after 105 days , i finally went .
but , its cause my friend asked me to .
eventhough i went , but things aren't the same anymore .
i could no longer see her in her eyes .
my friend did not know anything , so , i guess she does not want to ask .
if it was me alone , i guess i would not have so much courage to go .
after today , i do not know when will i go next time .
the place which used to be so familiar to me , seemed so distant .
i am afraid of her now .
she used to be so close to me , but after that day .
after that disappointing day , it all changed .
i am so foolish .
so foolish to have told her .
if i did not tell , i guess there would not be so much regrets .
but , whats done , cant be undone .
i guess , the next time i see her , will be cause my friend want to go .
not cause i want to go , as i can no longer face her anymore .
i really cant .
nothing is ever important .
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