Everytime, when I come here, I will have a different feeling.
This time, its something, undescribable.
My feelings are so mixed up. I feel lost.
Shes changed. Shes so sensitive now, maybe only today. All I said was just something, and she flared up. What is it man. Here I am, trying to prevent something bad from happening, and there you are, making something bad happen. Are you nuts?
Its been 20plus years. 20plus. You could tolerate it for 20plus years, but why not now? Everyday, you have to make things get more complicated. But, do you know how hurt I feel? Do you know that whenever you both quarrels, the one that feels the most is me? You both feels oblivious to me. Why do I say that? Simply because if you both feels, you both won't quarrel. Who would be so silly to make themselves hurt?
Everyday, I feel so lost. I feel so hard on the way home. Why? Cause I am scared. I am afraid that when I get home, something bad will happen, I will see something which I don't want to. But what can I do? I will still have to get home, and face the reality. The reality that hurts.
Lets just hope that things will get better. ((:
As each minute passes, I get more tired. My heart hurts so much.
I am lost this time, really.
All I want is for peace to stay, thats all.
nothing is ever important .
5:44 PM
5:44 PM