i have came across a newspaper article, when i was "forced" to read e papers today.. but, it turned out to be rather meaningful.. this article, its about teenagers whom takes something sharp, and tries to cut themselves.. i was very interested in it, why ? you guys should know it well.. i totally agree, with this article. it is said, to be that when someone cuts himself, the pain will trigger the release of endorpins. These hormones will numb the pain and give the person something like a 'high'. This effect can be similiar to certain hand drugs like heroine, which makes people so addicted.
In the past,when i first started to cut, it was 100% for fun. But, as the time goes by, and the more i cut, I start to feel that, whenever I cut, i will feel a sense of satisfaction, which is stated as high. But, after not long, of the cutting, my friends (u all) , found out about it. And, I guess none is happy about it. You guys were telling me to stop, I did it, for 3weeks. But, straight after the 3weeks, I bought another new penknife and does it again. Just last week, I signed some "agreement", and I regretted it. I really do, because whenever I see the blood flowing out, I really feel happy, I really feel the sense of satisfaction which can bring me "happiness". Eventhough it is not for long, at least there is still a bit of it. Hereby, I would like to tell you guys that, I do not cut for fun. Eventhough I know that cutting is wrong and I guess it may or may not hurt some of you guys, but it really makes me feel nice, it really do.
Just now, my mum read the article too, and she came and ask me. IF one day, I were to be not happy, will I cut myself. I told her "no" . I lied to her. But, its already a fact, that I have cut myself before, and I enjoy doing so. I really do.
Hereby, I want to "dedicate" this post, to ALL MY FRIENDS . thankyou.
nothing is ever important .
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