Truth have always been cruel and hurtful .
Hence , I chose to lie , thinking that it would not hurt .
But , it hurts even more .
I lie to myself , eventhough I know it hurts .
I do foolish things , eventhough I know its wrong .
I think of it , when I should not .
I want it , but I do not dare to get it .
I feel so useless and stupid .
I am lost , and I don't know what to do .
The only thing , that I am sure of , is that it really hurts .
Running away is something stupid , but I have no other choice .
215days .
87days .
29days .
how long can i hang on for all this ?
sometimes telling it , will make me feel save .
eventhough , i may lose many people .