I guess I had been too complacent . Everything had been rather smooth sailing . But after today , its not.
This is my 3rd year , and everything came to me easily before that. This is the first time, maybe second, that I had a setback here . It practically tore me down into pieces. I was shock. I guess I was over-confident. It hit me down, from one piece into many. My heart shattered like glass.
Almost everyone had smiles on their faces. Only mine was a frown. I told myself a million times that I would do better next time, but it did not work. It didn't. Tears still drop. No one saw, I guess.
I had lost all the confidence. I am being knocked down. Before that , I thought that it would bring me up from everything. I thought that it would put a good full-stop to today training, as it did not had a good start and it practically sucked. In the end, it ended with even worse results.
This time, I am really being knocked down. All my confidence vanished. I had this similiar feeling sometime back. It was about ENGLISH. It was rather expected. But this, its totally unexpected. I feel so lousy. Infact, after today, I think I really am.
All of a sudden, it feels so hard to put on a smile.
nothing is ever important .
9:52 PM
9:52 PM