mayb to see the doctor.. i hope that you will be fine.. and be ok, without any operations.. all we have to do now is, to just wait for that day... i am not following you there, not cause i only care about going back to primary school, mayb for the last training of frisbee.. but, because i dn dare to accept the fact, when the report is out.. i dn dare to face it.. and, i dn want to go for NP trainings is because i dn want my sadness, to affect anyone.. cause, whenever i am sad, i will tend to show attitude and guailan.. i have regretted alot of times.. i dn wan to regret anymore.. but, if i dn go, not only will i lose out information and things tt they learn, seniors will b disappointed, or rather angry.. cause, i promised them that i will go.. so, i guess that the only way is that i just go bahs...
6:28 PM
afraid.. i really am... i dn want to lose u.. neither do i wan to see u sick.. i dn need u to recover fully.. but, i just want you to be healthy.. i am sorry, for being so nt understanding and guai lan last time.. but this few days, see u like so sick.. and walk like keep on want to fall down.. my heart hurts really.. i dn wan to see you being admitted into the hospital again... i want you to be like before.. but, i know that the clock can never turn anti-clockwise, and all those illness are in you.. they can never ever be removed from you.. i know that you have finally learnt, and want to take care of urself.. but, you are still sick.. i have tried my very best, to respect you and to treat you better.. but, its too late.. all too late.. i know that you are suffering inside.. but, you are just waiting for the 14th.. waiting for the report to b out.. and mayb to see the doctor.. i hope that you will be fine.. and be ok, without any operations.. all we have to do now is, to just wait for that day... i am not following you there, not cause i only care about going back to primary school, mayb for the last training of frisbee.. but, because i dn dare to accept the fact, when the report is out.. i dn dare to face it.. and, i dn want to go for NP trainings is because i dn want my sadness, to affect anyone.. cause, whenever i am sad, i will tend to show attitude and guailan.. i have regretted alot of times.. i dn wan to regret anymore.. but, if i dn go, not only will i lose out information and things tt they learn, seniors will b disappointed, or rather angry.. cause, i promised them that i will go.. so, i guess that the only way is that i just go bahs...
nothing is ever important .
4:19 PM
slept at 2 last nite.. actually is dn wan sleep derhs.. but cause tired, den slept lorhs.. if nt today morning 0630 like tt, means 24 hr nv sleep.. but in the end slept larhs.. then about 5 like tt woke up.. lie down, dere cant sleep.. den 6 sleep.. den about 8 like tt jiu wake up again.. only about 5hours of sleep lorhs.. tonight confirm must sleep.. if nt, tmr sure die.. got NP mahs.. somemore 0730 need wake up lerhs... by 9 need to get ready and fall in.. and blablabla lorhs.. sians.. dn feel like going larhs.. but, no choice haf to.. i promise ppl must go lerhs.. if nv go, very paiseh.. cant like promise den break wad.. hahas.. den went to take grandma de clothes from dad car.. first time he hand his car key to me.. hahas !! XDDDD den went to meet up with parents and 4th aunt for breakfast.. had a cup of tea, 2 half boiled eggs, a bread and some porridge.. den went to mount elizabeth hospital, see grandma.. dad nv come.. actually he wan come but mum tell him say dn need, coz he tired lerhs.. walk like anytime can fall.. so worried.. den saw grandma.. think she today feel better than ytd bahs.. but today have fever.. hope tt she will b ok, den friday can come bac lerhs.. den come bac.. told mum last nite sleep on 5hours.. she shocked sia.. hahas !! den she say call me go and sleep awhile.. if nt tired.. hehes.. but dn feel like sleeping, and very sian. hahas !!
i dn wan to go, not cause i am lazy.. it also does not mean that i don't like NP anymore.. or i have lost interest.. there are some reasons behind it.. only those who understands me will know bahs.. some people know, without me knowing.. some people, pester me to tell dem.. some, just like that think that i am lazy lorhs.. dn care larhs.. got reasons behind jiu dui lerhs.. hais..
4:19 PM
slept at 2 last nite.. actually is dn wan sleep derhs.. but cause tired, den slept lorhs.. if nt today morning 0630 like tt, means 24 hr nv sleep.. but in the end slept larhs.. then about 5 like tt woke up.. lie down, dere cant sleep.. den 6 sleep.. den about 8 like tt jiu wake up again.. only about 5hours of sleep lorhs.. tonight confirm must sleep.. if nt, tmr sure die.. got NP mahs.. somemore 0730 need wake up lerhs... by 9 need to get ready and fall in.. and blablabla lorhs.. sians.. dn feel like going larhs.. but, no choice haf to.. i promise ppl must go lerhs.. if nv go, very paiseh.. cant like promise den break wad.. hahas.. den went to take grandma de clothes from dad car.. first time he hand his car key to me.. hahas !! XDDDD den went to meet up with parents and 4th aunt for breakfast.. had a cup of tea, 2 half boiled eggs, a bread and some porridge.. den went to mount elizabeth hospital, see grandma.. dad nv come.. actually he wan come but mum tell him say dn need, coz he tired lerhs.. walk like anytime can fall.. so worried.. den saw grandma.. think she today feel better than ytd bahs.. but today have fever.. hope tt she will b ok, den friday can come bac lerhs.. den come bac.. told mum last nite sleep on 5hours.. she shocked sia.. hahas !! den she say call me go and sleep awhile.. if nt tired.. hehes.. but dn feel like sleeping, and very sian. hahas !!
i dn wan to go, not cause i am lazy.. it also does not mean that i don't like NP anymore.. or i have lost interest.. there are some reasons behind it.. only those who understands me will know bahs.. some people know, without me knowing.. some people, pester me to tell dem.. some, just like that think that i am lazy lorhs.. dn care larhs.. got reasons behind jiu dui lerhs.. hais..
nothing is ever important .
1:01 PM
Monday, November 05, 2007
was forced to sleep at 1230 last night.. soon after i slept.. mum went to sleep too.. lols !! but, dad was away.. he went out, to meet his friends.. den morning i asked him.. he say he 3 den come bac.. and den morning we all 6+ wake up lerhs.. cause need to go visit grandma.. she about 0730 like tt will be pushed in lerhs mahs.. so need early go.. on the way there.. it was not pleasant.. alot of times, dad almost fell.. mayb cause this few days he is very tired and last night i think he only had 3 hours of sleep.. it was by luck, that i am now older.. and can take better care of myself lerhs.. and by luck that i could hold him on time, preventing him to fall.. cause, if he falls.. mayb today mum will b at mount elizabeth hospital, and i will b at singapore general hospital lerhs.. hahas !! den took taxi down.. dad was shocked that mum followed.. as mum yesterday said tt she dint want to go.. think he is happy bahs.. cause bored lehs.. wait there alone.. but, the previous 2 times ahma had operation.. 1st time is spine (abt 20yrs ago) , second time was colon there(about 5yrs ago), dad was there waiting for her alone.. i couldnt go, as the first one i was not born yet.. and second one i had school.. i wan to go, the reason was that i want to spend more time with him.. as i nv know when will something happen to him.. and, i worried, to let him go alone.. hahas.. den waited for a long time.. had breakfast there.. about 11+ den doctor come out.. about 3hrs of operation.. he said tt everything was ok.. heaved a sigh of relief.. but, dad was not ok.. he forgot to take medicine in the morning, and was having headache.. and his leg.. like anytime can fall like that.. very worried for him.. den waited awhile, for grandma to come out lorhs.. when saw her, she was like still unconsious.. after awhile, we went home.. cause we could see that dad was like very tired.. cab-ed bac.. as dad dint haf short change, we "shared" the fare.. hahas.. den come bac.. eat lorhs.. mayb ltr pei-in dad go out buy some stuffs.. tonite 3rd and 4th aunt coming.. hahas !!
i want to pei him, and take care of him more...
1:01 PM
was forced to sleep at 1230 last night.. soon after i slept.. mum went to sleep too.. lols !! but, dad was away.. he went out, to meet his friends.. den morning i asked him.. he say he 3 den come bac.. and den morning we all 6+ wake up lerhs.. cause need to go visit grandma.. she about 0730 like tt will be pushed in lerhs mahs.. so need early go.. on the way there.. it was not pleasant.. alot of times, dad almost fell.. mayb cause this few days he is very tired and last night i think he only had 3 hours of sleep.. it was by luck, that i am now older.. and can take better care of myself lerhs.. and by luck that i could hold him on time, preventing him to fall.. cause, if he falls.. mayb today mum will b at mount elizabeth hospital, and i will b at singapore general hospital lerhs.. hahas !! den took taxi down.. dad was shocked that mum followed.. as mum yesterday said tt she dint want to go.. think he is happy bahs.. cause bored lehs.. wait there alone.. but, the previous 2 times ahma had operation.. 1st time is spine (abt 20yrs ago) , second time was colon there(about 5yrs ago), dad was there waiting for her alone.. i couldnt go, as the first one i was not born yet.. and second one i had school.. i wan to go, the reason was that i want to spend more time with him.. as i nv know when will something happen to him.. and, i worried, to let him go alone.. hahas.. den waited for a long time.. had breakfast there.. about 11+ den doctor come out.. about 3hrs of operation.. he said tt everything was ok.. heaved a sigh of relief.. but, dad was not ok.. he forgot to take medicine in the morning, and was having headache.. and his leg.. like anytime can fall like that.. very worried for him.. den waited awhile, for grandma to come out lorhs.. when saw her, she was like still unconsious.. after awhile, we went home.. cause we could see that dad was like very tired.. cab-ed bac.. as dad dint haf short change, we "shared" the fare.. hahas.. den come bac.. eat lorhs.. mayb ltr pei-in dad go out buy some stuffs.. tonite 3rd and 4th aunt coming.. hahas !!
i want to pei him, and take care of him more...
she is ok
but he is not
nothing is ever important .
1:09 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
today, is the day, when she will b admitted to the hospital.. to get ready for tomorrow.. tomorrow, is the day, which she will be pushed into the operation theatre, for her operation.. i hope that nothing will crop up, and hence delays everything..
ltr following parents and grandma, to the hospital, to get admitted... i can see that she is worried about it.. for the pass few days.. her face is full of worries.. finally, tomorrow is coming.. after that, she will recover.. wont she ? lets nt put in too much hope.. if not, when it fails.. i will b devasted.. not only she is sick and worried now.. even him is sick too.. but, as he does not want ppl to worry, he keeps it to himself.. he himself, knows what will happen.. its a fact.. no one can run away from it.. but, the report is not out yet.. so, lets just hope.. hope that he is fine.. just hope and wait for miracles to happen.. miracles to come true..
anyways, found some group photos, taken quite some time ago.. shall post it up.. hehes..
show u all, hw much i have changed.. =//
first, our p5 and p6 class fotos..
5/1'05 . our first year together.. great friendships found
6/1'06 . its time to say goodbye .
frisbee team pictures
p6'06 team.. all from 6/1..
part of frisbee team'07.. some sec1 available
1/1'07 pictures
formal shot
fun shot 1 . having a crazy time .
fun shot 2 . friendship bonded . 1yr together
1:09 PM
today, is the day, when she will b admitted to the hospital.. to get ready for tomorrow.. tomorrow, is the day, which she will be pushed into the operation theatre, for her operation.. i hope that nothing will crop up, and hence delays everything..
ltr following parents and grandma, to the hospital, to get admitted... i can see that she is worried about it.. for the pass few days.. her face is full of worries.. finally, tomorrow is coming.. after that, she will recover.. wont she ? lets nt put in too much hope.. if not, when it fails.. i will b devasted.. not only she is sick and worried now.. even him is sick too.. but, as he does not want ppl to worry, he keeps it to himself.. he himself, knows what will happen.. its a fact.. no one can run away from it.. but, the report is not out yet.. so, lets just hope.. hope that he is fine.. just hope and wait for miracles to happen.. miracles to come true..
anyways, found some group photos, taken quite some time ago.. shall post it up.. hehes..
show u all, hw much i have changed.. =//
first, our p5 and p6 class fotos..
5/1'05 . our first year together.. great friendships found
6/1'06 . its time to say goodbye .
frisbee team pictures
p6'06 team.. all from 6/1..
part of frisbee team'07.. some sec1 available
1/1'07 pictures
formal shot
fun shot 1 . having a crazy time .
fun shot 2 . friendship bonded . 1yr together
nothing is ever important .
10:37 AM
Saturday, November 03, 2007
sians.. today woke up early early.. and slept again.. woke up, cause grandma spoke to mum too loud.. den i woke up.. hahs.. but as usual, soon after they left, i went back to sleep again.. recently like keep on sleep.. then keep on eat also.. hand and leg dere nv fat larhs.. but stomach dere like bigger lerhs.. hahas.. but i am still skinny towards my parents norhs.. but my mum call me dn eat so much.. ltr bcome very fat.. but my grandma keep on tell me, want to eat just eat.. if have thing for you to eat, its ok one.. funny larhs.. but must control.. =)) think ltr going to sleep again bahs.. just too too tired recently lerhs.. dnno why.. keep on rot at home.. hahas.. got larhs.. almost every afternoon like that go out, buy lunch.. hahhas.. mayb want to start exercising soon.. cause i think i weak lerhs.. nt that fit.. hahas.. i want to bcome fit fit.. den strong strong.. cause mayb i am mentally weak.. but, physically must b strong.. so that when PE or PT, i can survive and wont become a casualty.. heehs.. =))
10:37 AM
sians.. today woke up early early.. and slept again.. woke up, cause grandma spoke to mum too loud.. den i woke up.. hahs.. but as usual, soon after they left, i went back to sleep again.. recently like keep on sleep.. then keep on eat also.. hand and leg dere nv fat larhs.. but stomach dere like bigger lerhs.. hahas.. but i am still skinny towards my parents norhs.. but my mum call me dn eat so much.. ltr bcome very fat.. but my grandma keep on tell me, want to eat just eat.. if have thing for you to eat, its ok one.. funny larhs.. but must control.. =)) think ltr going to sleep again bahs.. just too too tired recently lerhs.. dnno why.. keep on rot at home.. hahas.. got larhs.. almost every afternoon like that go out, buy lunch.. hahhas.. mayb want to start exercising soon.. cause i think i weak lerhs.. nt that fit.. hahas.. i want to bcome fit fit.. den strong strong.. cause mayb i am mentally weak.. but, physically must b strong.. so that when PE or PT, i can survive and wont become a casualty.. heehs.. =))
working hard..
10moredays to the deadline
nothing is ever important .
1:49 PM
Friday, November 02, 2007
siansiansian... dnno why, suddenly feel frustrated.. feeling abit moody nowadays too.. dn want to like tt nehs.. dn want to dn smile.. cause ppl may be like dn dare talk or smile to me when they see me like tt lorhs.. grr.. den if alot of times like tt, they will b scared of me lorhs.. like if ppl see me serious alot of times, they will nt dare to joke with me.. hahas.. anyways, recently rather bored and mum is like trying to find a english tuition for me.. woots~~ ! at least something for me to do.. and, i have not even started my holiday homework yet.. nt motivated to do it larhs.. mayb wait until after 14th, where i will be abit free lorhs.. even though nw nt really buzy.. but dn feel like.. hahas.. have NP on 7th and 13th this month.. and at the end of december, i think got 2 or 3 trainings.. and i am prefabably do nt feel like going.. but cannot dn go.. cause dn wan let my NCOs down.. and got ppl say if i dn come, he will report to sec1 AO.. grr.. dnno he joking or not larhs.. but i knw if i dn go, ppl will b mad derhs.. cause i promised them to go mahs.. hahas.. anyways, recently mayb abit buzy, as grandma is here.. and if everything goes well, she will have an opt soon.. nt sure... lets hope for the best bahs.. and i have found out that i have not been posting much.. keep on got skip one.. last time i used to post one or more aday.. so, i should try to catch up bahs.. hahas..
1:49 PM
siansiansian... dnno why, suddenly feel frustrated.. feeling abit moody nowadays too.. dn want to like tt nehs.. dn want to dn smile.. cause ppl may be like dn dare talk or smile to me when they see me like tt lorhs.. grr.. den if alot of times like tt, they will b scared of me lorhs.. like if ppl see me serious alot of times, they will nt dare to joke with me.. hahas.. anyways, recently rather bored and mum is like trying to find a english tuition for me.. woots~~ ! at least something for me to do.. and, i have not even started my holiday homework yet.. nt motivated to do it larhs.. mayb wait until after 14th, where i will be abit free lorhs.. even though nw nt really buzy.. but dn feel like.. hahas.. have NP on 7th and 13th this month.. and at the end of december, i think got 2 or 3 trainings.. and i am prefabably do nt feel like going.. but cannot dn go.. cause dn wan let my NCOs down.. and got ppl say if i dn come, he will report to sec1 AO.. grr.. dnno he joking or not larhs.. but i knw if i dn go, ppl will b mad derhs.. cause i promised them to go mahs.. hahas.. anyways, recently mayb abit buzy, as grandma is here.. and if everything goes well, she will have an opt soon.. nt sure... lets hope for the best bahs.. and i have found out that i have not been posting much.. keep on got skip one.. last time i used to post one or more aday.. so, i should try to catch up bahs.. hahas..
nothing is ever important .
11:11 PM
grr.. nw muscle still cramp nehs.. walk like damn weird.. really like lao ahma.. next time must exercise more, so tt when i go back for frisbee, wont b like so jialat the next few days.. its is also important, when have PT in NP.. cause always will have pain everywhere derhs.. and it seriously sucks lorhs.. soso uncomfortable.. my leg like "cha tao" (wood) liaos.. nt flexible.. and walk if fast, damn pain.. slow, nt tt pain.. but, still pain.. grr.. hate this man.. hope can have chance to exercise more.. anyone want to accompany me go run around the stadium ? i dnno why.. i like nehs.. its nice.. =))) the ability to run around and sweat.. is very nice.. really.. and i always enjoy PE, and PT.. during PT, although they keep on sabo, and ask us to do alot of silly things, but.. its still fun and nice... they will surely laugh when they see us do it.. and it rocks to see someone laugh from the true heart, and it hurts to see someone laugh which is unreal.. it will also make ppl worried derhs.. sigh..
11:11 PM
grr.. nw muscle still cramp nehs.. walk like damn weird.. really like lao ahma.. next time must exercise more, so tt when i go back for frisbee, wont b like so jialat the next few days.. its is also important, when have PT in NP.. cause always will have pain everywhere derhs.. and it seriously sucks lorhs.. soso uncomfortable.. my leg like "cha tao" (wood) liaos.. nt flexible.. and walk if fast, damn pain.. slow, nt tt pain.. but, still pain.. grr.. hate this man.. hope can have chance to exercise more.. anyone want to accompany me go run around the stadium ? i dnno why.. i like nehs.. its nice.. =))) the ability to run around and sweat.. is very nice.. really.. and i always enjoy PE, and PT.. during PT, although they keep on sabo, and ask us to do alot of silly things, but.. its still fun and nice... they will surely laugh when they see us do it.. and it rocks to see someone laugh from the true heart, and it hurts to see someone laugh which is unreal.. it will also make ppl worried derhs.. sigh..
nothing is ever important .
8:36 AM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
morning woke up once at 6, den slept again.. last nite sibeh early sleep lerhs.. cause ahma tired.. den she sleep.. i see her sleep, den dn wan use comp.. ltr i use comp, she cant sleep.. so i tink i 11 sleep lerhs.. ehehs.. also no one to chat with, so sleep lorhs.. ltr i late sleep, mum scold agn.. dn like nahs.. =)) den when i woke up, parents and ahma went to see doctor lerhs.. i tink saturday go again.. den sunday jiu go there stay lerhs.. hope that she can early come out.. =)) den they about 10 come bac lerhs.. so fast sia today.. tot will b long.. hahas !! den about 11 i go and prepare some stuffs norhs.. 1130 left house, to blk 50+ dere, buy some stuffs, cause today leg there cramp mahs.. yesterday frisbee play until too jialat, and too long nv exercise lerhs.. =// so i walk slow slow.. about 12 actually want to go meet someone den she say she 1 den release.. den called mum tell her tt i nt so fast go bac, cause fren nt meetin me so early... when i put down phone, she msg me again say she release liaos.. den go and wait for her norhs.. though wait for sometime larhs.. but den its ok.. =)) is i want to meet her derhs, hw can make her wait for me nehs ? nt nice mahs.. den cause dn wan so fast go eat lunch, cause if fast finish, confirm need to go home derhs.. so told her i pei her walk home.. she actually is say no need, cause she say far.. but i insisted, and she say ok lorhs.. on the way, something bad happened.. dn wan to elaborate.. hahas.. after pei-ed her walk until her hse dere, i went for lunch lorhs.. abit hungry... btw, i nt lesbian ar.. she is my good fren.. =// though noe her less than 7mths, but with her abit close.. nt too sure bahs.. den went home lorhs.. sians.. den pei ahma until nw.. dnno wad to do next.. boring
how i wish all the pain tt u suffered is transferred to me.. cause u are so old lerhs.. cant take pain.. but i am different.. i am still young, and can tahan more pain.. but, its impossible.. although i keep on encourage u.. but den i myself also am worried.. i know that u are worried tt after that operation, mayb u may nt b able to walk.. but, lets try... hope that she wont b so "gek xim" and den will b happy.. i wish her all the best..
8:36 AM
morning woke up once at 6, den slept again.. last nite sibeh early sleep lerhs.. cause ahma tired.. den she sleep.. i see her sleep, den dn wan use comp.. ltr i use comp, she cant sleep.. so i tink i 11 sleep lerhs.. ehehs.. also no one to chat with, so sleep lorhs.. ltr i late sleep, mum scold agn.. dn like nahs.. =)) den when i woke up, parents and ahma went to see doctor lerhs.. i tink saturday go again.. den sunday jiu go there stay lerhs.. hope that she can early come out.. =)) den they about 10 come bac lerhs.. so fast sia today.. tot will b long.. hahas !! den about 11 i go and prepare some stuffs norhs.. 1130 left house, to blk 50+ dere, buy some stuffs, cause today leg there cramp mahs.. yesterday frisbee play until too jialat, and too long nv exercise lerhs.. =// so i walk slow slow.. about 12 actually want to go meet someone den she say she 1 den release.. den called mum tell her tt i nt so fast go bac, cause fren nt meetin me so early... when i put down phone, she msg me again say she release liaos.. den go and wait for her norhs.. though wait for sometime larhs.. but den its ok.. =)) is i want to meet her derhs, hw can make her wait for me nehs ? nt nice mahs.. den cause dn wan so fast go eat lunch, cause if fast finish, confirm need to go home derhs.. so told her i pei her walk home.. she actually is say no need, cause she say far.. but i insisted, and she say ok lorhs.. on the way, something bad happened.. dn wan to elaborate.. hahas.. after pei-ed her walk until her hse dere, i went for lunch lorhs.. abit hungry... btw, i nt lesbian ar.. she is my good fren.. =// though noe her less than 7mths, but with her abit close.. nt too sure bahs.. den went home lorhs.. sians.. den pei ahma until nw.. dnno wad to do next.. boring
how i wish all the pain tt u suffered is transferred to me.. cause u are so old lerhs.. cant take pain.. but i am different.. i am still young, and can tahan more pain.. but, its impossible.. although i keep on encourage u.. but den i myself also am worried.. i know that u are worried tt after that operation, mayb u may nt b able to walk.. but, lets try... hope that she wont b so "gek xim" and den will b happy.. i wish her all the best..
nothing is ever important .
2:50 PM
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