Its been sometime since there is a real post isnt it ?
Alright , so lets have a post today then .
Lets pen down all that I have for now . ((:
Recently , alot have been happening . Inside the house , and outside the house . Everything seems to change , unlike the past . I, too, have changed , I guess . I need time to adapt to these changes too. Am I given time ? I ain't so sure about it yea . All in all, I feel so weird nowadays , where everything feels so different . How I wish time could turn back to 2 years ago , where everything seemed so nice , and the road seemed so straight . And when I seem to be so young. ((:
In the past , I guess I was too young , everything seem so simple . Something small to me now , seems so big to me then . Is this a form of growing ? I ain't sure too. Its only after a short 24months , and everything seems so different . I can no longer find myself . I don't see myself just like what I was in the past . There are too many things for me to figure out , and think about . But , theres too little time , too little energy . How I wish I have an unlimited amount of energy , and I am able to do everything .
The road ahead seems so hard to walk through . Everything seems to be upside down . To a certain extent , I have grown . I have changed . But , I have not yet truly matured . I am greedy . I want everything to be right . When I am struggling , I think about god . I pray to him , and wish for everything to be the best . When everything is alright , I forget about him . I forget about the promises I had made when I need him . Nonetheless , it feels so hard to keep to it . I ain't a saint, I do the wrong things too . But , I don't feel that I am putting in enough effort . I am just trying to seek attention over here .
I am lost . Theres so much for me to say , but I don't know how to pen it down . I guess , its just all about it for now . ((:
Till then .
nothing is ever important .
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