afraid.. i really am... i dn want to lose u.. neither do i wan to see u sick.. i dn need u to recover fully.. but, i just want you to be healthy.. i am sorry, for being so nt understanding and guai lan last time.. but this few days, see u like so sick.. and walk like keep on want to fall down.. my heart hurts really.. i dn wan to see you being admitted into the hospital again... i want you to be like before.. but, i know that the clock can never turn anti-clockwise, and all those illness are in you.. they can never ever be removed from you.. i know that you have finally learnt, and want to take care of urself.. but, you are still sick.. i have tried my very best, to respect you and to treat you better.. but, its too late.. all too late.. i know that you are suffering inside.. but, you are just waiting for the 14th.. waiting for the report to b out.. and mayb to see the doctor.. i hope that you will be fine.. and be ok, without any operations.. all we have to do now is, to just wait for that day... i am not following you there, not cause i only care about going back to primary school, mayb for the last training of frisbee.. but, because i dn dare to accept the fact, when the report is out.. i dn dare to face it.. and, i dn want to go for NP trainings is because i dn want my sadness, to affect anyone.. cause, whenever i am sad, i will tend to show attitude and guailan.. i have regretted alot of times.. i dn wan to regret anymore.. but, if i dn go, not only will i lose out information and things tt they learn, seniors will b disappointed, or rather angry.. cause, i promised them that i will go.. so, i guess that the only way is that i just go bahs...
nothing is ever important .
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