Yes , many said its my past .
Many said don't mind .
But , how many is it true ?
I am still afraid to tell , after so many times .
Everytime I tell , tears would just drop .
I am numbed by it .
But , why .
Why no one scolds or say me ?
Why ? It makes me cry by the encouragements .
It makes me cry by all these . Why ?
It seems just the past .
But , its still within me .
I still can't forget about it , can't get over it .
If I can't accept myself , how can others accept me ?
But how can others still accept me , when I can't accept myself ?
Why ? Its so ironic .
How I wish I can too accept , but I can't .
Many times I have took up the courage to tell .
But , all the ending is still the same .
How I wish someone will scold me .
Anyone ?
I will listen this time .
I really will .
Cause , I really want to change .
I don't wish to lie anymore .
I don't wish to say one thing and do it soon after .
I am sick and tired of it .
So from now onwards , I won't .
nothing is ever important .
9:29 PM
9:29 PM