starting to really feel that i am not worth anything ..
not worth all the care and concern given to me ..
not worth all the respect that i get . (or is there none?)
not worth for all the sorry and "paiseh" , really .
not being emo , but its a fact .
i have finally realise that its no longer biase ..
its cause of the things that i have done before ..
whats mine , will be mine .
whats not mine , will never be mine .
things have changed . better or worse ? i dontknow
those that used to be familiar to me, seem to get further ..
those that used to be not familiar to me , seem to come closer ..
recently, i have found out many many many bad things about me .
not these two days .. but its for the past month .
i have been observing .
i am just a coward ..
a coward that dares to do , but don't dare to say and face consequences .
i am just a disappointment ..
not only to others , but to myself too .
i know that many are disappointed , but don't say out . or is it that no one care anymore ?
whatever it is , i am just worthless .
i guess i am now a changed person .
or is it not changed yet ? i don't know either
but , i know that i want to change .
i shall accept everything that comes to me , be it what .
i shall not control anything anymore .
i won't accept the sorry and "paiseh" , cause i don't deserve it .
i guess , these three lines shall me the new me ? i am not sure (:
gone , for a break .
blogging not on daily basis anymore . (:
nothing is ever important .
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