2weeks have passed like this .
everything is still the same , not going for the better .
instead , it became worse , from 17Sept .
i have been deceiving others , deceiving myself .
until this recent week , it seemed that it has become a more obvious deceive .
i have been using people , without their notice .
i am tired of it . cause , its pointless .
i need someone , but i found out that can't tell anything .
151days , but its pointless to me .
when i did it , i get disappointments .
but, when i do not do it , i get nothing too .
really lost , which one better . can anyone tell me ?
this feeling sucks , but no one will ever understand .
cause , i guess seldom will there be anyone whom have gone through .
i have made a wrong step .
now , no matter how many regrets , its pointless .
but, i am still regretting . i dont know why . x(
i am afraid now .
afraid that all will leave me one day, and i will be alone .
afraid of everything happening .
all i hope now is , that everything will be fine soon , thats all .
i am not sad , but i just can't be happy .
i guess, this is life .
i believe , the scars won't heal .
我难过，但有谁懂？
nothing is ever important .
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