when was the last time which i had been happy ?
when was the last time which i had not worries ?
when was the last time which i had smiled with my heart ?
it was a long long long time ago .

tired , i really am .
hanging in midst of no where, trying to get out .
to get out of this maze , but i cant .

its too much for me to carry on .
its too much for me to shoulder .
its too much for me , just too much .

i just want to break down .
i just want to cry .
i just want to be left there alone .
i just want to be back to the past .

but , all these are impossible .
time cannot be turned back .
once a scar is there , it would not recover .

so , when will it be , that i walk out of this ?
i have really regretted .
really felt the pain in me .
i know the wrongs of it .
but , i still did it .
naive ? i guess so .

i guess , it serves me right to feel this way .
i am lost ; no one understands , so don't bother . (: