I am worried.

There are many ‘what if'’  in my head. I have seen such a scene before, but I never really know or understand how it feels, until that fateful day, where it happened to me.

I am really worried. If I become like that person, how? She worked so hard, but yet everything was in vain. She passed out with a rank 2 levels lower than majority of her friends. How?

If I am like her. I can’t take it for sure. I can’t. I used to have so much confidence, but now, not anymore. No longer. I used to enjoy it, but not anymore. Maybe I will enjoy it, but the hurt will still be there, until one day where I have succeeded. This may seem nothing to most of you, but its something that hurt me a lot.

Don’t lose hope, you guys will say. But, this similar thing have happened to someone. Someone whom obviously seems lousier than that person could succeed, but she didn’t. I am really afraid that such a thing will happen to me.

But, there is no point fretting over it now, even though I feel miserable. ((:

Someone’s reading it, I guess.
Don’t take it to heart, I don’t know will you.