hmm.. today, bo late.. wee ~ tot will late sia.. cus took '222' .. in e end, stil gt time go 3C , find gary they all to take bac shirly de fone.. but den he nv return.. in e end, around after flag raising, he come up return.. lols.. den had science.. almost slept i guess.. den we did some groupwork, but i nv rly go do... lols.. den had history.. suddenly headache sia.. wth luhhs.. 35 min passedd quite fast. XDD so happy.. maths was torturous ? lols.. had short quiz, and i had headache u knw.. multiplication and division of algebra.. want my life sia.. recess, ate my that lolly.. lols.. geog, ms nah nv come, but got gif us things to do.. i fas fas do finish, jiu play already.. hehehehe.. english, ms tan oso nv come.. bt also gt thing do.. summary.. sians.. nvm.. fas fas finished and did my homeworks.. abit emo emo bahhs.. lols.. still had headache.. lols.. chinese, was doing corrections ? lols.. so many .. write until my hand, wan to break liaos.. den she gif one paper.. homework derhhs.. ltr den do.. xP den after that.. mama called.. she say she n papa nt at home, call me go buy lunch and eat myself.. dnno whr they go.. lols.. went to buy, and came bac.. so tired okays.. e bag sooo heavy, den walked around 1 bus stop bac. wif my food.. den reach home, ate n nw blog.. shall go out and top-up my ez-link soon.. and come bac, to CHIONG my studies.. alot of tests on wednesday.. bo bian.. somemore tmr got tuition.. english tuition this month got extra.. tuesday and sunday.. can die luhhs.. bo bian bo bian.. MYE coming liaos.. chiong finish this month, den holidays can play until shuang.. XDD
tt gir :
wei.. i knw ur ahma sic sic, u sad sad.. bt u mus knw tt.. aft tt opt, she wil rec.. e mos only awhile in wheelchair.. den can walk agn.. i undst hw u feel .. cus my ahma las yr oso cus of tis, den opt.. tt time i oso sad sad.. i knw wan call u happy happy, is very very hard.. bt jus try ur bes.. rmb wad i told u rite ? tink of it when u see obstacles.. it will help.. CHEERS !
y like tis ehhs ? all sad sad, if nt jiu sic sic.. like so fun sia.. bt its nt ! its nt ! it hurts to see ppl sad sad, sic sic, n frustrated.. hais. so many things happening recently.. hw to solv nehhs ? i wanna help myself.. i wanna help everyone.. can someone help me help dem ? please.
whenever i am sad sad, i will tink of cutting.. i wil always b tempted to cut, bt i nv.. e feelin of nt able to cut, sucks.. bt y i nv cut ehs ? cus i knw tt my happiness, is exchanged for others worries.. my friends dun like to see me cut.. but, i am still tempted !! i really am ! e feeling sucks okays.. want to cut, but nv.. alot of times already.. argh !
nothing is ever important .
2:34 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
wahhs. last nite i tink my laobu wake me up, cus my comp i on song so loud.. lols.. forget wad time.. den drowsy drowsy, so anyhw anyhw press.. dnno press wad sia.. xPP den wake up.. 6.30 , wan off comp derhhs.. den saw something, so go read norhhs. den laobu laopeh wake up.. so qiao.. den tio scolding i guess.. cus i supposed to slp mahhs.. den nvm.. go slp back.. 7.30 woke up again.. super super tired.. bathed and went out for brkfast.. soso long no go out eat breakfast wif laopeh laobu liaos.. xDD actually plan dnwan go one. but, sinc laopeh wan.. jus go norhhs.. XP den went tuition.. e cher super good.. "tekan" us until jialat jialat.. we sec2, gif us sec3 work.. stupid sia.. all i anyhw do.. still can get 2 out of 7 correc.. xP den came home norhhs.. on e bus, dnno y.. like wan faint wan faint like tt.. den came home.. nw blogg. xP pro rite ? wan faint stil can blog.. xPP tired tired.. anyw, jus nw view valerie de friendster.. saw e picture we took e other time.. sure ugly.. my hair.. shall post n let u all laugh laugh. xP
ugly rite ? my hair.. xPP
monkey eat banana ? XP
tt time super bushuang.. den they wan take i bushuang.. in e end, bcome like.. xPPP
tt girl :
can u dun sad sad ? i know hard hard nahhs... jus try ur best.. try n try n try.. i believe that u can.. mus haf confidence in urself kays ? jiayous ! i will always b behind u , supporting u, in wadever u do.. wan emo, find me.. wan cry, find me.. wan "fa xie" oso find me.. i very good to use one u knw.. any service i oso provide one.. (dun tink wrong) JIAYOU JIAYOU ! my msg wun burst one.. can msg me anytime, anyday.. xD
read something jus nw n found it meaningful.. its true u knw.. nth will turn for e better, if u keep frowning and sad sad over it.. done liaos jiu sua lerhhs.. jus try ur best n try to change.. if fail this time, try another time.. fail again, jus try again.. try n try n try n try.. sure one day will get it rite derhhs.. if tired of trying, jus res awhile.. cus "休息是为了要走更长远的路" (rest is to walk a longer road) i admire e person's way of solving problems.. no matter hw much problems she haf, she oso trt it like nothing.. evn if she treats it like something, she oso will try to nt shw it.. evn when she super tired super stress, she also will help people wif their worries, their problem.. she is my role model.. i hope that she will read this.. xD
i can still recall last year, gt one period i keep on sian sian .. den bo smile bo smile.. cus of some problems.. i oso forget wad liaos.. i evn gave up halfway.. but, after that i found out that no point derhs mahhs.. sad also one day pass like that.. happy oso one day pass like that.. so mus happy happy pass mahhs.. xDD though in life will meet tio obstacles larhhs.. but can nv gif up.. cus only u can help urself.. no one else can lerhhs.. u sad sad, is nt ppl cause to u one.. is u cause it urself.. n ur frens can only help u abit.. e most part is urself.. like example me.. slashing.. even if my friends take away all my penknife.. everyday chec on me, i still can slash.. but, if i tell myself that i dnwan slash, wif a penknife in my pencilcase, i still can dun slash one.. try n try.. sure will work..
i wanted to give up on some stuffs yesterday..
but, something i read today, inspired me to try again :
stop vulgarities (i knw i can)
dun slash (i am doing well)
study (i did it ytd, will continue)
so to all those reading this.. since i can continue to try n keep my smiles on my face, u guys can too ! XDD i hope everyone wil b like me, always happy happy. xDDDDDDDD
tution.. almos slept nahhs. XP
lil white ridin hood, emo-in..
tq kimberly GANLAOBU ! XDD
e toy inside kimberly GANLAOBU buy de lolly.. so hard to make okays.. x(
e one tt i bought.. easier abit. xDD
laobu buy for me one.. easiest !! XDDD
2:34 PM
wahhs. last nite i tink my laobu wake me up, cus my comp i on song so loud.. lols.. forget wad time.. den drowsy drowsy, so anyhw anyhw press.. dnno press wad sia.. xPP den wake up.. 6.30 , wan off comp derhhs.. den saw something, so go read norhhs. den laobu laopeh wake up.. so qiao.. den tio scolding i guess.. cus i supposed to slp mahhs.. den nvm.. go slp back.. 7.30 woke up again.. super super tired.. bathed and went out for brkfast.. soso long no go out eat breakfast wif laopeh laobu liaos.. xDD actually plan dnwan go one. but, sinc laopeh wan.. jus go norhhs.. XP den went tuition.. e cher super good.. "tekan" us until jialat jialat.. we sec2, gif us sec3 work.. stupid sia.. all i anyhw do.. still can get 2 out of 7 correc.. xP den came home norhhs.. on e bus, dnno y.. like wan faint wan faint like tt.. den came home.. nw blogg. xP pro rite ? wan faint stil can blog.. xPP tired tired.. anyw, jus nw view valerie de friendster.. saw e picture we took e other time.. sure ugly.. my hair.. shall post n let u all laugh laugh. xP
ugly rite ? my hair.. xPPand recently gt ppl kip on take my pics.. so shall post dem too ! XD
monkey eat banana ? XP 
tt time super bushuang.. den they wan take i bushuang.. in e end, bcome like.. xPPPtt girl :
can u dun sad sad ? i know hard hard nahhs... jus try ur best.. try n try n try.. i believe that u can.. mus haf confidence in urself kays ? jiayous ! i will always b behind u , supporting u, in wadever u do.. wan emo, find me.. wan cry, find me.. wan "fa xie" oso find me.. i very good to use one u knw.. any service i oso provide one.. (dun tink wrong) JIAYOU JIAYOU ! my msg wun burst one.. can msg me anytime, anyday.. xD
read something jus nw n found it meaningful.. its true u knw.. nth will turn for e better, if u keep frowning and sad sad over it.. done liaos jiu sua lerhhs.. jus try ur best n try to change.. if fail this time, try another time.. fail again, jus try again.. try n try n try n try.. sure one day will get it rite derhhs.. if tired of trying, jus res awhile.. cus "休息是为了要走更长远的路" (rest is to walk a longer road) i admire e person's way of solving problems.. no matter hw much problems she haf, she oso trt it like nothing.. evn if she treats it like something, she oso will try to nt shw it.. evn when she super tired super stress, she also will help people wif their worries, their problem.. she is my role model.. i hope that she will read this.. xD
i can still recall last year, gt one period i keep on sian sian .. den bo smile bo smile.. cus of some problems.. i oso forget wad liaos.. i evn gave up halfway.. but, after that i found out that no point derhs mahhs.. sad also one day pass like that.. happy oso one day pass like that.. so mus happy happy pass mahhs.. xDD though in life will meet tio obstacles larhhs.. but can nv gif up.. cus only u can help urself.. no one else can lerhhs.. u sad sad, is nt ppl cause to u one.. is u cause it urself.. n ur frens can only help u abit.. e most part is urself.. like example me.. slashing.. even if my friends take away all my penknife.. everyday chec on me, i still can slash.. but, if i tell myself that i dnwan slash, wif a penknife in my pencilcase, i still can dun slash one.. try n try.. sure will work..
i wanted to give up on some stuffs yesterday..
but, something i read today, inspired me to try again :
stop vulgarities (i knw i can)
dun slash (i am doing well)
study (i did it ytd, will continue)
so to all those reading this.. since i can continue to try n keep my smiles on my face, u guys can too ! XDD i hope everyone wil b like me, always happy happy. xDDDDDDDD
--edit--
jus nw, went long john wif kimberly GANLAOBU , to study.. n she got me lolly, which inside gt toy tt nid fix urself one.. like las time tt "egg" derhs kinder bueno for kids one.. she knw me so well.. hehe.. knw tt i sure like mahhs.. i so xiao hai zi.. jeannette LAOBU should know bahhs. xD our burger king trip.. lols.. den my laobu came long john find me.. n we went to shop-n-save to buy stuffs.. wee ~ i pester my laobu buy another tt got toy de lolly gimme.. XDD n b4 we go shop-n-save, i went to buy one myself.. so, i gt 3 toys lerhhs ! XD den went n got my earpiece.. wee ~ laopeh de money.. so good lorhhs.. xDD den laobu go home first.. i pei kimberly GANLAOBU go buy her stuffs, n i went home.. used comp, fixed my toys n nw edit e post. XDD
tution.. almos slept nahhs. XP
lil white ridin hood, emo-in..
tq kimberly GANLAOBU ! XDD
e toy inside kimberly GANLAOBU buy de lolly.. so hard to make okays.. x(
e one tt i bought.. easier abit. xDD
laobu buy for me one.. easiest !! XDDD
nothing is ever important .
11:53 AM
Saturday, March 29, 2008
11:53 AM
woo ~ last nite i guess i slept soundly.. and super nice.. shiok ~ though i guess same same is 8 hrs nia.. but den, dnno y last night sleep until so shiok.. lols.. den first thing i did , was to do my tuition homework lerhhs.. OM ! wads wrong with me today ? lols.. den did maths homework.. but, last few questions.. too pekcek to do liaos.. dnno y.. lols.. den went down to buy papers, and take papa buy de breakfast.. he going out mahhs.. so go down shun bian take up.. lols.. ate and used comp awhile.. AWHILE only okays.. around 15 - 30 mins.. n read my book for around 15 mins.. den i slept.. XPP 1hr ! XDD so shuang agn.. dnno y.. today kip on wan slp wan slp.. lols.. den used comp.. again another awhile.. and read book.. havn read abit nia.. laobu call me go buy lunch.. den i chengji, go use e money after buying, to go buy lolly.. and buy drink.. lols.. i recently so guai.. n no one reward me.. so i reward myself mahhs.. no wrong wad.. lols.. den came home.. ate.. n cabal-ed awhile.. around 1 hr bahhs.. xPP den suddenly remember nid to study for geog. thanx shirly ganlaopeh for remindin me.. xPP i guess i shall stop chiong-ing cabal.. n start to study liaos bahhs. if nt ltr too late liaos.. x(
my "quan jia fu" .. gan laopeh, gan laobu.. and gan sister? lols.. i look weird..
my "quan jia fu" .. gan laopeh, gan laobu.. and gan sister? lols.. i look weird.. my sadness ; unseen .
nothing is ever important .
3:17 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008
wahhs.. today hor.. almost was late sehh.. but nv.. lols.. zhen late again norhhs.. she hor.. if nt jiu nv late.. if nt jiu kip on late.. lols.. no offence arx zhen.. had IPW.. celebrated e march and april babies today.. nt bad uhhs.. but.. i scolded vulgarities jus rite at tis period.. oo.. hw nice isit ? ytd finally speak so little den today first period jiu scold.. pro man.. den after that.. english.. ms tan nv come.. tot can go out walk walk norhhs.. hu knw.. havn walk.. tio retain by ppl liaos.. wth luhhs.. so long bo go walk.. den wan go walk, tio ppl "scold".. stupid luhhs.. den i sian sian, sit dere do nth.. e cher wan come guailan guailan.. since she so good, i jus go do history gif her see norhhs.. cus i good mahhs.. den do hor.. halfway.. gt ppl bo do anything den listen song.. den talk so loud.. she bo scold.. so damn nt happy luhhs.. bt nvm larhhs.. she pak jiao .. nt my daiji.. so in e end, i could haf spent 2periods outside, wandering around.. and playing.. evn though i knw mayb will tio caught.. but i nv.. i stayed in class.. dnno do wad shit.. wth.. science. dint do much luhhs.. slack n slack.. recess ate abit of stuffs and walked around bahhs ? lols.. forgot.. den had literature.. sian.. dnno whr my tt book go.. den aft tt .. go blk 50+ dere buy lunch.. den went to buy 5 lolly .. half-way.. saw ms.pang n den went to her tt center dere eat.. aft tt went home.. take stuffs nia went bac school for e course liaos.. around 2 reach school bahhs.. wait for valerie they all... think they go 85 dere bahhs.. den we changed into PT.. n around 2.30 .. e course started.. sian luhhs.. teach shooting.. den we gt 2 tries.. each try was 16 times... first try, i got 6 one.. and second i got 5 times.. sians sia.. lucky nt marksmen.. if marksmen.. i will make sure i shoot other ppls one lorhhs.. to b funny mahhs. XD den around 5.50 lik tt.. e thing end.. went straight to canteen for debrief, and after that.. bought maggie.. n xueyi .. nt i dao larhhs.. hungry, so bo mood tok.. undst ? lols.. den gave all my 5 lolly away.. sorry to those whom dint get it.. lols.. nt enuff mahhs.. den ate my maggie.. found out that one wasnt enuff, and bought another one.. lols.. so tt means, i ate 2cups.. wonderful rite ? lols.. den after that changed from my PT to school uniform.. e uniform gt smell sia.. so smelly .. lols.. den was wif shirly they all, at e porch dere waiting for parents n crapping.. n saw one aunty, whom i thought was kimberly's mum.. n said "hi" .. but , it wasnt .. so laokui luhhs. den aft tt saw nellie's dad.. den said "hi" oso.. he tio shock.. lols.. den papa n mama come liaos.. nv pei dem go up halll, cus papa say no need.. call me pei fren.. lols. den aft tt.. we all went to hall, and they say nid sit wif parents.. ok luhhs.. sat wif parents.. n mdm hazwah was like.. infront of us ? lols.. dad was coughin at e start.. den he went out to e corridor dere stand.. lols.. ke lian him.. den after that, went to eat dinner.. ate till super full, and saw Shuin.. lols.. he ate dere too.. tis shws tt its nice. XD den came home.. and rested.. bathed.. n nw use comp.. sians.. x(
today sucked big time..
3:17 PM
wahhs.. today hor.. almost was late sehh.. but nv.. lols.. zhen late again norhhs.. she hor.. if nt jiu nv late.. if nt jiu kip on late.. lols.. no offence arx zhen.. had IPW.. celebrated e march and april babies today.. nt bad uhhs.. but.. i scolded vulgarities jus rite at tis period.. oo.. hw nice isit ? ytd finally speak so little den today first period jiu scold.. pro man.. den after that.. english.. ms tan nv come.. tot can go out walk walk norhhs.. hu knw.. havn walk.. tio retain by ppl liaos.. wth luhhs.. so long bo go walk.. den wan go walk, tio ppl "scold".. stupid luhhs.. den i sian sian, sit dere do nth.. e cher wan come guailan guailan.. since she so good, i jus go do history gif her see norhhs.. cus i good mahhs.. den do hor.. halfway.. gt ppl bo do anything den listen song.. den talk so loud.. she bo scold.. so damn nt happy luhhs.. bt nvm larhhs.. she pak jiao .. nt my daiji.. so in e end, i could haf spent 2periods outside, wandering around.. and playing.. evn though i knw mayb will tio caught.. but i nv.. i stayed in class.. dnno do wad shit.. wth.. science. dint do much luhhs.. slack n slack.. recess ate abit of stuffs and walked around bahhs ? lols.. forgot.. den had literature.. sian.. dnno whr my tt book go.. den aft tt .. go blk 50+ dere buy lunch.. den went to buy 5 lolly .. half-way.. saw ms.pang n den went to her tt center dere eat.. aft tt went home.. take stuffs nia went bac school for e course liaos.. around 2 reach school bahhs.. wait for valerie they all... think they go 85 dere bahhs.. den we changed into PT.. n around 2.30 .. e course started.. sian luhhs.. teach shooting.. den we gt 2 tries.. each try was 16 times... first try, i got 6 one.. and second i got 5 times.. sians sia.. lucky nt marksmen.. if marksmen.. i will make sure i shoot other ppls one lorhhs.. to b funny mahhs. XD den around 5.50 lik tt.. e thing end.. went straight to canteen for debrief, and after that.. bought maggie.. n xueyi .. nt i dao larhhs.. hungry, so bo mood tok.. undst ? lols.. den gave all my 5 lolly away.. sorry to those whom dint get it.. lols.. nt enuff mahhs.. den ate my maggie.. found out that one wasnt enuff, and bought another one.. lols.. so tt means, i ate 2cups.. wonderful rite ? lols.. den after that changed from my PT to school uniform.. e uniform gt smell sia.. so smelly .. lols.. den was wif shirly they all, at e porch dere waiting for parents n crapping.. n saw one aunty, whom i thought was kimberly's mum.. n said "hi" .. but , it wasnt .. so laokui luhhs. den aft tt saw nellie's dad.. den said "hi" oso.. he tio shock.. lols.. den papa n mama come liaos.. nv pei dem go up halll, cus papa say no need.. call me pei fren.. lols. den aft tt.. we all went to hall, and they say nid sit wif parents.. ok luhhs.. sat wif parents.. n mdm hazwah was like.. infront of us ? lols.. dad was coughin at e start.. den he went out to e corridor dere stand.. lols.. ke lian him.. den after that, went to eat dinner.. ate till super full, and saw Shuin.. lols.. he ate dere too.. tis shws tt its nice. XD den came home.. and rested.. bathed.. n nw use comp.. sians.. x(
today sucked big time..
nothing is ever important .
10:29 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
wahhs.. today buey pai ehhs.. nv late.. xDD somemore early lorhhs.. and found out that.. if i see that "someone" when i go bus stop in e morning, it means that i wun be early.. cus tt person always late one, i guess.. lols.. den had flag raising.. zhen's late today.. first time in e year ? lols.. first period was maths.. got back result. full marks yea ? abit shock lorhhs.. cus, dint expect mahs.. lols.. den science.. was okays.. i guess was full of calculations.. boring ~ den had PE.. dint attend, cus nt feeling well bahhs.. whole class 11 ppl no PE, and was scolded by blablabla.. wth luhhs.. nv scold vulgar.. instead was like toot toot toot all e way.. lols.. though today gt scold larhhs. but gt lesser okays.. XDD *proud* recss, ate norhhs.. den aft that had chinese.. compo writing today, and wrote crap.. lols.. den english, cher wasnt here.. and no relief teacher.. if i know that no relief teacher, i would haf gone to e toilet.. but i dint know !! den had assembly.. boring yea.. and after that had some stuffs.. den saw some of campcraft girls, and went over of cause.. XDD den walk back to hall again.. and went to blk 50+ dere eat lunch and to buy some stuffs.. now super broke luhhs.. no money alr.. XP den came home.. told mum about yesterday's test.. and asked her to guess e result.. e conver was like this :
me : mi .. ytd maths common test ..
mum : hmm..
me : den today get result liaos..
mum : yea lorhs.. den nv see u study...
me : gt 3 ppl fail lehhs..
mum : oo.. u rite ?
me : e max mark is 20..
mum : hmm..
me : u guess how much i score ..
mum : hmm.. 12 ?
me : wahhs.. u so clever.. hw u knw arX?
mum : yea lorhhs..
me : orhhs. *start to take out paper*
mum : *scold scold scold*
me : scold lorhhs.. scold scold.. xDD *still taking paper*
mum : *still scolding*
me : nahh.. e paper *gif her paper*
mum : wahhs ! *smiling*
me : scold lehhs.. scold lehhs.. XPP
wahhs.. she so funny.. xP den nw come blog.. ltr mus study liaos.. science.. sians..
10:29 PM
wahhs.. today buey pai ehhs.. nv late.. xDD somemore early lorhhs.. and found out that.. if i see that "someone" when i go bus stop in e morning, it means that i wun be early.. cus tt person always late one, i guess.. lols.. den had flag raising.. zhen's late today.. first time in e year ? lols.. first period was maths.. got back result. full marks yea ? abit shock lorhhs.. cus, dint expect mahs.. lols.. den science.. was okays.. i guess was full of calculations.. boring ~ den had PE.. dint attend, cus nt feeling well bahhs.. whole class 11 ppl no PE, and was scolded by blablabla.. wth luhhs.. nv scold vulgar.. instead was like toot toot toot all e way.. lols.. though today gt scold larhhs. but gt lesser okays.. XDD *proud* recss, ate norhhs.. den aft that had chinese.. compo writing today, and wrote crap.. lols.. den english, cher wasnt here.. and no relief teacher.. if i know that no relief teacher, i would haf gone to e toilet.. but i dint know !! den had assembly.. boring yea.. and after that had some stuffs.. den saw some of campcraft girls, and went over of cause.. XDD den walk back to hall again.. and went to blk 50+ dere eat lunch and to buy some stuffs.. now super broke luhhs.. no money alr.. XP den came home.. told mum about yesterday's test.. and asked her to guess e result.. e conver was like this :
me : mi .. ytd maths common test ..
mum : hmm..
me : den today get result liaos..
mum : yea lorhs.. den nv see u study...
me : gt 3 ppl fail lehhs..
mum : oo.. u rite ?
me : e max mark is 20..
mum : hmm..
me : u guess how much i score ..
mum : hmm.. 12 ?
me : wahhs.. u so clever.. hw u knw arX?
mum : yea lorhhs..
me : orhhs. *start to take out paper*
mum : *scold scold scold*
me : scold lorhhs.. scold scold.. xDD *still taking paper*
mum : *still scolding*
me : nahh.. e paper *gif her paper*
mum : wahhs ! *smiling*
me : scold lehhs.. scold lehhs.. XPP
wahhs.. she so funny.. xP den nw come blog.. ltr mus study liaos.. science.. sians..
nothing is ever important .
3:36 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
wahhs.. tell u arx.. today super funny.. reach e school and was like marching music ended.. and dint reach parade square in time.. bt, i wasnt e only one.. so, i guess its alright ? lols. reached e parade square and mdm hazwah spoke to me. e conver was like this :
me : *walked to parade square*
cher : uhh.. y u late ?
me : huh ? cher.. i nv late okays.. is i reach on time .
cher : okays.. den y u reach on time ?
me : errr...
cher : kay. nvm ..
me : orhs *sit down*
wahhs.. super funny sia.. xP den had common test.. quite alrite i guess. lols.. DnT, was another slack week.. xPP tts wad juliana is good at norhhs.. history.. slack slack lorhhs.. cus super tired.. last nite nv sleep well.. lols.. recess, ate !! super super super super hungry luhhs !! havn recess, and was like stomach grumblin ? den had geog.. slept in class, and wasnt caught.. woots ~~ ! den had CL, and agn.. nth much was done.. lawls.. art.. almost wan sleep lorhhs.. so tired.. xPP den aft school.. was at canteen for awhile.. den was all around e school.. tot something was going to happen, and dnno hw happy.. but nv.. sians xP den had NP.. was super pissed norhhs.. e speech day thing.. waste time plus energy.. so, i opt-ed out.. XDD weee ~~ scolded *toot toot toot* , but lucky no one hear.. lols.. super tired norhhs.. came home, and ate.. unpacked everything and den nw blog.. lols..
laopeh :
i rly rly miss u norhhs.. gt see u larhhs.. but u sleeping.. den come bac, u go oversea again.. hais.. but, tmr u coming bac again liaos. so oso nt bad ? xDD hope u come bac fast fast.. cus i rly rly rly rly rly miss u loads ! XD u are my dearest !
3:36 PM
wahhs.. tell u arx.. today super funny.. reach e school and was like marching music ended.. and dint reach parade square in time.. bt, i wasnt e only one.. so, i guess its alright ? lols. reached e parade square and mdm hazwah spoke to me. e conver was like this :
me : *walked to parade square*
cher : uhh.. y u late ?
me : huh ? cher.. i nv late okays.. is i reach on time .
cher : okays.. den y u reach on time ?
me : errr...
cher : kay. nvm ..
me : orhs *sit down*
wahhs.. super funny sia.. xP den had common test.. quite alrite i guess. lols.. DnT, was another slack week.. xPP tts wad juliana is good at norhhs.. history.. slack slack lorhhs.. cus super tired.. last nite nv sleep well.. lols.. recess, ate !! super super super super hungry luhhs !! havn recess, and was like stomach grumblin ? den had geog.. slept in class, and wasnt caught.. woots ~~ ! den had CL, and agn.. nth much was done.. lawls.. art.. almost wan sleep lorhhs.. so tired.. xPP den aft school.. was at canteen for awhile.. den was all around e school.. tot something was going to happen, and dnno hw happy.. but nv.. sians xP den had NP.. was super pissed norhhs.. e speech day thing.. waste time plus energy.. so, i opt-ed out.. XDD weee ~~ scolded *toot toot toot* , but lucky no one hear.. lols.. super tired norhhs.. came home, and ate.. unpacked everything and den nw blog.. lols..
laopeh :
i rly rly miss u norhhs.. gt see u larhhs.. but u sleeping.. den come bac, u go oversea again.. hais.. but, tmr u coming bac again liaos. so oso nt bad ? xDD hope u come bac fast fast.. cus i rly rly rly rly rly miss u loads ! XD u are my dearest !
nothing is ever important .
8:24 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
kays.. tis shall b my update kays ? e previous post.. can ignore bahhs.. cus super tired and sian at tt point of time .. lols.. las nite cannt slp sia.. lie on e bed frm 10 to 11.30 den slp.. wth luhhs.. so tired sia today morning wake up.. mum woke me up and i went to sleep in e toilet.. cool rite ? she was shoutin and i guess she knocked on e door ? she know i always sleep in e toilet.. cause, too tired mahhs.. lols.. den went school .. mama say i later today ehhs !! its a hell no lorhhs.. yesterday was worst worst kays. xDD so proud of myself..lols.. today managed to go up and put my bag, cause aparently, i am earlier today.. lawls.. first period was english.. and ms tan was late ? some discipline case luhhs.. lols.. science was so-so .. chinese was a total crap.. think she since last time, haf been repeating e same old crap.. lols.. but i nv tio any of her crap.. cause, i am so guai and hands in all that she gives me okays.. XDD recess, ate luhhs.. so damn sian.. den had maths.. almost dozed off.. apparently i was tired ? lols.. art .. was slack slack slack.. i hate english calligraphy.. nonetheless, i hate e fact tt, i am a left handed.. wth luhhs.. den lunch. nv eat.. cus lazy. and no money liaos.. super broke larhhs.. but at least, i cleared alot of my things.. xDD who call me wan promise.. stupid.. den e speech and drama thingy.. sucked hell lorhhs.. wasnt in any mood !! cus of SOMEONE ! lols. xDD nvm.. den went to take '222'. cus bored, den go walk here walk dere.. mood was like super high high.. dnno y oso.. ki siao liaos. xPP reached home around 4.15 bahhs.. full of sweat, cus walked super far. lols.. den came home.. awhile nia go down buy things and den come up, study abit.. and nw use comp and blogg.. xPP
8:24 PM
kays.. tis shall b my update kays ? e previous post.. can ignore bahhs.. cus super tired and sian at tt point of time .. lols.. las nite cannt slp sia.. lie on e bed frm 10 to 11.30 den slp.. wth luhhs.. so tired sia today morning wake up.. mum woke me up and i went to sleep in e toilet.. cool rite ? she was shoutin and i guess she knocked on e door ? she know i always sleep in e toilet.. cause, too tired mahhs.. lols.. den went school .. mama say i later today ehhs !! its a hell no lorhhs.. yesterday was worst worst kays. xDD so proud of myself..lols.. today managed to go up and put my bag, cause aparently, i am earlier today.. lawls.. first period was english.. and ms tan was late ? some discipline case luhhs.. lols.. science was so-so .. chinese was a total crap.. think she since last time, haf been repeating e same old crap.. lols.. but i nv tio any of her crap.. cause, i am so guai and hands in all that she gives me okays.. XDD recess, ate luhhs.. so damn sian.. den had maths.. almost dozed off.. apparently i was tired ? lols.. art .. was slack slack slack.. i hate english calligraphy.. nonetheless, i hate e fact tt, i am a left handed.. wth luhhs.. den lunch. nv eat.. cus lazy. and no money liaos.. super broke larhhs.. but at least, i cleared alot of my things.. xDD who call me wan promise.. stupid.. den e speech and drama thingy.. sucked hell lorhhs.. wasnt in any mood !! cus of SOMEONE ! lols. xDD nvm.. den went to take '222'. cus bored, den go walk here walk dere.. mood was like super high high.. dnno y oso.. ki siao liaos. xPP reached home around 4.15 bahhs.. full of sweat, cus walked super far. lols.. den came home.. awhile nia go down buy things and den come up, study abit.. and nw use comp and blogg.. xPP
nothing is ever important .
5:47 PM
nth much to say today norhhs.. jus wanna say something to some people :
zhaborh :
i undstand.. ur dad do this to you.. of cus wun happy.. but, i only wanna u try ur best.. nth much will b asked from u.. cus of u, we are sad u knw.. sad-ness spreads.. undst ?
KSWJ :
u, i haf nth to say.. i think here think dere.. gt lots and lots to say to u.. wan knw wad mahhs ? ask me personally bahhs.. cus it may be rather hurting norhhs.. wan den come ask me.. dunwan, den nvm. XDD hope u wil b happy too !
LAOPEH !!!
wahs. lerh kin jit ai deng lai.. wah em zai luak hua heee.. sui jiang laobu chang zha gak wah kong lerh mah meh zah you ai chut kok, dan see lerh au jit ju deng lai liao.. wah jin hua hee.. XD
5:47 PM
nth much to say today norhhs.. jus wanna say something to some people :
zhaborh :
i undstand.. ur dad do this to you.. of cus wun happy.. but, i only wanna u try ur best.. nth much will b asked from u.. cus of u, we are sad u knw.. sad-ness spreads.. undst ?
KSWJ :
u, i haf nth to say.. i think here think dere.. gt lots and lots to say to u.. wan knw wad mahhs ? ask me personally bahhs.. cus it may be rather hurting norhhs.. wan den come ask me.. dunwan, den nvm. XDD hope u wil b happy too !
LAOPEH !!!
wahs. lerh kin jit ai deng lai.. wah em zai luak hua heee.. sui jiang laobu chang zha gak wah kong lerh mah meh zah you ai chut kok, dan see lerh au jit ju deng lai liao.. wah jin hua hee.. XD
nothing is ever important .
4:39 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
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emo ?
laopeh :
zah jit , chak jit diam ju kao liao.. yin wee wah jin sio lerh.. qit jit boh kuah tio lerh.. chang zah, laobu gak wah tah lerh mah jit ju ai tng lai liao. wah jin hua hee.. yin wee wah sit zai xi jin sio lerh.. lerh mehh mehh deng lai.. wah dang lerh. XD
KSWJ :
zhaborh.. dun think too much luhhs kays ? i dun like to see my friends nt happy.. and if u inflict pain on urself.. i will feel wors.. if u wan emo, mus tell me .. though i dun like to emo too.. but if u wanna me pei u emo, i can one.. anytime, anyday.. XD if u nid an ear, u can share wif me.. if nt ur laogong oso can.. also, nidd a hug to make urself feel better, i can gif u oso.. anything u wan, i can help derhhs.. i am serious.. even if i cannt do it myself.. i can call people help one.. no problem at all.. undst ? cheers ~
walao.. y everyone also sad sad derhhs ? i hate it u knw.. i feel so useless.. so many ppl not happy, and yet, as a friend, i can do nothing.. nothing.. friends, nid help in anyway, i can help one.. i am serious about that okays.. come to me , anytime.. cus i dun like to see my friends everyday not happy.. even if i cant help u all now, i am sure we will find ways one.. kays ?
4:39 PM
flag raising, finally.. went to parade square today . its finally done u knw.. xDD lols.. i was almost late.. cause i purposely one.. lols. xDDD but nv.. hehee.. had attire chec, and i guess i passed all.. cause mdm hazwah nv check schl shoelace one.. only my hair, they say is red colour.. but bo bian ehhs.. i already dyed it bac blac.. den now it bcome like that.. lols.. but, if not light, its black. XD science sucked big time... history, wasnt as good either.. maths, was still okays.. things seemed to have got well after my recess. XDD anyways.. recess had my first ever body check.. check here check dere.. den in e end, i tell dem e place.. lols.. geography.. today nv do anything at all luhhs.. ms nah was grouping us, and it took her one full period.. lols.. thats great ! XDD english.. was okays.. e debate think got me back into my mood bahhs. XDD chinese was only copy-ing of e compo.. lols.. den came home, and after that.. went to inter to help mum buy lip gloss.. shun bian go find kim they all .. lawls.. den came home after that.. now blog, and den ltr mus study alr. xDD
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prince juliana agn. xDD
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prince juliana agn. xDD.jpg)
emo ?laopeh :
zah jit , chak jit diam ju kao liao.. yin wee wah jin sio lerh.. qit jit boh kuah tio lerh.. chang zah, laobu gak wah tah lerh mah jit ju ai tng lai liao. wah jin hua hee.. yin wee wah sit zai xi jin sio lerh.. lerh mehh mehh deng lai.. wah dang lerh. XD
KSWJ :
zhaborh.. dun think too much luhhs kays ? i dun like to see my friends nt happy.. and if u inflict pain on urself.. i will feel wors.. if u wan emo, mus tell me .. though i dun like to emo too.. but if u wanna me pei u emo, i can one.. anytime, anyday.. XD if u nid an ear, u can share wif me.. if nt ur laogong oso can.. also, nidd a hug to make urself feel better, i can gif u oso.. anything u wan, i can help derhhs.. i am serious.. even if i cannt do it myself.. i can call people help one.. no problem at all.. undst ? cheers ~
walao.. y everyone also sad sad derhhs ? i hate it u knw.. i feel so useless.. so many ppl not happy, and yet, as a friend, i can do nothing.. nothing.. friends, nid help in anyway, i can help one.. i am serious about that okays.. come to me , anytime.. cus i dun like to see my friends everyday not happy.. even if i cant help u all now, i am sure we will find ways one.. kays ?
nothing is ever important .
4:16 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
too bored from tuition.. emo ~ XPP 
me in my new jacket.. XDD
4:16 PM
wahhs. today hor.. super tired i tell u.. slept for about 8hrs den wake up, stil nt enuff sia.. so damn tired.. den went for tuition.. halfway, was sleeping.. cause i had done wad i was supposed to do.. e cher nv scold oso.. lols.. he knw i finish liaos mahhs.. alot ppl oso lik tt. cus gt ppl havn finish, so need to wait for them.. lols.. den after that .. mum came to parkway to find me.. and, we went PP tgt, to buy stuffs.. walk and walk .. walk and walk.. in e end, go 77th street, and bought a jacket.. woots ~ though is $49.90 , but .. its nice and i liked it .. XDD then, came home and now blogged.. lols.. paid back mama her money.. she say she wan pay for it and den my lost earpiece i pay myself.. but since i gt some "savings" , i jus pay her back norhhs.. expensive ehs.. $49.90.. ltr she say i kip spend.. hahas.. stil enuff money to buy things tt i nid.. and to ... something.. XPP
pictures :
too bored from tuition.. emo ~ XPP
me in my new jacket.. XDD
nothing is ever important .
2:14 PM
Saturday, March 22, 2008
wee ~~ today morning wake up early early.. mama nv use alot energy i jiu wake up liaos.. hehehe.. cus i tink i knw e importance of today.. hahahas.. in e end, when reach there.. they all waiting liaos.. bus oso come liaoss. but , i NOT e latest okays.. xDD rushed from e bus stop to e backgate, running damn damn fast.. lucky nv fall.. lols.. den found out alot of supporters sia.. 15 if nt wrong.. at least better than e other time, none.. ghangaa'mam came oso.. tio chua.. and fast fast tuck in t-shirt.. lols.. lucky valerie tell.. if nt, sure tio scold.. lols.. den went to HTA.. on e bus, had quite a fair amount of fun.. but when reached there.. suddenly very stress, cause i scared that e history on 1stMarch will repeat.. den, e competition started.. went high high high and shouted all e way.. lols.. for no reason, like a mad women sia.. we did well.. at least, better than e last time.. xDD after that , waited for e judges to finish seeing.. meanwhile, they i think bored, so plucked some "flowers" and we pasted it with our sticker when we came.. woo~ so cool sehh.. all e campcraft girls had it.. like trademark.. lols.. unpitched everything and came bac to school.. den we planned to go mac, for lunch.. since e guys wanted to go bball first, we went to school to wait.. den, whilst waiting.. cus xueyi gt gastric bahhs.. and den me,xueyi,valerie,jocelyn,rowena .. boiled water.. and e campcraft girls drank it together.. had loads and loads of fun.. lols.. jocelyn like our laobu norhhs.. kip on call us drink, den say wan da pi gu .. lols.. den we went to mac at around 11+ bahhs... 19 people go to mac together.. own e mac sia.. lols.. den after that.. me, xueyi, xiuting, valerie and rowena actually wanted to go jalan jalan .. but nv.. since xueyi, xiuting and valerie were supposed to take e same bus home, i pei rowena lorhhs... lols.. no one force okays.. is i volunteer ! XDD den came home, now blog lorhhs.. super super tired.. lols. tink cus too full. XPP
yizhen's table.. xDD e frogs i make one ! hehehee..
BGSS campcraft girl's "TRADEMARK" !
campfire's burning out !!
2:14 PM
wee ~~ today morning wake up early early.. mama nv use alot energy i jiu wake up liaos.. hehehe.. cus i tink i knw e importance of today.. hahahas.. in e end, when reach there.. they all waiting liaos.. bus oso come liaoss. but , i NOT e latest okays.. xDD rushed from e bus stop to e backgate, running damn damn fast.. lucky nv fall.. lols.. den found out alot of supporters sia.. 15 if nt wrong.. at least better than e other time, none.. ghangaa'mam came oso.. tio chua.. and fast fast tuck in t-shirt.. lols.. lucky valerie tell.. if nt, sure tio scold.. lols.. den went to HTA.. on e bus, had quite a fair amount of fun.. but when reached there.. suddenly very stress, cause i scared that e history on 1stMarch will repeat.. den, e competition started.. went high high high and shouted all e way.. lols.. for no reason, like a mad women sia.. we did well.. at least, better than e last time.. xDD after that , waited for e judges to finish seeing.. meanwhile, they i think bored, so plucked some "flowers" and we pasted it with our sticker when we came.. woo~ so cool sehh.. all e campcraft girls had it.. like trademark.. lols.. unpitched everything and came bac to school.. den we planned to go mac, for lunch.. since e guys wanted to go bball first, we went to school to wait.. den, whilst waiting.. cus xueyi gt gastric bahhs.. and den me,xueyi,valerie,jocelyn,rowena .. boiled water.. and e campcraft girls drank it together.. had loads and loads of fun.. lols.. jocelyn like our laobu norhhs.. kip on call us drink, den say wan da pi gu .. lols.. den we went to mac at around 11+ bahhs... 19 people go to mac together.. own e mac sia.. lols.. den after that.. me, xueyi, xiuting, valerie and rowena actually wanted to go jalan jalan .. but nv.. since xueyi, xiuting and valerie were supposed to take e same bus home, i pei rowena lorhhs... lols.. no one force okays.. is i volunteer ! XDD den came home, now blog lorhhs.. super super tired.. lols. tink cus too full. XPP
lan jiao lang :
cb. i hate liars larhhs.. if u dnwan accept him, jus say.. dnnid gif excuses, den aft tt go and accept other ppl lorhhs.. u tink u rly so chio arx ? wah pui arx.. dnno y so many ppl like u larhhs.. sec1 nia so bitch liaos.. next time sec3 sec4 how ? mus let ppl gan u liaos den u wil learn arx ? if u feel hot hor.. dnnid come "support" us derhs lorhs.. u oso nv support.. supporters come here gam lan one sia.. come nv support , nvm.. wan take our bag and den use as wad ? umbrella arx? cb.. i take ur bag go cover my face u suka bo ? sure bo suka rite.. u make my friends nt happy.. is equal to makin me nt happy too.. and i dislike u.. u bitch..
campcraft girls :
we have been through thick n thin.. 2months.. got scolded together.. even though, there has been a massive change in e members.. but e 9NINE of us was there throughout.. to think, we started out, un-cooperative.. nt only that.. our timing sucked hell .. 40+ minutes.. but, we trained.. 1week 2-3 times.. sometimes more.. as e 2months passed, we became bonded like a family.. before this whole thing, i disliked some of us.. i guess others too rite ? but.. after knowing u guys better.. we became more close.. we shared.. we cared.. its e effort that we put in.. when one is injured, all helped.. thats e team.. e US ! i am glad to haf u guys.. after this 2months.. i undst already.. xD today i thought that we wouldn't complete in time, as e new structure, we have only tried it for once, and we slacked alot alot.. but, we did it ! e happiness, is unable to b explained.. i love all 8 of u ! jocelyn, rafidah, jiahui, jamie, rowena, xiuting, xueyi, valerie ! we are a team ! XD
we have been through thick n thin.. 2months.. got scolded together.. even though, there has been a massive change in e members.. but e 9NINE of us was there throughout.. to think, we started out, un-cooperative.. nt only that.. our timing sucked hell .. 40+ minutes.. but, we trained.. 1week 2-3 times.. sometimes more.. as e 2months passed, we became bonded like a family.. before this whole thing, i disliked some of us.. i guess others too rite ? but.. after knowing u guys better.. we became more close.. we shared.. we cared.. its e effort that we put in.. when one is injured, all helped.. thats e team.. e US ! i am glad to haf u guys.. after this 2months.. i undst already.. xD today i thought that we wouldn't complete in time, as e new structure, we have only tried it for once, and we slacked alot alot.. but, we did it ! e happiness, is unable to b explained.. i love all 8 of u ! jocelyn, rafidah, jiahui, jamie, rowena, xiuting, xueyi, valerie ! we are a team ! XD
yizhen's table.. xDD e frogs i make one ! hehehee..
BGSS campcraft girl's "TRADEMARK" !
campfire's burning out !! friends
i guess it takes time for one to know another.. for example.. i used to dislike alot people, like yizhen, jeannette, shirly, sheril.. but, for dnno how and wad reason, now we are quite good friends.. last time, i also dun like valerie, jocelyn.. but, after e campcraft.. we are bonded and now we are quite good team mates and friends too.. last time, i wasn't so close to e 8 girls and at an extent, we may b distant.. but after e 2months, we are now rather close, whom cares for each other.. during my sec1 camp, i dun like yingsiew also.. cause i found her rather demanding, and keep on shouting and shouting.. but, after that, by chance we were quite good too.. i also dun like braces guy in e past at e camp.. for dnno wad reason, jus mayb not fated.. but now, i guess its okays already.. no longer anymore hatred.. i will treasure all my good friends forever.. cause they really really means alot to me.. its true..
nothing is ever important .
1:07 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
wee ~~ today, good friday.. indeed its nt bad.. hahas.. slept until shuang today sehh.. about 10hrs of full sleep.. soso cool.. XDD den used comp awhile.. and "patched" audi.. its cus just download mahhs.. but until nw haven play yet.. cause after finish patch, went out for lunch.. until around 2 like that come bac, cabal open alr.. so, played cabal.. till now lorhhs.. about 2hr30min.. wahhs.. audi oso cannt play so long lorhhs.. audi if lik tt.. e eye sure 0.0 one lorhhs.. xPP den nw jus blogg.. rather bored luhhs.. mayb ltr go audi.. hahas.. today lazy to study.. mayb tonite bahhs.. wanna read books too ! XDD
tmr :
campcraft competition.. rather nervous.. afriad that we are not preparetd enough, and we may end up all going hope with sad-dd faces.. i dnno.. i wish that it would nt be so soon, and we can prepare more.. but, also .. i wish that it will come faster.. so that i wont have to go for e "meetings" and "trainings".. lets pray, that it wont rain tomorrow.. all e bes girls ! we can do it !
laopeh:
zah jit gao jit boh tia tio lerh gai xia, wah wu tam bok kia.. yin wee lerh kah kee jit nang dor herh kor , ah si huat seng si mi dai ji, boh lang oi zai. dan si gin jit meh zah lerh kah diang weh lai. wah tia liao jin huah hee.. yin wee lerh boh si.. lerhs kah wah dah, lerh yin gai si bai yit hah si bai ji deng lai.. wah jin xio niam lerh.. lerh meh meh deng lai oi sai boi ?
1:07 PM
wee ~~ today, good friday.. indeed its nt bad.. hahas.. slept until shuang today sehh.. about 10hrs of full sleep.. soso cool.. XDD den used comp awhile.. and "patched" audi.. its cus just download mahhs.. but until nw haven play yet.. cause after finish patch, went out for lunch.. until around 2 like that come bac, cabal open alr.. so, played cabal.. till now lorhhs.. about 2hr30min.. wahhs.. audi oso cannt play so long lorhhs.. audi if lik tt.. e eye sure 0.0 one lorhhs.. xPP den nw jus blogg.. rather bored luhhs.. mayb ltr go audi.. hahas.. today lazy to study.. mayb tonite bahhs.. wanna read books too ! XDD
tmr :
campcraft competition.. rather nervous.. afriad that we are not preparetd enough, and we may end up all going hope with sad-dd faces.. i dnno.. i wish that it would nt be so soon, and we can prepare more.. but, also .. i wish that it will come faster.. so that i wont have to go for e "meetings" and "trainings".. lets pray, that it wont rain tomorrow.. all e bes girls ! we can do it !
laopeh:
zah jit gao jit boh tia tio lerh gai xia, wah wu tam bok kia.. yin wee lerh kah kee jit nang dor herh kor , ah si huat seng si mi dai ji, boh lang oi zai. dan si gin jit meh zah lerh kah diang weh lai. wah tia liao jin huah hee.. yin wee lerh boh si.. lerhs kah wah dah, lerh yin gai si bai yit hah si bai ji deng lai.. wah jin xio niam lerh.. lerh meh meh deng lai oi sai boi ?
nothing is ever important .
4:40 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
wahhs. today like test day mans.. so tiring.. morning tt mother of mine, woke me up at .. hmm.. 6.20 .. wth luhhs.. ytd gt training, today so tired still wake me up so early.. sians.. went school.. and blablabla.. had maths first period, and u knw.. test.. almost fell asleep sia.. my eyes like wan to drop liaos lorhs.. stupid stupid.. science.. yet another test.. dint prepare, and guess i will fail ? sian sia.. this 3days weekend must study liaos.. tink tonite bahs.. muahahaha.. yea.. PE, mr wong went for a course i tink ? and mr nahh took over.. woots ~~ e hot hot teacher.. hahas.. he is ok larhs.. but den prone to punishment ? today's PE made me sick man.. 2.4, tink i deproved in my stamina bahs.. and aft that had a quite serious headache.. mad me more no mood.. stupid stupid.. chinese is as normal.. guess i have got used to doing chinese homework, and stay out from troubles coming towards me.. after that was english.. ms tan was late.. think she has something to settle and thats why bahs.. lols.. then was clas period.. mdm hazwah said nid my help after school.. and was super super shocked.. tot was in a deep trouble, cause recently haven been behaving bahs.. then had one dnno wad course.. buey pai seh.. but e vendor like abit scary bahs.. scared of her.. =/// den after that, went wif mdm hazwah and found out that its about that electricity thing larhs.. tt one which i helped when they were in camp and i dint go.. lols.. scared me seh.. xP ate lunch and stayed in school till around 3.20.. came home, rested and now blogged.. hahas.. shall rest and then study ltr.. hehehee...
4:40 PM
wahhs. today like test day mans.. so tiring.. morning tt mother of mine, woke me up at .. hmm.. 6.20 .. wth luhhs.. ytd gt training, today so tired still wake me up so early.. sians.. went school.. and blablabla.. had maths first period, and u knw.. test.. almost fell asleep sia.. my eyes like wan to drop liaos lorhs.. stupid stupid.. science.. yet another test.. dint prepare, and guess i will fail ? sian sia.. this 3days weekend must study liaos.. tink tonite bahs.. muahahaha.. yea.. PE, mr wong went for a course i tink ? and mr nahh took over.. woots ~~ e hot hot teacher.. hahas.. he is ok larhs.. but den prone to punishment ? today's PE made me sick man.. 2.4, tink i deproved in my stamina bahs.. and aft that had a quite serious headache.. mad me more no mood.. stupid stupid.. chinese is as normal.. guess i have got used to doing chinese homework, and stay out from troubles coming towards me.. after that was english.. ms tan was late.. think she has something to settle and thats why bahs.. lols.. then was clas period.. mdm hazwah said nid my help after school.. and was super super shocked.. tot was in a deep trouble, cause recently haven been behaving bahs.. then had one dnno wad course.. buey pai seh.. but e vendor like abit scary bahs.. scared of her.. =/// den after that, went wif mdm hazwah and found out that its about that electricity thing larhs.. tt one which i helped when they were in camp and i dint go.. lols.. scared me seh.. xP ate lunch and stayed in school till around 3.20.. came home, rested and now blogged.. hahas.. shall rest and then study ltr.. hehehee...
nothing is ever important .
4:07 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
reached school abit earlier, and wanted to study english .. but, ended up folding frogs.. hope u appreciate it. xD she came.. found out something.. super disappointed wif her luhhs.. mood plunged dwn.. den had common test period.. caught for ankle socks.. mood bad liaos den stil tio caught.. stupid sia.. tears trickled dwn.. some reasons.. lols.. went toilet.. and as soon as i reached class, common test started.. wasnt in e mood to do luhhs.. bet i wil fail.. hais.. DnT was slacking of 3periods, because i had completed my artefact last week.. *cheers!* XDD history was like.. jus listening to him crap and crap.. detest it sia.. x(( ate and went to fourth floor during recess. super sian norhs.. hais.. then geog was okok.. quite fun norhs.. she like talkin to wall like tt.. den suddenly i answer.. xPP CL was super super fun. hehehehe.. art, another 2 slack periods.. and i detest being a left handed.. x( aft school, nv have lunch and was outside staff-room lvl 2, with zhen and sheril. lols.. quite alrite larhs.. nth much bad. xDD den had NP.. today 7 ppl come nia.. sad seh.. and its like changing day today luhhs.. cus actually is wear full-u.. did drills and changed into PT.. den when doing campcraft, they came and wanted to find 4 volunteers.. so i volunteered.. and we were asked to change into half-u.. its like jus changed into PT , for less than 15minutes and then want e 4 of us to change into half-u.. nvm.. changed.. and say no nid us for today.. wth.. changed into PT and joined back to our squad.. waste my time, change up change down.. think tmr sure wil haf leg cramps luhhs.. hw to PE ?! lols.. came home, ate and nw blog.. lallalaa ~~
zhaborh :
i am disappointed in u, u knw ? u were one of those whom teaches me nt to cut.. and u tried it ytd.. yupp.. u said that its accidentally.. but, in e first place, y even try ? if u like me, become addicted hw ehs ?! a habit its hard to change lehhs.. tears almost drop when i heard that from u.. controlled.. but aft i tio scolding, i could no longer control, and cried.. it hurts me.. cus i do it, so i dnwan ppl to follow my footsteps.. undst? gt problem.. one by one we will solve it derhs.. we will.. this will b ur first and last time okays.. please ..
4:07 PM
reached school abit earlier, and wanted to study english .. but, ended up folding frogs.. hope u appreciate it. xD she came.. found out something.. super disappointed wif her luhhs.. mood plunged dwn.. den had common test period.. caught for ankle socks.. mood bad liaos den stil tio caught.. stupid sia.. tears trickled dwn.. some reasons.. lols.. went toilet.. and as soon as i reached class, common test started.. wasnt in e mood to do luhhs.. bet i wil fail.. hais.. DnT was slacking of 3periods, because i had completed my artefact last week.. *cheers!* XDD history was like.. jus listening to him crap and crap.. detest it sia.. x(( ate and went to fourth floor during recess. super sian norhs.. hais.. then geog was okok.. quite fun norhs.. she like talkin to wall like tt.. den suddenly i answer.. xPP CL was super super fun. hehehehe.. art, another 2 slack periods.. and i detest being a left handed.. x( aft school, nv have lunch and was outside staff-room lvl 2, with zhen and sheril. lols.. quite alrite larhs.. nth much bad. xDD den had NP.. today 7 ppl come nia.. sad seh.. and its like changing day today luhhs.. cus actually is wear full-u.. did drills and changed into PT.. den when doing campcraft, they came and wanted to find 4 volunteers.. so i volunteered.. and we were asked to change into half-u.. its like jus changed into PT , for less than 15minutes and then want e 4 of us to change into half-u.. nvm.. changed.. and say no nid us for today.. wth.. changed into PT and joined back to our squad.. waste my time, change up change down.. think tmr sure wil haf leg cramps luhhs.. hw to PE ?! lols.. came home, ate and nw blog.. lallalaa ~~
zhaborh :
i am disappointed in u, u knw ? u were one of those whom teaches me nt to cut.. and u tried it ytd.. yupp.. u said that its accidentally.. but, in e first place, y even try ? if u like me, become addicted hw ehs ?! a habit its hard to change lehhs.. tears almost drop when i heard that from u.. controlled.. but aft i tio scolding, i could no longer control, and cried.. it hurts me.. cus i do it, so i dnwan ppl to follow my footsteps.. undst? gt problem.. one by one we will solve it derhs.. we will.. this will b ur first and last time okays.. please ..
nothing is ever important .
7:40 PM
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
today morning like so damn useless like that luhhs.. jus eat ONE small pill nia.. go in e wrong way i think, and too bitter.. vomitted wad had went in, out.. wth.. somemore tio scoldin by my laobu cus of it.. stupid luhhs !! she see me vomit, oso bo chup.. wad laobu is this ?! kays.. nvm abt that.. mood went super low luhhs.. went to school.. and had serious stomachache.. e worst thing ever in my life luhhs ! x(( den after that.. tot in class e mood sure will shoot up high high one.. but.. hais.. nv.. and sorry joel.. x( tink gt abit "fa pi qi" at u.. psps.. wasnt in e good mood uhhs.. (dnno he gt read or nt one lorhs) den all e way, it sucked.. recess.. ate.. and like that.. until art... was slacking all e way, and i suck-ed at english calligraphy luhhs.. cus i am LEFT HANDED !! and its like so hard to write.. dnno linhui easy to write mahs.. if she easy to write, tt means my hand gt prob liaos.. oops ~ my hand gt prob.. lols.. lunch wasnt good either.. my right leg seemed to have told me that it wanna break down.. hais.. e pain was almost unbearable.. but i hanged on and walked with a limp on my RIGHT leg okays.. den aft awhile ok luhhs.. speech-and-drama lesson.. was ok-ok luhhs.. hang on with it for this two weeks, and e next next week, most probably will be joining frisbee in primary school alr.. XDD woots ~ and someone made me super worried for jus now.. but i dn blame u, cause i "found" u man.. tot u dnno go whr seh.. yea.. and received e news that today no campcraft !! wahss.. dnno hw happy seh.. no campcraft. XDD den walked to e bus stop.. wahs.. e leg suddenly pain agn.. nt only tt.. stomache oso pain.. stupid luhhs.. sorry teobing.. anyhw anyhw rpl to wad u say.. cus i very urgent want go home.. super pain, den anyhw talk.. xP bleahs.. rushed home and i guess one guy saw me running and running all e way frm bus stop to home.. think almost chua tio ? lols.. xP den bang sai.. n nw blog lorhs.. hahas.. so comfortable. XD
to tt daborh whom played with my friend's feelings :
walan.. u tink she wad ? toy arx ? suka suka say wan std.. den somemore say u like her, blablabla.. den aft tt ehs ? ignore her for wks n wks.. do u knw tt she rly rly loves u ? but u think wad ? all these are jokes arx ? wth.. i will find my way, to make u pay for it one.. its jus e time.. everything you do, there is a price for it..
to zhaborh :
i knw u today dnno cus of wad reason, xinqingbuhao.. very frustrated like that.. but, i can see that u forced out some smiles for us .. mayb some are real.. ur smiles are appreciated by me.. but it really hurts me, as a friend to see u nt happy.. i am serious.. for every friend that i care, i really do hurt when i see them get scolded.. or no mood.. for u, its e same.. i hope that u will be fine soon.. real soon.. hope to see e real you back. XD and, dn inflict pain okays.. u gt me shocked when i heard that.. cus i dnwan see any of my friends inflicting pain on themselves..
to all my friends :
to all my friends reading this.. i know that sometimes, i mayb a bit childish.. but, thats a way for me to hide my feelings.. or u guys will come and ask me if i emo or nt.. or if one day i go into class and appears to haf a sulky face.. none of u will like it rite ? and i really cared for each and everyone of u.. be it my really good friend, be it my seniors.. if u guys gt any problem, feel free.. come tell me.. cus i am free.. xDD FOC u knw.. best in singapore, jb and some say batam.. hahas.. n rmb.. nv nv follow my footsteps.. cus once u are addicted.. its a goner alr.. be it cutting or inflicting self pain.. its e same.. i really hope that each and everyone of u will b happy.. cus whenever i see anyone of u nt happy... i wun.. u guys are my ecstasy.. u bring me emotions.. nt only happiness, but sadness too.
7:40 PM
today morning like so damn useless like that luhhs.. jus eat ONE small pill nia.. go in e wrong way i think, and too bitter.. vomitted wad had went in, out.. wth.. somemore tio scoldin by my laobu cus of it.. stupid luhhs !! she see me vomit, oso bo chup.. wad laobu is this ?! kays.. nvm abt that.. mood went super low luhhs.. went to school.. and had serious stomachache.. e worst thing ever in my life luhhs ! x(( den after that.. tot in class e mood sure will shoot up high high one.. but.. hais.. nv.. and sorry joel.. x( tink gt abit "fa pi qi" at u.. psps.. wasnt in e good mood uhhs.. (dnno he gt read or nt one lorhs) den all e way, it sucked.. recess.. ate.. and like that.. until art... was slacking all e way, and i suck-ed at english calligraphy luhhs.. cus i am LEFT HANDED !! and its like so hard to write.. dnno linhui easy to write mahs.. if she easy to write, tt means my hand gt prob liaos.. oops ~ my hand gt prob.. lols.. lunch wasnt good either.. my right leg seemed to have told me that it wanna break down.. hais.. e pain was almost unbearable.. but i hanged on and walked with a limp on my RIGHT leg okays.. den aft awhile ok luhhs.. speech-and-drama lesson.. was ok-ok luhhs.. hang on with it for this two weeks, and e next next week, most probably will be joining frisbee in primary school alr.. XDD woots ~ and someone made me super worried for jus now.. but i dn blame u, cause i "found" u man.. tot u dnno go whr seh.. yea.. and received e news that today no campcraft !! wahss.. dnno hw happy seh.. no campcraft. XDD den walked to e bus stop.. wahs.. e leg suddenly pain agn.. nt only tt.. stomache oso pain.. stupid luhhs.. sorry teobing.. anyhw anyhw rpl to wad u say.. cus i very urgent want go home.. super pain, den anyhw talk.. xP bleahs.. rushed home and i guess one guy saw me running and running all e way frm bus stop to home.. think almost chua tio ? lols.. xP den bang sai.. n nw blog lorhs.. hahas.. so comfortable. XD
to tt daborh whom played with my friend's feelings :
walan.. u tink she wad ? toy arx ? suka suka say wan std.. den somemore say u like her, blablabla.. den aft tt ehs ? ignore her for wks n wks.. do u knw tt she rly rly loves u ? but u think wad ? all these are jokes arx ? wth.. i will find my way, to make u pay for it one.. its jus e time.. everything you do, there is a price for it..
to zhaborh :
i knw u today dnno cus of wad reason, xinqingbuhao.. very frustrated like that.. but, i can see that u forced out some smiles for us .. mayb some are real.. ur smiles are appreciated by me.. but it really hurts me, as a friend to see u nt happy.. i am serious.. for every friend that i care, i really do hurt when i see them get scolded.. or no mood.. for u, its e same.. i hope that u will be fine soon.. real soon.. hope to see e real you back. XD and, dn inflict pain okays.. u gt me shocked when i heard that.. cus i dnwan see any of my friends inflicting pain on themselves..
to all my friends :
to all my friends reading this.. i know that sometimes, i mayb a bit childish.. but, thats a way for me to hide my feelings.. or u guys will come and ask me if i emo or nt.. or if one day i go into class and appears to haf a sulky face.. none of u will like it rite ? and i really cared for each and everyone of u.. be it my really good friend, be it my seniors.. if u guys gt any problem, feel free.. come tell me.. cus i am free.. xDD FOC u knw.. best in singapore, jb and some say batam.. hahas.. n rmb.. nv nv follow my footsteps.. cus once u are addicted.. its a goner alr.. be it cutting or inflicting self pain.. its e same.. i really hope that each and everyone of u will b happy.. cus whenever i see anyone of u nt happy... i wun.. u guys are my ecstasy.. u bring me emotions.. nt only happiness, but sadness too.
nothing is ever important .
4:08 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
wahhs.. today hor.. woke up at ard 5.30.. found out tt my fone still charging, den jiu stand up, unplug fone.. who knws, gt msg.. so i rpl e msg.. tot nt so fast e person wil rpl me bac.. den jiu tried to slp lerhs.. bt nv did i knw, less than 10mins.. e person rpl lerhs.. den in e end, nv slp tio.. lols.. ard 6.50 jiu leave hse lerhs.. quite early ? lols.. bt go dere.. super dulan.. wait for e bus.. wait for super super long, den wan come.. stupid larhs.. tot will reach abit earlier, but i tink same norhs.. wth.. stand dere like idiot like tt, to wait for tt bus.. reach schl, dnno y.. suddenly quite hyper nehs.. xP den had flag raising in class.. aft tt science.. get new de sitting arrangement.. jitao sian bodoh.. change to new seat, nt window seat.. cannt see shw anymore liaos.. den gt ppl walk pass, oso cannt say hello.. stupid sia.. if gt ppl wan come find me hw nehs ? or i wan find ppl ehs ? walao.. like tt nvm.. infront sit one jiaobin.. left side another one.. bcome gt 2 jiaobin sit near me.. stupid sia.. my good mood all kana ruin liaos lorhs.. den history and maths.. all boh mood derhs.. alr tell cher say i must window seat or somewhere near window den can concentrate lerhs.. bt think she wun bother abt it one lorhs.. if like tt hor jiu can change to window seat, everyone oso can change lerhs.. sians.. den aft recess, geog.. nth much also.. english.. almost fell asleep doing that worksheet.. but stil managed to complete luhhs.. stil buey pai.. xP aft school.. went to bedok inter , to refund my last time EZ-link derhs money.. buey pai ehs.. tt person whom i tink take e card, tink nv spend tio.. inside stil got $11.65. xDD den came home, ate.. attempted to do holiday de homework , that one write about ahgong/ahma de priced item one.. but den jus rmb tt i jus reformat comp.. bo microsoft word.. hw ehs ?! X(( sian diao sia.. today is jus nt my day.. hais.. anyways, i wanna apologise to melissa .. cus, jus nw carry chair, accidentally hit tio her head.. SORRY ! X(( tmr shall gif u one lollipop, to repay for my mistake.. hhehee ~~
to my real laopeh..
wah oi sior lerh gai.. yin wee wah wu xim.. xDD lerh kerh hee kor, tio ai jiao kor hor lerh gai xin teh.. kerh gui jit, wah em zai.. lerh mah boh kong.. dan xi wah zai, lerh yin gai si kerh jit gai loi bai gai.. kerh yi kor sng, tio ai sng gah kui xin hor.. wah zai lerh mah oi sio wah gai.. tio ai sio laobu ehs, ah boh yi jia chor, wah ju si liao . xD
i will miss you dad..
4:08 PM
wahhs.. today hor.. woke up at ard 5.30.. found out tt my fone still charging, den jiu stand up, unplug fone.. who knws, gt msg.. so i rpl e msg.. tot nt so fast e person wil rpl me bac.. den jiu tried to slp lerhs.. bt nv did i knw, less than 10mins.. e person rpl lerhs.. den in e end, nv slp tio.. lols.. ard 6.50 jiu leave hse lerhs.. quite early ? lols.. bt go dere.. super dulan.. wait for e bus.. wait for super super long, den wan come.. stupid larhs.. tot will reach abit earlier, but i tink same norhs.. wth.. stand dere like idiot like tt, to wait for tt bus.. reach schl, dnno y.. suddenly quite hyper nehs.. xP den had flag raising in class.. aft tt science.. get new de sitting arrangement.. jitao sian bodoh.. change to new seat, nt window seat.. cannt see shw anymore liaos.. den gt ppl walk pass, oso cannt say hello.. stupid sia.. if gt ppl wan come find me hw nehs ? or i wan find ppl ehs ? walao.. like tt nvm.. infront sit one jiaobin.. left side another one.. bcome gt 2 jiaobin sit near me.. stupid sia.. my good mood all kana ruin liaos lorhs.. den history and maths.. all boh mood derhs.. alr tell cher say i must window seat or somewhere near window den can concentrate lerhs.. bt think she wun bother abt it one lorhs.. if like tt hor jiu can change to window seat, everyone oso can change lerhs.. sians.. den aft recess, geog.. nth much also.. english.. almost fell asleep doing that worksheet.. but stil managed to complete luhhs.. stil buey pai.. xP aft school.. went to bedok inter , to refund my last time EZ-link derhs money.. buey pai ehs.. tt person whom i tink take e card, tink nv spend tio.. inside stil got $11.65. xDD den came home, ate.. attempted to do holiday de homework , that one write about ahgong/ahma de priced item one.. but den jus rmb tt i jus reformat comp.. bo microsoft word.. hw ehs ?! X(( sian diao sia.. today is jus nt my day.. hais.. anyways, i wanna apologise to melissa .. cus, jus nw carry chair, accidentally hit tio her head.. SORRY ! X(( tmr shall gif u one lollipop, to repay for my mistake.. hhehee ~~
to my real laopeh..
wah oi sior lerh gai.. yin wee wah wu xim.. xDD lerh kerh hee kor, tio ai jiao kor hor lerh gai xin teh.. kerh gui jit, wah em zai.. lerh mah boh kong.. dan xi wah zai, lerh yin gai si kerh jit gai loi bai gai.. kerh yi kor sng, tio ai sng gah kui xin hor.. wah zai lerh mah oi sio wah gai.. tio ai sio laobu ehs, ah boh yi jia chor, wah ju si liao . xD
i will miss you dad..
nothing is ever important .
4:42 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
"prince" julian-a. XD
"prince" juliana once more. XD 
"king" jeannette . XDD 
"prince" juliana on "king" jeannette's bike. XD
"prince" juliana and "king" jeanette
4:42 PM
wee ~~ my comp is finally reformat-ed.. XDD thx to my cousin.. but, he only help reformat nia lo.. other things all nv do for me.. den nw stil nid let him finish download his game, den i can download mine.. bcus if download tgt, sure slw.. sians sia.. lols.. anyways, morning woke up alittle bit ltr... and was almost late for class.. x( bt lucky nv late.. today class super super boring, almost wan slp liaos but nv larhs.. i so good.. whr gt wil sleep one.. XDDD *proud* . then aft class, around 11 like that.. went out and called jeannette "laopeh" . but she nv pick-up.. call a few times den pick-up.. why ehs ? cus she jus woke up.. nvm.. went McD, ate ice-cream, and waited for her.. lols.. actually oso nt very long larhs.. awhile nia.. lols.. den went burger king, and loads of fun... XPP bought e kiddy meal agn, and got a toy.. jean got me a "burger king hat" , and i actually wore it.. xPP alot ppl looking lorhs.. but nvm bahs.. lols.. lazy to update liaos.. super boh mood nw.. pissed also.. jidangao.. jus upload e pics bahs..
"prince" julian-a. XD
"prince" juliana once more. XD
"king" jeannette . XDD 
"prince" juliana on "king" jeannette's bike. XD
"prince" juliana and "king" jeanette
nothing is ever important .
4:00 PM
Saturday, March 15, 2008
alrites.. yongding kor last nite .. nono.. this morning, 12.20 like that called me.. hahas.. was cabal-ing and he called.. tio shocked.. anyways, chatted with him and cousin came bac.. told cousin some stuffs, and yongdingkor was like : wahs.. tok to cousin so "wen rou" , talk to me like wan fight like that. lols.. i wan cousin help me do something mahs. of cus mus "wen rou wen rou" XD . yea.. then around 1 like that slept.. hahas.. supposed to 12 ehs.. but i slept at 1.. this shows how good i am. XD mum today dnno for wad reason, woked me up at around 10 bahs.. jitao sian bodoh.. slp until so shuang she wake me up.. lols.. den yea.. did some science notes.. heheeh.. but around 11 jiu go play cabal lerhs.. so fun sia.. play until 12 like that, went out for lunch.. and u know, we lunched til around 2.. came home, and played again til around 4.30 hahaas.. ytd played 3hours straight man.. so shiok.. play until i forget about my audi.. bleahs.. but audi mus got ppl pei den fun one mahs.. somemore ytd no one on9 pei me play. evn if they on9, some call me go play cabal.. lols.. den went do abit of notes again.. and now blog lorhs.. lols.. bored luhhs.. tink ltr go cabal agn. xDD
4:00 PM
alrites.. yongding kor last nite .. nono.. this morning, 12.20 like that called me.. hahas.. was cabal-ing and he called.. tio shocked.. anyways, chatted with him and cousin came bac.. told cousin some stuffs, and yongdingkor was like : wahs.. tok to cousin so "wen rou" , talk to me like wan fight like that. lols.. i wan cousin help me do something mahs. of cus mus "wen rou wen rou" XD . yea.. then around 1 like that slept.. hahas.. supposed to 12 ehs.. but i slept at 1.. this shows how good i am. XD mum today dnno for wad reason, woked me up at around 10 bahs.. jitao sian bodoh.. slp until so shuang she wake me up.. lols.. den yea.. did some science notes.. heheeh.. but around 11 jiu go play cabal lerhs.. so fun sia.. play until 12 like that, went out for lunch.. and u know, we lunched til around 2.. came home, and played again til around 4.30 hahaas.. ytd played 3hours straight man.. so shiok.. play until i forget about my audi.. bleahs.. but audi mus got ppl pei den fun one mahs.. somemore ytd no one on9 pei me play. evn if they on9, some call me go play cabal.. lols.. den went do abit of notes again.. and now blog lorhs.. lols.. bored luhhs.. tink ltr go cabal agn. xDD
nothing is ever important .
5:31 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
i have came across a newspaper article, when i was "forced" to read e papers today.. but, it turned out to be rather meaningful.. this article, its about teenagers whom takes something sharp, and tries to cut themselves.. i was very interested in it, why ? you guys should know it well.. i totally agree, with this article. it is said, to be that when someone cuts himself, the pain will trigger the release of endorpins. These hormones will numb the pain and give the person something like a 'high'. This effect can be similiar to certain hand drugs like heroine, which makes people so addicted.
In the past,when i first started to cut, it was 100% for fun. But, as the time goes by, and the more i cut, I start to feel that, whenever I cut, i will feel a sense of satisfaction, which is stated as high. But, after not long, of the cutting, my friends (u all) , found out about it. And, I guess none is happy about it. You guys were telling me to stop, I did it, for 3weeks. But, straight after the 3weeks, I bought another new penknife and does it again. Just last week, I signed some "agreement", and I regretted it. I really do, because whenever I see the blood flowing out, I really feel happy, I really feel the sense of satisfaction which can bring me "happiness". Eventhough it is not for long, at least there is still a bit of it. Hereby, I would like to tell you guys that, I do not cut for fun. Eventhough I know that cutting is wrong and I guess it may or may not hurt some of you guys, but it really makes me feel nice, it really do.
Just now, my mum read the article too, and she came and ask me. IF one day, I were to be not happy, will I cut myself. I told her "no" . I lied to her. But, its already a fact, that I have cut myself before, and I enjoy doing so. I really do.
Hereby, I want to "dedicate" this post, to ALL MY FRIENDS . thankyou.
5:31 PM
i have came across a newspaper article, when i was "forced" to read e papers today.. but, it turned out to be rather meaningful.. this article, its about teenagers whom takes something sharp, and tries to cut themselves.. i was very interested in it, why ? you guys should know it well.. i totally agree, with this article. it is said, to be that when someone cuts himself, the pain will trigger the release of endorpins. These hormones will numb the pain and give the person something like a 'high'. This effect can be similiar to certain hand drugs like heroine, which makes people so addicted.
In the past,when i first started to cut, it was 100% for fun. But, as the time goes by, and the more i cut, I start to feel that, whenever I cut, i will feel a sense of satisfaction, which is stated as high. But, after not long, of the cutting, my friends (u all) , found out about it. And, I guess none is happy about it. You guys were telling me to stop, I did it, for 3weeks. But, straight after the 3weeks, I bought another new penknife and does it again. Just last week, I signed some "agreement", and I regretted it. I really do, because whenever I see the blood flowing out, I really feel happy, I really feel the sense of satisfaction which can bring me "happiness". Eventhough it is not for long, at least there is still a bit of it. Hereby, I would like to tell you guys that, I do not cut for fun. Eventhough I know that cutting is wrong and I guess it may or may not hurt some of you guys, but it really makes me feel nice, it really do.
Just now, my mum read the article too, and she came and ask me. IF one day, I were to be not happy, will I cut myself. I told her "no" . I lied to her. But, its already a fact, that I have cut myself before, and I enjoy doing so. I really do.
Hereby, I want to "dedicate" this post, to ALL MY FRIENDS . thankyou.
nothing is ever important .
8:00 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
las nite dozed off at 2am .. wth sia.. tok to ppl on msn , den e person brb.. den i go lie on e bed, listen song.. den slp.. den nv rpl e person.. hahas..morning 11am wake up, tio threaten + kp.. stupid sia.. say ltr papa come bac scold me den i knw.. walao.. papa whr gt so early come bac seh.. stupid her.. den wake up, wash up liaos.. around 12+ go buy burger king for lunch.. havn go out nia agn tio threaten+kaopei .. *toot* her upside dwn sia.. tis time say i no alert.. one day tio daddy beat den i knw.. wth larhs.. daddy sinc i 7yrs old boh beat me lerhs.. nw wan beat is hen nan lo.. only e most tio him kaopei nia.. den i angry angry go out buy, come bac eat.. den come bac jiu ok liaos.. eat, used comp.. audii-ed awhile, come out msn , den go in. then , she come kp agn.. tis time bo kp.. lucky seh.. den aft tt do abit hmwk.. audi awhile agn.. den nw blog lorhs. this few days sian until cannt larhs.. everytime see outside, sure rain one lo.. hais.. stupid stupid ..
8:00 PM
las nite dozed off at 2am .. wth sia.. tok to ppl on msn , den e person brb.. den i go lie on e bed, listen song.. den slp.. den nv rpl e person.. hahas..morning 11am wake up, tio threaten + kp.. stupid sia.. say ltr papa come bac scold me den i knw.. walao.. papa whr gt so early come bac seh.. stupid her.. den wake up, wash up liaos.. around 12+ go buy burger king for lunch.. havn go out nia agn tio threaten+kaopei .. *toot* her upside dwn sia.. tis time say i no alert.. one day tio daddy beat den i knw.. wth larhs.. daddy sinc i 7yrs old boh beat me lerhs.. nw wan beat is hen nan lo.. only e most tio him kaopei nia.. den i angry angry go out buy, come bac eat.. den come bac jiu ok liaos.. eat, used comp.. audii-ed awhile, come out msn , den go in. then , she come kp agn.. tis time bo kp.. lucky seh.. den aft tt do abit hmwk.. audi awhile agn.. den nw blog lorhs. this few days sian until cannt larhs.. everytime see outside, sure rain one lo.. hais.. stupid stupid ..
stupid me..
stupid agreements..
nothing is ever important .
4:57 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
orange container . XDDD
teeth mould now .
teeth mould las time.. so erxin. x(
comparison.. great change alrites. lols .
retainers . 
e 4 "dracula" teeths i used to have
4:57 PM
wee ~~ my papa mama very kiasu sia.. i call dem 7.30 wake me, they 7.15 wake me up liaos.. den in e end i was quite early bahs.. ailing reached awhile after i reached.. wore my old green shirt their, and changed into my sec schl pe.. lols.. then mr tan came down from e staff room.. trained.. today super sian lo.. someone tell me say wan come den nv.. stupid seh.. so today, alumni attendence is 2.. sec1 = 0 , sec2 = 2 . jitao sian sia.. then did some "drills" (NOT NPCC DRILLS, just to train e passin) it rained, and went to music room for some sort of theory lesson ? (cool rite ? my primary school frisbee has got DRILLS and THEORY lessons .. hahas.. all thanks to my wonderful spyder *someone*) then went hall.. gt chinese dance, and they said that we were noisy, so cant train there.. rain stopped but still the floor is wet somehow, and they played.. me and ailing slacked ? lols.. then chinese dance evacuated the hall, and there we were, playing.. quite fun though.. ailing and me was anticipatin to see if the "grandmaster" would come or not, as spyder said he is coming.. he came, when we were about to leave.. lols.. as spyder had to do some stuffs, we were allowed to do some passes with "grandmaster" , honoured ehs.. and after that, sat down and rested. me , ailing, spyder and "grandmaster" . "grandmaster" praised me sia.. XD he told spyder my throws nt bad.. hehee.. but actually, it sucks lorhs.. then ailing came over to my house, i took some stuffs, and of we went to kembangan.. for wad? go take my retainers lo.. so cool sia.. plastic one.. hahas.. and e container for me to put retainers was supposed to be pink , and semi-transparent.. but, as u knw.. i dn like pink.. i prefer orange u see.. so, i asked that person politely, if she could change it to orange for me.. and yes she did ! XDD so happy larhs.. orange colour.. hahas.. learnt hw to put retainers on , and its like so easy.. abit uncomfortable now, but nvm larhs.. hahs ! nid to put it for about a year? lols.. 1/2 yr 24/7.. 1/2 yr when slpin nia. lols. then collected my teeth mould.. omg.. its like so straight from last time cans ? lols.. bus-ed back to interchange, and bought lunch for weesiong,and myself.. ailing bought hers too, and we came back to my house to eat.. then she went home luhhs.. her mum come and fetch her, cause it was raining super heavy.. lols.. then comp-ed, and audi-ed. now blog lorhs.. hahsa..
orange container . XDDD
teeth mould now .
teeth mould las time.. so erxin. x(
comparison.. great change alrites. lols .
retainers . 
e 4 "dracula" teeths i used to have
nothing is ever important .
3:41 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
today, slack slack seh.. woke up at around 9.30 ? lols.. then completed my chinese homework and then played audi.. XDDD battle party.. but, keep on lose, and lost loads of den, but nv buy anything, so its ok mahs.. went to blk50+ dere , buy instant noodles and ate alone, and drank a can of nescafe coffee.. so shiok seh. came home and played audi.. went to buy stuffs at audi, and in e end, no den alr.. lols.. somemore lost alot of rounds aft tt.. think nw only left 1k ? jitao sian bodoh.. den comp hang-ed, jiu nv play liaos.. super sian.. mayb ltr play ?hahas.. ltr mus read abit of book .. cus i wanna b guai. xDD hehehee.. nth much lerhs.. bb..
3:41 PM
today, slack slack seh.. woke up at around 9.30 ? lols.. then completed my chinese homework and then played audi.. XDDD battle party.. but, keep on lose, and lost loads of den, but nv buy anything, so its ok mahs.. went to blk50+ dere , buy instant noodles and ate alone, and drank a can of nescafe coffee.. so shiok seh. came home and played audi.. went to buy stuffs at audi, and in e end, no den alr.. lols.. somemore lost alot of rounds aft tt.. think nw only left 1k ? jitao sian bodoh.. den comp hang-ed, jiu nv play liaos.. super sian.. mayb ltr play ?hahas.. ltr mus read abit of book .. cus i wanna b guai. xDD hehehee.. nth much lerhs.. bb..
i am not half the person i used to be.
lollipop does not work anymore .
nothing is ever important .
2:45 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
aww.. today woke up at around 7? sians.. cause got frisbee training.. den met veron,ruiyu and xs at maingate.. i wasn't late okays.. is they early.. anyways, xs came later than me mahs.. lols.. den went in to train.. play awhile nia my leg achin liaos.. stupid sia.. nw my leg like nt mine like tt lorsh.. hahass.. then kyle came.. x) so pro larhs.. he came late, but nvm.. at least he came.. hahas.. den when playing, xs threw the frisbee too hard, somemore is short distance.. hit my front teeth seh.. ho-seh lorhs.. hahas. but nvm larhs.. aft awhile jiu nt pain lerhs . lols.. den dnno wad happened to xs de fone.. tink drop.. den spoilt.. sian larhs.. spoiled e whole of her mood.. den all oso bcome sian luhhs.. x( when playing game, keep on lose lorhs.. stupid.. cause e leg like no energy like that.. den wahs... super tired and then pain.. X( den went blk 50+ dere buy stuffs, and came home.. now blog lorhs.. tis few days sian.. cause of some reasons.. x(
i am afraid.. i really am.. i dnwanna lose you.. i would rather it be me, the one suffering, not u.. seriously.. seeing u sick, is as though i am sick.. it hurts me double to see u nt happy.. X( when can all these nonsense end ? if it doesnt, i am breaking down.. soon.. =(
2:45 PM
aww.. today woke up at around 7? sians.. cause got frisbee training.. den met veron,ruiyu and xs at maingate.. i wasn't late okays.. is they early.. anyways, xs came later than me mahs.. lols.. den went in to train.. play awhile nia my leg achin liaos.. stupid sia.. nw my leg like nt mine like tt lorsh.. hahass.. then kyle came.. x) so pro larhs.. he came late, but nvm.. at least he came.. hahas.. den when playing, xs threw the frisbee too hard, somemore is short distance.. hit my front teeth seh.. ho-seh lorhs.. hahas. but nvm larhs.. aft awhile jiu nt pain lerhs . lols.. den dnno wad happened to xs de fone.. tink drop.. den spoilt.. sian larhs.. spoiled e whole of her mood.. den all oso bcome sian luhhs.. x( when playing game, keep on lose lorhs.. stupid.. cause e leg like no energy like that.. den wahs... super tired and then pain.. X( den went blk 50+ dere buy stuffs, and came home.. now blog lorhs.. tis few days sian.. cause of some reasons.. x(
i am afraid.. i really am.. i dnwanna lose you.. i would rather it be me, the one suffering, not u.. seriously.. seeing u sick, is as though i am sick.. it hurts me double to see u nt happy.. X( when can all these nonsense end ? if it doesnt, i am breaking down.. soon.. =(
nothing is ever important .
12:17 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
oh yea .. i forgot ! today is 9MARCH XDD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YONGDING KOR !! XDD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIRLY GANLAOPEH !! XDD
12:17 PM
oh yea .. i forgot ! today is 9MARCH XDD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YONGDING KOR !! XDD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIRLY GANLAOPEH !! XDD
nothing is ever important .
6:16 PM
wahs.. today 7.30 wake up liaos.. cus nid go pray ahgong.. 49days today.. so fast sia.. 49days pass liaos.. den alot of nt happy de things happened.. dnwanna elaborate.. cause its common to me, whenever my papa meet up with his siblings norhs. lols.. den after come bac, pei-ed papa go cut hair.. wahs.. he cut his tt hair.. super super long lorhs.. almost wan sleep liaos.. lols.. den came bac and went to pray, wif papa and mama.. today if nt wrong, is bek-gong birthday.. lols ! den come bac, nw use comp lorhs.. today rather boring..
yay ! tmr and wedn , 8-11 .. frisbee training.. woo ~~ cant wait to go.. but scared got ppl kaopeikaobu, den i bueysong, like last year like that. lols...
tues/wedn nite, retainers.. woo ~~ XDDD
6:16 PM
wahs.. today 7.30 wake up liaos.. cus nid go pray ahgong.. 49days today.. so fast sia.. 49days pass liaos.. den alot of nt happy de things happened.. dnwanna elaborate.. cause its common to me, whenever my papa meet up with his siblings norhs. lols.. den after come bac, pei-ed papa go cut hair.. wahs.. he cut his tt hair.. super super long lorhs.. almost wan sleep liaos.. lols.. den came bac and went to pray, wif papa and mama.. today if nt wrong, is bek-gong birthday.. lols ! den come bac, nw use comp lorhs.. today rather boring..
yay ! tmr and wedn , 8-11 .. frisbee training.. woo ~~ cant wait to go.. but scared got ppl kaopeikaobu, den i bueysong, like last year like that. lols...
tues/wedn nite, retainers.. woo ~~ XDDD
nothing is ever important .
5:24 PM
Saturday, March 08, 2008
woo ~ today woke up at around 8.30.. and straight away, tio scolding.. cause, supposed to wake up earlier to go do ez-link.. den went to do lorhs.. pasir ris interchange.. when reach, den found out that must 10 den got open, and need bring birthcert/nric/passport . but, at that time was around 9.15.. tt one nvm.. i nv bring birthcert ! grr ! den papa brought me to the swensens for breakfast.. dint really like it.. but nvm.. try mahs.. lols.. then came home.. around 1 like that, papa and mama brought me to kembangan to do teeth.. and guess wad . i have got my braces taken out.. now only waiting for my retainers, which probably will be here on tuesday / wednesday night. hahas.. nw mus be careful, cause e thing stil nt stable.. feel like a boh-gae nw.. cause still not used to not having braces.. but e feeling is so cool.. finally, 15mths passed jus like that u knw.. i have waited for this day, for very long lerhs.. hahas ! then went back to pasir ris interchange to make ez-link card.. den went tampines mall.. papa went somewhere else, cause he need to find his friend.. mama and i went there.. to buy wallet + pencilcase . wanted to buy pencilcase around 2wks ago, but no time.. wallet was to replace my lost one.. sobbs . then went to find elmo.. but, all not nice.. wanted to try CS derhs.. but, saw "zinc" shop.. and then bought a bag from there.. also wanted to buy for very long, but nv.. so in e end, nv buy elmo.. den came home.. now blog lorhs.. hahas ! today spent alot of my savings sia... including e ez-link card, around $115.. but mama paid $15 for me.. hahas !! i am returning her e $100 ltr.. XDD
super sleepy.. e hair like nt bad ehs ? lols..
braces girl , without braces ; waiting for retainer .
my wallet .
my pencil case .
my bag. xDD
5:24 PM
woo ~ today woke up at around 8.30.. and straight away, tio scolding.. cause, supposed to wake up earlier to go do ez-link.. den went to do lorhs.. pasir ris interchange.. when reach, den found out that must 10 den got open, and need bring birthcert/nric/passport . but, at that time was around 9.15.. tt one nvm.. i nv bring birthcert ! grr ! den papa brought me to the swensens for breakfast.. dint really like it.. but nvm.. try mahs.. lols.. then came home.. around 1 like that, papa and mama brought me to kembangan to do teeth.. and guess wad . i have got my braces taken out.. now only waiting for my retainers, which probably will be here on tuesday / wednesday night. hahas.. nw mus be careful, cause e thing stil nt stable.. feel like a boh-gae nw.. cause still not used to not having braces.. but e feeling is so cool.. finally, 15mths passed jus like that u knw.. i have waited for this day, for very long lerhs.. hahas ! then went back to pasir ris interchange to make ez-link card.. den went tampines mall.. papa went somewhere else, cause he need to find his friend.. mama and i went there.. to buy wallet + pencilcase . wanted to buy pencilcase around 2wks ago, but no time.. wallet was to replace my lost one.. sobbs . then went to find elmo.. but, all not nice.. wanted to try CS derhs.. but, saw "zinc" shop.. and then bought a bag from there.. also wanted to buy for very long, but nv.. so in e end, nv buy elmo.. den came home.. now blog lorhs.. hahas ! today spent alot of my savings sia... including e ez-link card, around $115.. but mama paid $15 for me.. hahas !! i am returning her e $100 ltr.. XDD
super sleepy.. e hair like nt bad ehs ? lols.. 
braces girl , without braces ; waiting for retainer .
my wallet .
my pencil case .
my bag. xDDbraces girl w/o braces .
retainers on tues/wedn night .
nothing is ever important .
5:41 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
today, is not at all good.. x( early morning tio kpkb liaos.. mood nt good , nvm.. go school mood jiu good back abit liaos mahs.. den jus nw wan go ms pang dere.. go down nia.. i dnno hw, my wallet lost.. wth seh.. go home, tell dem.. den tio scolding.. blablabla nonsence all lo.. sians.. gt mood, become no mood.. somemore he today nt feeling well.. its e worst thing ever ever.. x(
i am sorry to have caused so much trouble.. seriously i am sorry.. let this be a first and last time lerhs.. i wun do it again.. i really wont.. believe me okays ? x((
5:41 PM
today, is not at all good.. x( early morning tio kpkb liaos.. mood nt good , nvm.. go school mood jiu good back abit liaos mahs.. den jus nw wan go ms pang dere.. go down nia.. i dnno hw, my wallet lost.. wth seh.. go home, tell dem.. den tio scolding.. blablabla nonsence all lo.. sians.. gt mood, become no mood.. somemore he today nt feeling well.. its e worst thing ever ever.. x(
i am sorry to have caused so much trouble.. seriously i am sorry.. let this be a first and last time lerhs.. i wun do it again.. i really wont.. believe me okays ? x((
nothing is ever important .
3:55 PM
Thursday, March 06, 2008
today, overall was sian lo.. stupid seh.. everyday like tis.. =(( tis whole week, dn tink evn one day i am happy lo.. wth.. lessons are all ok larhs. but jus dnno why, like bushuang nia lo.. lols.. aft assembly had a "detention" ? all lower sec were sitted at the hall, for 30mins+ how great ? then went bac class to decorate class.. decorate awhile nia.. i go home alr.. cause i tell mama tt will go home at 3.30 mahs.. and i dnwanna stay in school.. so stupid seh, stay in school.. lols.. came home, do homework and blablabla lo.. all nonsense.. hahas ! nth to blog today.. xPP
wth ? y lik tt ehs ?
y my tt fkin temper so bad ?!
small small thing wan bushuang ppl..
den aft tt wan fite..
like a bully sia..
sec2 bully sec1 ?
wth..
3:55 PM
today, overall was sian lo.. stupid seh.. everyday like tis.. =(( tis whole week, dn tink evn one day i am happy lo.. wth.. lessons are all ok larhs. but jus dnno why, like bushuang nia lo.. lols.. aft assembly had a "detention" ? all lower sec were sitted at the hall, for 30mins+ how great ? then went bac class to decorate class.. decorate awhile nia.. i go home alr.. cause i tell mama tt will go home at 3.30 mahs.. and i dnwanna stay in school.. so stupid seh, stay in school.. lols.. came home, do homework and blablabla lo.. all nonsense.. hahas ! nth to blog today.. xPP
wth ? y lik tt ehs ?
y my tt fkin temper so bad ?!
small small thing wan bushuang ppl..
den aft tt wan fite..
like a bully sia..
sec2 bully sec1 ?
wth..
nothing is ever important .
8:37 PM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
today, finally a day that i nv wake up earlier, to go school.. hahash !! very tired one okays.. wake up so early.. hahas ! common test was okays.. dnno will fail or will pass.. DnT, finally bent my work.. so, i think next week is 3periods of slacking, i guess ? history.. got back the test result.. and, i passed ! WOOTS !! though only 13/20 .. but, at least i passed.. i expected a fail, cause i though that i did badly for that.. recess was normal.. then had geog.. abit guailan.. slept abit, think she tolerating me ? dnno ehs.. but today lucky nv kana kaopei.. wahs.. peace sia.. xD chinese was ok-ok for me.. art, another slack time.. muahahaha.. i am a slacker ! then stayed in school.. it rained damn heavily.. supposed to have campcraft training, but due to e heavy rain.. did not have.. was supposed to wait until 6 derhs.. but haven 5, they say dnwan lerhs.. wahs so happy seh.. den jus now, something had happened.. so unlucky.. those who was there, will know.. think tmr i wil tell u all ? not sure.. ahhas.. tell already cannot laugh horh ! XDD
8:37 PM
today, finally a day that i nv wake up earlier, to go school.. hahash !! very tired one okays.. wake up so early.. hahas ! common test was okays.. dnno will fail or will pass.. DnT, finally bent my work.. so, i think next week is 3periods of slacking, i guess ? history.. got back the test result.. and, i passed ! WOOTS !! though only 13/20 .. but, at least i passed.. i expected a fail, cause i though that i did badly for that.. recess was normal.. then had geog.. abit guailan.. slept abit, think she tolerating me ? dnno ehs.. but today lucky nv kana kaopei.. wahs.. peace sia.. xD chinese was ok-ok for me.. art, another slack time.. muahahaha.. i am a slacker ! then stayed in school.. it rained damn heavily.. supposed to have campcraft training, but due to e heavy rain.. did not have.. was supposed to wait until 6 derhs.. but haven 5, they say dnwan lerhs.. wahs so happy seh.. den jus now, something had happened.. so unlucky.. those who was there, will know.. think tmr i wil tell u all ? not sure.. ahhas.. tell already cannot laugh horh ! XDD
nothing is ever important .
5:10 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
went schl earlier, cause nid help kimberly they all bring mahjong paper.. lols.. n e end, was there i guess abit too early.. den had flag raising in class.. wasn't really in a mood, actually, shld b in a bad bad mood.. x( then had english, which think after awhile, made my mood rise ? lols.. science was okays too ! XDD chinese, wrote composition, and i guess i anyhw anyhw write, and write out-of-point ? not sure.. hehehe.. recess, i ate.. and read up abit for DnT.. then had maths.. mrsliew dint come.. and was all e way slacking.. hahahss.. dint skip class today, cause am a good kid.. XDDDD *claps* art, was once again slacking.. hahash ! lunch, ate.. hahas !! kip on eat n eat nia.. then e course.. so damn fkin bored.. no mood. dint knw y too.. hahas !! everytime like that one lo.. then at canteen slack awhile, ate tomyam maggie.. XDD then had campcraft, which i think i did not do anything, i gues.. it ended at around 5.15 ? went canteen and saw yongding kor.. me and rowena was there with him do homework.. lols.. SUPPOSED to study, but i think i only study abit bahs.. ltr den go study agn.. XDD i am a good girl okays.. then came home.. had dinner and now blog lorhs.. hahas..
its not that i dnwan to control.. its not that i dnwan to promise.. its that i jus cant .. i am always tempted to do it.. i dnno why.. x( i dnwan to promise u guys, cause i know that i sure will break it.. i dnno y, but i knw tt i will break it.. i cant promise anything, cause everytime whenever i promise you guys, i will break it, and becomes that i am unreliable.. now, all i can say is that, i will try okays ? once more.. i will try it..
5:10 PM
went schl earlier, cause nid help kimberly they all bring mahjong paper.. lols.. n e end, was there i guess abit too early.. den had flag raising in class.. wasn't really in a mood, actually, shld b in a bad bad mood.. x( then had english, which think after awhile, made my mood rise ? lols.. science was okays too ! XDD chinese, wrote composition, and i guess i anyhw anyhw write, and write out-of-point ? not sure.. hehehe.. recess, i ate.. and read up abit for DnT.. then had maths.. mrsliew dint come.. and was all e way slacking.. hahahss.. dint skip class today, cause am a good kid.. XDDDD *claps* art, was once again slacking.. hahash ! lunch, ate.. hahas !! kip on eat n eat nia.. then e course.. so damn fkin bored.. no mood. dint knw y too.. hahas !! everytime like that one lo.. then at canteen slack awhile, ate tomyam maggie.. XDD then had campcraft, which i think i did not do anything, i gues.. it ended at around 5.15 ? went canteen and saw yongding kor.. me and rowena was there with him do homework.. lols.. SUPPOSED to study, but i think i only study abit bahs.. ltr den go study agn.. XDD i am a good girl okays.. then came home.. had dinner and now blog lorhs.. hahas..
its not that i dnwan to control.. its not that i dnwan to promise.. its that i jus cant .. i am always tempted to do it.. i dnno why.. x( i dnwan to promise u guys, cause i know that i sure will break it.. i dnno y, but i knw tt i will break it.. i cant promise anything, cause everytime whenever i promise you guys, i will break it, and becomes that i am unreliable.. now, all i can say is that, i will try okays ? once more.. i will try it..
wads e point of promising,
when i know that i will brk it..
nothing is ever important .
6:47 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
morning woke up abit earlier, to go school to decorate table, but in the end, reached there at the normal time.. which was a waste of my precious sleep.. grrr... first had science.. sleeping.. XDD then had history, sleeping once more.. maths was alrights.. had a fair share of fun.. recess was just as per normal.. then had geog.. got all mad.. x(( english was two free periods.. mood jus dropped, for some unwanted reasons.. chinese was slacking.. cause only had to file up worksheets.. and my eyes were practically wanting to drop, like no one's buisiness.. hehehe.. then came back, had lunch and now blogging.. ltr going help kimberly and jieyi buy mahjong paper.. see, i so good. XDD
to that teacher :
so wad if you my teacher, and i have to respect you? come'on.. i did nothing wrong, and you are like shouting at me, for no reason at all.. people say me, of cause i fight back.. i not puppet ehs.. let ppl anyhow anyhow say , anyhow anyhow shout one lehs.. ppl say me, i say back, den u nv scold that person, u come and shout at me.. teacher so wad ? big fcuk arx? i have a limit to my tolerance okays.. if i knew tt thing would had happened, i wouldn't have had went out to help at the first place.. waste of time, and somemore make my mood drop..
to that guy :
i admit i used to like you, and we are friends for like dnno hw long.. but now, no.. i am not your toy okays.. suka suka u want to scold jiu scold.. want to insult jiu insult.. i already tolerate very long okays.. everytime u say me, and i say back... its always my fault.. wth is this ? fair or not ? since last time till now.. everytime i fight back, also my mistake.. i haf nth to say anymore..only that ppl are biased...
to my friends :
i know i am wrong, for skipping class.. i am glad that u guys dint really tell the tcher, but actually helped me by saying excuses.. but, its been 2wks already, since i last skipped.. so, for once.. i would like to say a thankyou, for helping me, and sorry, cause i guess i have disappointed you guys... i know i have changed.. my attitude alot alot worse already.. become like a small hooligan.. i have tried changing.. but i have failed.. i guess its time now, for me to try again.. give me time will you ? XD
6:47 PM
morning woke up abit earlier, to go school to decorate table, but in the end, reached there at the normal time.. which was a waste of my precious sleep.. grrr... first had science.. sleeping.. XDD then had history, sleeping once more.. maths was alrights.. had a fair share of fun.. recess was just as per normal.. then had geog.. got all mad.. x(( english was two free periods.. mood jus dropped, for some unwanted reasons.. chinese was slacking.. cause only had to file up worksheets.. and my eyes were practically wanting to drop, like no one's buisiness.. hehehe.. then came back, had lunch and now blogging.. ltr going help kimberly and jieyi buy mahjong paper.. see, i so good. XDD
to that teacher :
so wad if you my teacher, and i have to respect you? come'on.. i did nothing wrong, and you are like shouting at me, for no reason at all.. people say me, of cause i fight back.. i not puppet ehs.. let ppl anyhow anyhow say , anyhow anyhow shout one lehs.. ppl say me, i say back, den u nv scold that person, u come and shout at me.. teacher so wad ? big fcuk arx? i have a limit to my tolerance okays.. if i knew tt thing would had happened, i wouldn't have had went out to help at the first place.. waste of time, and somemore make my mood drop..
to that guy :
i admit i used to like you, and we are friends for like dnno hw long.. but now, no.. i am not your toy okays.. suka suka u want to scold jiu scold.. want to insult jiu insult.. i already tolerate very long okays.. everytime u say me, and i say back... its always my fault.. wth is this ? fair or not ? since last time till now.. everytime i fight back, also my mistake.. i haf nth to say anymore..only that ppl are biased...
to my friends :
i know i am wrong, for skipping class.. i am glad that u guys dint really tell the tcher, but actually helped me by saying excuses.. but, its been 2wks already, since i last skipped.. so, for once.. i would like to say a thankyou, for helping me, and sorry, cause i guess i have disappointed you guys... i know i have changed.. my attitude alot alot worse already.. become like a small hooligan.. i have tried changing.. but i have failed.. i guess its time now, for me to try again.. give me time will you ? XD
nothing is ever important .
2:17 PM
Sunday, March 02, 2008
restricted..
i am restricted...
not from my friends,
but from those two whom gave me life..
those two whom gave me sadness...
when i study, u never see..
when i play, u kaopei..
is this wad it meant by care?
nevermind about that..
you both are like arguing always...
leaving me, dnno wad to do..
making me unhappy..
making me sad...
i have tried and tried..
tried and tried..
i was happy, but not now...
tears jus keep dropping..
and dropping..
i wanna be like the me,
last year...
the me, whom dint care...
the me, whom played and played..
i wanna be the me,
whom disturbed "someone",
in my camp last year...
i wanna be the me,
whom have got no feeling for others..
it may seem cold..
but i dint know wad is sadness...
neither do i know how to hold a penknife...
i wanna fall back to square one..
but, can i ?
2:17 PM
restricted..
i am restricted...
not from my friends,
but from those two whom gave me life..
those two whom gave me sadness...
when i study, u never see..
when i play, u kaopei..
is this wad it meant by care?
nevermind about that..
you both are like arguing always...
leaving me, dnno wad to do..
making me unhappy..
making me sad...
i have tried and tried..
tried and tried..
i was happy, but not now...
tears jus keep dropping..
and dropping..
i wanna be like the me,
last year...
the me, whom dint care...
the me, whom played and played..
i wanna be the me,
whom disturbed "someone",
in my camp last year...
i wanna be the me,
whom have got no feeling for others..
it may seem cold..
but i dint know wad is sadness...
neither do i know how to hold a penknife...
i wanna fall back to square one..
but, can i ?
i am tired
i really am..
nothing is ever important .
1:09 PM
Saturday, March 01, 2008
had to drag myself up today at 5.30, as was supposed to have campcraft competition today.. it drizzled, but nvm.. dad fetched me to school back gate, and met-up with the team.. short after, all arrived and bus arrived too.. we set on our way to HTA.. hhehehe.. but, it rained.. we had started on and finished our stuffs, but we had done it badly.. hais.. alot of things were not in place, and we were in a bad shape.. the whole team wasnt in any mood.. after that, we went into the big shelter and tried to wait for the rain to stop so that we could un-pitch everything.. but, we waited for a long time but the rain did not stop. we had only took our flags, and the CIs helped us to pack everything.. jus then, we received the news, that the competition is being postponed to next week, due to bad weather. wow !! the whole team's mood shot high up.. woots ! we made our way, to Bedok Stadium, to watch the sports day.. even though we only reached at around the prize giving, its better than not even able to go. xDD then, went inter for lunch with yizhen they all.. and came bac, use comp till now, blog.. mum nagging naggin.. lols..ltr den go rest.. XDDD
friends.. i know that u guys know that i cut my legs instead of hand nowadays, and i guess u guys are disappointed in me.. or mayb some of u have already given up, which is a good sign.. but, i really really cannot control my mood.. i really cant.. i dnno why, i jus have to do it, and in the end, i did it.. give me somemore time, and i will still try.. thankyou .
1:09 PM
had to drag myself up today at 5.30, as was supposed to have campcraft competition today.. it drizzled, but nvm.. dad fetched me to school back gate, and met-up with the team.. short after, all arrived and bus arrived too.. we set on our way to HTA.. hhehehe.. but, it rained.. we had started on and finished our stuffs, but we had done it badly.. hais.. alot of things were not in place, and we were in a bad shape.. the whole team wasnt in any mood.. after that, we went into the big shelter and tried to wait for the rain to stop so that we could un-pitch everything.. but, we waited for a long time but the rain did not stop. we had only took our flags, and the CIs helped us to pack everything.. jus then, we received the news, that the competition is being postponed to next week, due to bad weather. wow !! the whole team's mood shot high up.. woots ! we made our way, to Bedok Stadium, to watch the sports day.. even though we only reached at around the prize giving, its better than not even able to go. xDD then, went inter for lunch with yizhen they all.. and came bac, use comp till now, blog.. mum nagging naggin.. lols..ltr den go rest.. XDDD
friends.. i know that u guys know that i cut my legs instead of hand nowadays, and i guess u guys are disappointed in me.. or mayb some of u have already given up, which is a good sign.. but, i really really cannot control my mood.. i really cant.. i dnno why, i jus have to do it, and in the end, i did it.. give me somemore time, and i will still try.. thankyou .
nothing is ever important .
7:25 PM
7:25 PM