Heart’s not here

I am sitting right here, right now. But my heart isn’t. I know I have no more time to waste, exams are like in a week’s time. But my heart is on the beach, on the field. Running wild.

I know I don’t really play well, in fact I play like crap. But, I can’t help it. I like and enjoy making new friends, meeting new people. Every time , every chance on the field/beach is a new memory, a new chance for me to make friends and meet people. That’s what keeps me playing on, despite my skills, I guess.

But, really. This sport really shaped me. But due to studies, its stopping me from going to it. I know studies are more important. I know I can still go back to the field and the beach right after my exams. But whenever I see the events coming up, and I can’t get to join. I feel pain in my heart. I don’t know why, though.

I don’t really feel much now. But I feel madly in love, not with someone. But in love with something, that I am not good at. Foolish? But personally, I feel that the amount of fun and the number of people you get to meet, its more than enough. Really.

This spot gave me many memories. Although I have been injured many times whilst playing, but nevertheless, its still as fun. I don’t know why am I typing all these craps down. But, I guess I just need some place to store my thoughts.

I guess, the only thing I can do now, is to stay focus.

I will be back.