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2weeks have passed like this .
everything is still the same , not going for the better .
instead , it became worse , from 17Sept .

i have been deceiving others , deceiving myself .
until this recent week , it seemed that it has become a more obvious deceive .
i have been using people , without their notice .
i am tired of it . cause , its pointless .
i need someone , but i found out that can't tell anything .

151days , but its pointless to me .
when i did it , i get disappointments .
but, when i do not do it , i get nothing too .
really lost , which one better . can anyone tell me ?

this feeling sucks , but no one will ever understand .
cause , i guess seldom will there be anyone whom have gone through .
i have made a wrong step .
now , no matter how many regrets , its pointless .
but, i am still regretting . i dont know why . x(

i am afraid now .
afraid that all will leave me one day, and i will be alone .
afraid of everything happening .

all i hope now is , that everything will be fine soon , thats all .
i am not sad , but i just can't be happy .
i guess, this is life .

i believe , the scars won't heal .

我难过，但有谁懂？

nothing is ever important .
3:18 PM

this week .. sosososo sucks .
want change, but found out i am still the same .
haiss..

i guess, this time is really really must change ler .
damndamn hate my attitude larr !
found out something damn bad yesterday . third time lerr.. hais..
i majiam cannot learn de leh..
stupid me .. damn angry and disappointed with myself.. hais..

now say wad , also no use ler .
i guess , just wait for time to go by , and everything to be solved bahh.

this blog , shall really be left here .
till the day i come back , till the day i have changed .
till the day i have kicked all my bad habits .
till the day i have walked out of this darkness .
let sept5 , be the day that i learn my mistake .

goodluck to all .

to person A

theres so much to tell you , but i cant .

i hope and wish to see you online , but you arent .

to person B

for the past few days , i have been thinking .

why have i treated you so bad, but you are still there ?

why do you know so much , but tell me so little ?

i hope that you will be happy always , eventhough live sucks at times .

thankyou for the things you have done .

i guess , i have found another true friend yea ? ^^

nothing is ever important .
10:42 AM