It still hurts. It really do.

I have not forgotten what you said, maybe its just a passing remark. But, I was hurt. Really. Maybe I don’t look like I will be, but I am. Its a fact. I am a human too alright. I can feel. You can’t? Too bad then.

It is not supposed to be insulting, but really. I thought that you are my friend. A close friend. But judging from what you have done to me, how you have treated me, and what you have said, I am confused.

Yes, I may seem to be nice, always clearing up your piece of shit that you always throw it to me. Yes, I do say hurting words at times. But I do apologise and crack a joke after that right? What about you? You just said that like its nothing. Of course, it may mean nothing to you, cause you ain’t going through it. But what about me? I was feeling real bad, and you just sprinkled salt to my wound. My hurt heart. Good friend yea? ((:

Do you know that I have been pondering over it for the past few days? Do you know that I have been thinking? Do you know how hurt it is? I don’t know who is the one whom have changed. You? Me? Both? But I guess it may be me, for it always seems to be me whom is at fault, always. Yea.

I admit, I am jealous. Jealous that you had done well, while me, done so badly. But that is not why I am sore. I am sore cause you have been taking advantage of me, and those words that you had said. Really.

How I wish that things will turn back to the past. How I wish things could be simpler. But, I don’t think it can. For from that day, things had changed. Totally. Even if I am able to do well the second time, it won’t turn back. I swear, it won’t.

Till then.